The break up

ESTHER POV

"You are gorgeous, more than any girls I have been with. Your kiss shook me within. You don't need a man to feel that you are not alone. I am a woman, but I am with you."

I know I am a little tipsy now but I still understand what she is talking about, I can even still remember her friends asking me a lot of things though they look nice, and her pad, I didn't know she owned this huge place to live in but she is alone and that is what I supposed to know!

Listening to what she just said makes me stare at her. I mean, she is really sweet. For a long time I have been single, and hearing this from someone will surely drop my panty off!

I try to stop myself from what I am thinking aside from touching her face. I ended up staring at her lips and later did I know we were now kissing...

I must be very drunk now, my mind is now bursting out! What the fuck am I doing!??? Am I really this single to kiss a same-sex!?

My mind is trying to refuse but my body seems like enjoying what we are doing!

I don't have a hold on myself anymore, I guess, and I feel like I am yet to enjoy it now! I don't care anymore! I'm going to make sure to get laid this time!!!'

We kissed torridly, and her hand was now travelling around my body. We both quickly make each other naked, though I want to shout at her one important thing! She must know that I'm... I am...

"--I am a virgin!" I suddenly burst out. That stops her.

"What!? You are still a virgin?" She silently burst out.

"I am...so be, I mean to be gentle.." I whispered, and she just smiled at me and did something that really made my heartbeat this time...

She kisses me on my forehead and at the back of my hand... Oh, Em gee!!!!! she is really sweet!!

I don't know why but this is the first I ever felt giggled like this in my entire life!

I didn't wait for her words and I just grabbed her nape, then kissed her lips. We continued what we were doing and I could feel like she became more gentle this time.

She grabs my mount and squeezes it but softly and gently, and then her tongue licks my nips, making me moan a little.

Damn!!! So this is what it feels like, huh!? I feel like I will want it more!

She moves her hand to my skin until it reaches my very own pearl. At first, I felt like I wanted to stop her, but I just bit my lower lip when she inserted her finger and slowly thrust it inside me.

I am now catching my breath with every stroke of her finger inside, while doing that she showered me with a kiss on my neck and shoulder,

The more she deepened the kiss, the more we both got intense until I reached my peak, which made me moan loudly!

While a liquid is coming out of my core which is gushing now, we both drop ourselves to bed and I feel like my entire world is turning around, the tipsiness I am feeling is now taking my whole consciousness and it makes me sleep big time!

As I opened my eyes, it shocked me to realize that I was not in my room!

What the fuck!! Where am I!? Damn it! I am not thinking properly anymore!

Geez, Esther! I know you are desperate to get laid but not like this! What if you will get pregnant--...

It cut me from arguing with myself when an arm now hugging me, which really shocked me.

I don't know what to do now, so I hold the arms and put it away from me. I am not seeing who I get laid with, damn I hope it isn't some random guy — what the heck!!!??

I was stunned by my thoughts when I saw the face of the person next to me.

Oh em gee!!! She is the one I have done my dare at the bar!... while I am thinking about what we did last night. It stopped me when I suddenly remembered her and what we just did!

Shit! I can't stay here like this. I must get out before she wakes up, so I quietly and slowly walked out of the room when I heard her speaking.

"Walking out on me again, huh?" She said.

Fuck! I am so doomed now!

"Hmmm, I just want to go home! I am sorry," I said, facing her, but she just got off the bed and then back hug me, kissing my nape.

"I know you are tired of being alone and I don't mind being alone but for the first time I finally felt this feeling that I want to be with someone..." she whispers on my nape while still back hugging me

I don't know, but her words really got me again... but this time I wasn't tipsy anymore...

I take a deep breath, then face her. I look into her eyes and I can see how really sure she is, but I am kind of confused. How come she seems to like a woman?....wtf! Is she...

"Are you a lesbian?" I asked directly. That made her eyes blink two times.

"Hmmm, isn't it obvious since the time we kissed here?" She simply said,

"Whoa! I mean, you are actually so beautiful than me, your long hair, your height, the way you stand, though how you move is a little rough... but I just can't imagine you know?!" I said still feeling confused about what I was seeing in her.

"No need to confuse. I am simply just a lesbian, that's it! I like girls!" She said, and somehow I kind of getting it now.

"Okay...so you....like me?" I shyly ask.

"I do... I am," she said. That somehow makes me smile inside, which I don't know why.

"Alright, so if you like me, then what now?" I ask.

"Why do you have a lot of questions? Maybe I can answer that over some breakfast. What do you think, doc?" She said and now I am smiling! Shit! My heart suddenly skipped a beat when she said that with her sweet smile.

Fuck, am I a lesbian now as well!? Geez! But I like the feeling I am having right now.

We both head to her kitchen and she wears her apron and cooks. The way she moves and prepares for everything is really amazing!

"If you don't mind me asking, what do you do?" I ask.

"I thought you would never ask. I am a chef at the Forester Hotel," she simply said, but it really surprised me. I mean, that is a five-star hotel in the country!

"Wow! That explains, but it is even surprising knowing that you work there, that hotel is for business class people! I only eat there once," I said.

"You already eat there? When?" She asks, looking surprised.

"Last year, it was Christmas time," I said and I could see how she was suddenly silent

"I wasn't here. I am in California with my parents," she said.

"I see, well maybe you can spend holidays here now.," I can see how she smiled at that thought.

After she cooks we talk a lot of stuff, and honestly, it is really fun! I had never felt happy with someone until meeting her.

That moment never stopped us from seeing each other. She visited me in the hospital and I did the same. It took many months of dating and bonding until she truly made a move on me, which until now makes me giggle. I mean, I drooled a beautiful woman over me. Damn! I am biting my lips with that thought and my cheeks seem to blush!

We just officially together today, five months since we met. I don't know how we actually start, but yes! She is my girlfriend now.

Every day and every moment we spend is amazing. We used to go overseas and visit the places we wanted to go to.

And after two years of our relationship, Amber got a surprise for me.

"Do you really need to blindfold me, babe?" I said while smiling widely.

"Sure do! It is a surprised babe, so you must comply!" She said, then pinched my nose, and I laughed out loud.

"Fine! Now let me see it!" I said, and then she handed me a key and took off the blindfold.

I am facing a door now. It didn't process to my mind easily but when I saw the smile on her face, I suddenly burst out!

"Oh, my gee!!!! For real? Seriously?" I ask in surprise.

"Yes! Open the door!" She excitingly said, and that is what I did. Then a beautiful pad, much bigger than her, is what I saw inside.

"Surprise! From now on, you will live here with me. We will both fulfil our dreams here," she said, and somehow I look forward to that.

We filled the whole year together with fun. We cherished every moment together, but the next year became gloomy, and we both became busy with our work schedules.

"Hey babe, can you pay the bills? For now, my schedule suddenly changes today. We have VIPs," she said, and it turns out like that since then.

And then as months go by, we merely talk and see each other as we both get busy with our work until arguments and fights start

"You will never understand what I am trying to say!!!"

"No! You are the one who can't understand things! Tell me, do you even know what I like and what I don't?"

"How would I know? When I get out early in the hotel and try to invite you to eat outside, you always have excuses! Having a patient here and there!"

"Wow! Let me remind you what kind of work I have! I am saving lives! I cannot just walk away from the hospital just because you call or I must attend to you!"

"Then don't expect me to know everything about you!!!"

And those fights lead to bitterness and ignoring each other. We usually fix some sort of misunderstanding, but it isn't enough to fix everything and avoid fights.

I must admit that I have faults too, and those faults we created led to the end of our relationship.

The whole four years that were filled with joy and fun turned bitter and sad in the succeeding year and now we broke up. A onetime big-time mistake ends everything...

Almost eight months later, when she came back from California after our breakup, she spent time there.

I hung out with the group when Monica invited me, honestly, a lot of changes happened to me, if before I longed to be a tie-up with anyone right now I prefer to be single and happy, I just enjoy life and get drunk and tipsy.

Going to the washroom, I feel my world is turning around, and the floor is floating. I got into the cubicle but it surprised me when I actually sat at someone!

"Oh shit! I am sorry!" I shouted, saying sorry, but when I looked at who I was sitting over, it stopped me from seeing Amber's face.

I literally look at her and she is... she really is. I am looking right now. I feel like all the alcohol in my body suddenly subsides!

"Ahem I am sorry..."I said

"Still tipsy? Your cheeks are still red. You know you can't get drunk too much, right?" She said, and she still knows it.

"I have my medicine with me," I said.

"Well, anyway, I need to go," she said and I don't know why I suddenly held her hand...

"Yes?" she asks.

"Hmmm, are you going home already? I mean, let's chill a little!" I said, and she just smiled.

She sits with us but unfortunately, Monica and others need to go early again.

We both left at the table.

I was about to order more drinks when she stopped me

"Enough, let's go, I will bring you home, but first wait.." she said, then went back to the washroom

When she got back, she pulled me out of the bar and then let me ride in her car.

She fixed my seatbelt and then placed herself in the driver's seat. It surprised me when she brought out a wet towel and then wiped my face, my neck, and my forehead.

I am utterly staring at her right now... I felt like I wanted to kiss her, but I couldn't...

I try to control myself but I can't take it anymore, so I grab her face and am about to kiss her when she says something while our lips are just an inch away

"I have a girlfriend.." she said, which surprised me.

I let go of her face while silence surrounds us both...

Then she speaks...

"How are you now?"

"I am okay, and you? Oh, I am sure you are happy."

"I should be. She is nice and I love her."

"That is good to know, and you deserved that."

"You deserved it as well, and just want you to know that I am always here for you. Friendships aren't part of our breakup..."

The moment she said that I couldn't hold back my tears anymore, so I suddenly hugged her tight...

"I miss you, Babe," I whispered

"I miss you Esth my baby," she said and right now tears fall down my face.

"Look, I won't go away from here again," she whispered back, and so I faced her.

She wipes my tears and then kisses my forehead.

"Best friends?" She asks which surprised me. It may not be the word that I expect to hear from her, but I guess that would be enough...

We don't work out as a couple, but we will work out, I guess, as friends

"Hmph! Just so you know, it takes more than a girlfriend to be my best friend, still willing to apply?" I smilingly ask.

"I guess I can work that out!" She said, smirking.

And the whole night inside her car fills with laughs and giggling, I guess it is much better this way...

But I must admit... I miss her for real...