TAYA's POV :
Do I trust him? What was that supposed to mean?
I didn’t know what to make of it and I was still lost in my thoughts, when suddenly and without warning, Judah’s hand reached for my face and he pulled me in.
His lips found mine and he kissed me with such tenderness and fervor. He had never done that before and for a split second, I forgot how to breathe. I was caught in a daze, and he wasn’t showing any signs of slowing down. Instead, he then pushed me back against the wall and his strong body was pressed up against me. This ignited a spark in my brain and I immediately threw my hand over his neck and I kissed him back with everything I got.
He groaned lowly as I parted his lips with the tip of my tongue. My tongue delved into his mouth and we tasted like blood and cigarette, which was a horrible combination, but I didn't care. I didn’t want to sto
TAYA’s POV :My eyes then darted to his jeans, where there was a clear bulge on the front part of it. It was a big one too. His eyes followed my gaze and he gave me a sheepish grin.Wait. Are we gonna…?"Don't worry about it. You're not ready for that yet," he said as if he could read my mind.My face was a mixture of embarrassment and awkwardness all rolled into one. I shoved him playfully and let out a small relieved sigh under my breath."Wait, Judah, why? I mean, what was that for?" I said to him when he rolled over to his side."Nothing. I just... want you to know how that feels like, and to remember it," he shrugged simply and he grabbed his shirt on the floor."But—""Ah, I feel amazing!" Ignoring my protests, he stretched his body up as he slipped on his shirt.
TAYA’sPOV :“You okay, Tay?” Hallee asked as I stopped my tracks in front of the school steps.“Yeah, just give me a minute,” I breathed.Today was Monday, which meant it was back to school day. I had been going to this school for almost four years and I had never been this nervous to enter the building before.What was I nervous about? Oh, I don’t know, maybe seeing Judah? The boy that gave me my first orgasm and I don't even know what we are?After taking a few deep breaths and making sure that my clothes looked alright, I finally took a step into the big building. Hallee rolled her eyes at my dramatic antics and followed me into the halls. We walked straight to our lockers, and I was anxious with every step I took, I wasn’t sure how to act around Judah at this point.&ldq
JUDAH's POV :I got my very first B on an exam yesterday.It was... weird. I never cared about these things, never even gave it a try. But for the first time in my life, I was told that I could do better. People believed in me. People thought I was worth something.These people were non other than Blondie and her friends. I mean, they just wouldn't lay off my case. Gabe assigned himself as my personal study partner, Hallee kept me busy helping her out with the set for the play, and Blondie... well, we still did a lot of practicing on our own.Ha-ha.All these people, they didn't even know me, but they seemed to care a lot about my well being. Blondie didn't even remember me. But her and her friends believed in me anyway. So finally, for the first time in years, I gave school a shot. And it turned out that I wasn't a total dumbass after all. Which I must
TAYA's POV :"Where the hell is he?" Hallee was literally screaming at the whole auditorium backstage."None of us can reach him," Gabe answered.It was performance day and it was chaos. Judah didn't show up for the call time and we waited and waited, and he never came. We tried calling him, we looked everywhere for him, but none of us could find him."He's not picking up my calls either," I said as I threw my stupid phone on the dressing room table."Guys, we're fifteen minutes away. What should we do? Should we cancel—""We can't cancel the freaking show, Patrice!" Hallee yelled at our stage manager.“Do we have an understudy for Jack?” Gabe asked.“We don’t have enough people in the theater club,” Hallee hissed. “So no, we don’t have an understudy,&rd
TAYA’s POV :"Taya, do you want to be my girlfriend?" Blake’s hand reached for mine and his eyes were tender and pleading.This were the words I had been wanting to hear all year long, but now that I had heard it, I didn’t even know how to respond."I..." my throat closed up and I looked like a deer caught in headlights.My eyes darted to Judah who was talking to Gabe and Hallee in the background. Judah noticed that I was looking at him and he looked right back at me. I figured that he would throw me his signature cocky smirk, but he didn't. His lip stayed in a straight line and then he looked away."Taya?" Blake said again and I turned my face back to him.Blake's face was just naturally handsome, his ocean blue eyes were begging with me, and yet I felt nothing. I never wanted to string Blake along. I wasn't attracted to Ju
TAYA's POV :Judah just stared at me for the longest time without saying a word. There was something about him, his face was downcast, which made me even more self-conscious about this whole thing."Should I?" I repeated my question again when he wasn't responding.Please say no. Please tell me to stay.He kept his head down and took a deep breath. Then he looked up at me with a dejected look on his face as he said, "You... should go,""What?" I gaped, but my voice came out in a whisper."I said you should go be with him," he repeated himself, his tone was cold and flat.I was still waiting, thinking that he would say something else, or say that he was joking. But he just stood there with a dead serious expression.After everything that happened between us, could it be that Judah didn't f
TAYA's POV :I was bawling my eyes out and Blake was driving around for a while. We stayed mostly in silence, and Blake would throw worried glances at me every so often. We were driving around for a while, and when I finally stopped crying, I noticed that we were already on the other side of town. We had arrived at the Harrison Resort, the place where Blake took me on our first date."I didn't know where to go, so..." he trailed as the car reached the lobby entrance."It's okay, this is fine,” I gave him a weak smile. “I just need some air,""Taya, whatever it is that's making you so upset, you know you can tell me, right?"I nodded my head lightly, but I wasn't speaking still. I didn’t think it was fair to unload on him about Judah. So we sat there in silence for a few minutes. I was already tired of crying at this point, so I started wiping my
JUDAH's POV :"Fuck! This isn't working!"My fist slammed to the nearest wall and my eyes scrunched in pain. My head was spinning and I was staggering all over the room, hitting the furniture all around me.After our talk and Blondie took off running, it was as if she took my sanity along with her. I couldn't blame her for leaving though. I said some pretty shitty things to her.I wanted her to leave me alone and that was what she did. But when I saw her took off with Blake in his car, for a split second there I wanted to bang my fist on the car window, telling her to get off.But I had no right. She was way better off.After she was gone, I was left with this void and anger. I was mad — at myself, at the world, and at everything else. There was so much anger in me and I was desperate to numb the pain, so I headed over to Castr