Amari VannDahan-dahan ang naging pagbangon para hindi sya magising pero laking gulat ko ng mabilis ako nitong idagan ang isang binti nya sa akin at yakapin ako ng mahigpit.I can feel his chest on my back."Why are you up so early?" I heard him asked in a husky voice kasi kakagising nya lang."Bumangon ka na dyan, anong oras na" I told him but instead of an answer he just pulled me closer. "Art Theodore, bangon na""Why do you have to call me by my full name?" I heard him chuckle. "Napuyat ako kasi hindi mo ako pinatulog, gusto mo wag akong pipikit habang nanonood ka ng cartoons"Mabilis ko itong nilingon para kunutan ng noo."So, sinasabi mong pinilit kita? Akala ko ba gusto mo kaming samahan manood ni baby?""But our baby is still in your womb-"Naririnig nya na yan!" inis kong sabi dito.He just laughed and pulled me to kiss my forehead."Napakainit naman ng ulo ng misis ko na to"Kusang nag init ang mukha ko dahil sa ginawa nya, ang aga-aga naman kasi!Sa totoo lang ay parang na
Amari"I want to have carbonara for dinner" I told him pero hindi man lang ito tumingin sa akin. "Adi, sabi ko carbonara ang gusto kong kainin""Huh?" nag angat ito ng tingin sa akin. "What do you want to eat?"Umayos ako ng upo at binawi ang legs kong mina massage nya.He just got home from a long meeting pero he immediately went over to me kasi nakita nyang exhausted ako and I was complaining about my legs."Adi, is everything okay? May buma bother ba sayo? You can tell me" I told him.He looked at me straight in the eyes and he reached for my hand, when he finally have it, hindi sya nag alinlangan na ilapit iyon sa mga labi nya at halikan. He closed his eyes as if he is trying to recharge his self."Don't worry, wag ka ng mag-alala pa, exhausted lang ako sa trabaho pero ngayong nandito na ako sa bahay, I feel better"Gamit ang kabilang kamay ko ay dahan-dahan kong isinuklay iyon sa buhok nya."Nandito lang ako kapag pagod ka, kami ni baby""I love you both so much" he said it in a
Amari VannMy plan to ignore everything is obviously failing as the weeks go on. I'm starting to feel paranoid and my anxiety is building up.I received a package the next day, it is from Mira and inside it was the neck tie that Art was missing.I wanted to ask him, I wanted to get mad at him for not telling me anything pero natatakot ako na baka kapag kinompronta ko sya at nalaman ko ang totoo ay mas hindi ko kayanin.He said he is busy because of the upcoming election, to the point that there are days na hindi sya nakakauwi. God knows, I want to believe him but my mind is totally polluted by what Mira told me.I woke up from a bad dream, nagising akong pawis na pawis but I can't remember what I dreamed about pero hinahabol ko ang hininga ko. I reached out beside me to find Art pero hindi ko sya nakapa, mabilis kong binuksan ang lampshade and when the light lit up our room, it confirmed that my husband is not sleeping beside me.I immediately stood up kahit habol ko ang hininga ko, k
Hanna"Vann" I called her for the nth time pero nanatili syang nakatulala kaya lumapit ako sa kanya and sat down in front of her but it wasn't enough for me to get her attention. "Vann"She looked at me but I can't read anything from her facial expression. She is like this, nakatulala at tahimik lang and things will get worst at night dahil iiyak lang sya ng iiyak.She is staying with me after nya ma discharge sa ospital."Vann, we need to go na, kasi hinihintay ka doon, we need to say goodbye to Arthur na, so he can rest in peace""I want to rest in peace too""Vann, please don't say that, wag kang ganyan, wag kang sumuko, nandito ako, nandyan pa si Enzo"She bit her lip as her eyes started to water."Hindi ko alam kung kaya ko pang ipagpatuloy ang buhay ko, hindi ko alam kung paano ako gigising sa umaga ng normal. I am supposed to be breastfeeding him, not burying him!"Mabilis ko syang niyakap at hinalikan sa ulo. I feel guilty dahil hindi sana nangyari lahat ito kung hindi ako kam
AmariHabang lumilipas ang bawat segundo ay syang mas dumudurog sa puso ko.Tuluyan ng natuyo ang sementong nasa puntod ng anak ko. Nakailang basa na ako ng pangalan nya sa lapida pero hindi ko magawang tanggapin sa sarili ko na talagang wala na sya.Why did it have to be you, anak?Hindi ko na alam kung ilang tao na ang lumapit sa akin para sabihing umuwi na ako at magpahinga pero natatakot akong umalis dito at maiwang nag iisa ang baby ko.Paano na lang kung malungkot at matakot sya kapag iniwan sya ng mama nya?"Amari" a voice called my name but I chose ignore it, dahil kilalang-kilala ko kung kanino galing iyon. "Amari, you have to go home"Instead of answering, I wiped the tears in my eyes bago ako tumingin sa paligid, malapit na palang magdilim pero hindi ko mahanap sa sarili ko ang tumayo at umalis sa puntod ng munti kong anghel.Nagulat ako ng malakas nya akong hawakan sa braso para maitayo. Mabilis akong pumiglas ng magtapat kaming dalawa."Leave me alone" matigas kong sabi s
Art"Why ka ba laging masungit, hindi ka naman ganyan dati, lagi kang gentle sa akin" Mira sat down in front of my table. Nagpangalumbaba ito at nilalaro ang buhok."Wala ka bang mga pasyente?" tanong ko sa kanya habang patuloy ako sa pagbabasa ng magiging campaign plan ko this year.If I get elected, I will become the mayor of this city. Three years quickly passed by but it feels like it was only yesterday when everything happened.The truth about my marriage with Amari, the death of our son and her leaving with no trace."You know what, Tita Maureen asked me if we have any plans to get married na, she is excited to have a grandchild na totoo""She have a grandchild. Arthur is her grandchild" nag iwas ako ng tingin, just by mentioning my son's name brings pain in to my heart."But he died na, isn't it time to forget and move forward?""Nababaliw ka na bang tunay? You want me to forget that I had a son?""That's what I want, dahil unang-una hindi mo sya anak sa akin, anak mo sya doon
Art"Akala ko pa naman ay girlfriend mo na yung dinala mo dito, tiyak maraming babae ang luluha" sabi ni VPThey walked closer kaya habang papalapit sila ay mabilis na kumakabog ang dibdib ko. What will happen? Will she yell at me?She is wearing a white coat, it feels like there is nothing underneath it dahil kita ang cleavage nito, something that she doesn't usually wear.Equinox offered his arms to ensure na hindi sya matatapilok dahil sa suot nyang heels.I was out of words, I couldn't say anything. Tatlong taon ko syang hindi nakita and now that she is back, I can't even compose myself."Bagay na bagay kayong dalawa, akala ko talaga ay girlfriend mo" dagdag ni VP."What makes you think that she is not my girlfriend?" Equinox asked kaya napatingin ako sa kanya.Are they together? Sys ba ang tumulong kay Amari?"Equinox"Ayun pala yung sinasabi nya pero halos tumalon ang puso ko ng marinig ko ulit ang boses nya."Okay, okay! Binasted nya na ako ng dalawang beses but they said the t
Amari"Kung hindi lang dahil sayo, I won't come to that party, hindi mo naman sinabi sa akin na nasa iisang party list kayo!" I told him pero parang hindi naman ito na bother at nagpatuloy lang ito ng pagsasalin ng kape sa baso nya."Sit down on the garden, I'll ask the maid to bring out your breakfast" seryoso nyang sabi sa akin."Bakit ang seryoso mo? Galit ka ba?" I asked Equinox.He looked at me before he sighed and drank his coffee."Hey, I'm asking you" I told him.He just came closer to me and looked at me intently before he went ahead to kiss the side of my head.I always pray that when he does that, that I would feel the same butterflies or yung kuryenteng naramdaman ko when I was kissed by Art.Nag angat ako ng tingin sa kanya and touched his face. I tried to smile a little. Ilang dipa lang ang layo ng mukha ko sa kanya pero wala akong nararamdaman kundi ang pagkapayapa ng puso ko."What's wrong? hmm?" I asked him."I shouldn't have asked you to come home, I would love to be