CHAPTER THIRTEEN

RAIN

The first thing I notice when I wake up is Xavier's arm around me. Why is he still here? I'm already disgusted enough with myself, his presence here isn't making me feel better. I let my bully fuck me, repeatedly, last night. This has to be Stockholm syndrome right?

Xavier moves and yawns and I know that he's awake

"You're still here?" I ask.

"I figured since we're going to be doing this a lot, that sneaking off before you wake up is in bad taste. Why is your father never home?"

He sits up and pulls me up with him.

"Absolutely no pillow talk, Xavier. This is just sex."

As usual, he's not listening to anything I say, Xavier only follows his own rules.

"Do you hate him?"

"No, I love my dad, he just works a lot."

"Oh, so that's how you're able to afford going to our school?"

I move away from him and turn on the light on my night stand.

"No pillow talk, Xavier. Why are you so chatty?"

I don't want to know him beyond this physical aspect. If I fall in love with Xavier on top of all this, I'm screwed. He laughs and I throw a pillow at him.

"Obviously we're both two crazy teenagers, so we need ground rules."

His face contorts in disgust. Sorry pal, I need rules to stop me from falling in love with you since falling in bed with you is all I seem to do.

"First on the list is no one should find out. I can't live with myself if people find out."

He nods. "I agree with that rule."

Ouch. I know why I don't want people to find out, why does he not want people finding out?

"Number two, get your friends to back off."

His jaw clenches and the smirk on his face is gone.

"I can't do that."

"Can't or won't, Xavier?"

"Can't. This thing with Derrick, it's deep. We don't even know what you did but he won't let it go and we don't interfere."

He doesn't know what I did? I didn't do anything! Derrick just saw me and hated me on sight.

"So what? You want us to have sex at night but at school you'll push me into lockers? Does that make sense to you?"

"I've never pushed you into a locker."

This is hopeless. I try to leave the bed but Xavier pulls me back and pins me under his weight.

"Will it make you feel better if I promise not to point you out to Derrick?"

I glare at him. "No, what will make me feel better is him agreeing to leave me alone."

He shakes his head. "I can't do that. I can make you feel better this morning though."

He says and grinds into me. I pull my lips into my teeth and bite down to stop myself from moaning.

"No chance. You're out of condoms Xavier."

He laughs above me. "I'm clean. I'm always very particular about the people I sleep with."

"Oh, so you always have sex without condoms?"

"Never. You're special, Simmons."

This is bad, why am I considering it? I clear my throat and try to shove him off.

"Whatever, diseases aren't the only reason why this is a bad idea."

He sighs and moves away from me. He leaves the bed and starts putting his clothes on.

"Where did you park? I didn't think to ask last night."

He smirks at that and I roll my eyes.

"You're a pig, Bishops. Seriously, this is a bad neighborhood. Pray really hard that your expensive car is still there when you go outside."

"I didn't drive. I took a taxi."

Right, his car is pretty recognizable. He wouldn't want people to see it around here and suspect that he's slumming it with me.

"Okay, get out."

I say and run into the bathroom before he says anything. I make sure to slam the door when I enter. By the time I come out, Xavier will be long gone.

I turn the shower on and let it wash all over me. I'm being stupid here, I know I am. Hooking up with Xavier is gluttony or maybe it's greed, I don't know. I've always been insanely attracted to him but actively having sex with him? I'm messing with fire here.

He can hurt me if he wants to. Worse, if people find out, my life will be over. I know all this and yet I can't stop. What is wrong with me? I've never had a problem with rejecting guys before.

"Princess?"

Dad is back. He's been working night shift as security at a construction site this week.

"I'm in the bathroom, daddy." I call out.

"Okay, I'll get breakfast ready."

Xavier has already gone. It was a close call today, we might not be this lucky next time. He needs to start leaving earlier. I finish my shower and get dressed. It's still too early for school but I can just spend time with dad before leaving for school.

"You're up early." He says when I join him.

"Yeah, something woke me up."

He nods and serves the eggs he made. I take a seat at the kitchen table and dig into the breakfast.

"How was your shift?" I ask.

"Uneventful, just how I like it."

I laugh at his joke. "It's how I like it too."

He laughs and picks up his bag and places a few prints in front of me.

"What are these?"

"Take a look and see."

I pick up the papers and look at the different car options printed on them. I look at him then at the paper then back to him.

"Is this for real?"

"Yeah it is, it's why I picked up all these shifts. I want to give you a car for your birthday."

I stand up and go round the table to give him a hug.

"Thank you daddy, I love you."

"I love you too, princess. Now go take a look and tell me which one you like best."

I squeal in happiness and go back to the papers. I point at a blue KIA. It's cute and it's the cheapest of all the options. Dad looks at it and gives me a pointed look.

"You picked that because it's the cheapest right?"

He's caught me. "No, I really like it."

"I bet you like some of the others more."

"Does it matter? They're all great options."

"Princess, I've got it. I'm going to give you everything you deserve and more. You need to let me do that."

"Alright, let me look again."

This time we both look and I pick out a Jaguar. We talk about school and his job until the bus comes and I leave for school.