8~NICHOLAS 

NICHOLAS

Pain. I crave pain like an addict would crave drugs. It's a feeling I was also used to. I've gotten so used to it to the extent I go numb, It doesn't hurt anymore. I got used to the pain ever since Jack, my dipshit of a father smacks me around when I was little. I've learnt how not to feel pain and at the same time I needed the pain because pain is much better than having feelings.

I used to lock myself up in a room and inflict pain on myself. Even when my dad was gone, I still needed the pain. My mom caught me one day when I was busy burning my arm with a lighter. The next day, she took me to a therapist who told me other ways I could feel pain without actually hurting myself. He suggest some exercises for me but my favourite of them was the punching bag.

I'd punch the bag till my knuckles hurts and my blood roared in my head. I got some sparring partners but that quickly ended. Apparently, my fighting could get a little intense sometimes. Fucking pussies, they didn't und