The break up

ESTHER’S POV

"You are gorgeous, more than any girl I have been with. Your kiss shook me within. You don't need a man to feel that you are not alone. Look, I am a woman, but I am the one with you right now."

I know I'm a little tipsy now, but I still understand what she's saying. I can even recall her friends asking me a lot of questions, even though they looked nice, and her pad; I had no idea she had such a large place to live in, but she's alone, and that's all I should know!

Listening to what she just said causes me to stare at her. I mean, she is so sweet. I have been single for a long time, and hearing this from someone will undoubtedly make my pants drop!

I try to distract myself from what I am thinking by touching her face. I found up staring at her lips, and only later did I realize we were kissing.

My thoughts are gushing out, so I must be quite intoxicated! What the fuck am I doing? Am I really single enough to kiss a woman?

My head is attempting to deny, but my body appears to be enjoying what we're doing!

I guess I don't have control over myself anymore, and I don't feel like I'm ready to appreciate it! I don't care anymore! I'm going to make sure I get laid this time!!!

We kissed passionately, and her hand was now moving around my body. We both rapidly strip naked, but I have one essential message for her! She must be aware that I am...

"—I am a virgin!"

I instantly burst out. That halts her.

"What!? You're still a virgin?"

She quietly burst out.

"I am...so be, I mean be gentle…"

I muttered, and she simply smiled at me and did something that caused my heart to race... She kisses my forehead and the back of my hand... Oh, Em Gee!!! She is very cute!!!

I'm not sure why, but this is the first time I've giggled like this in my life!

I didn't wait for her answers and instead gripped her nape before kissing her lips. We kept doing what we were doing, and I noticed that she got more gentle this time.

She holds my breast and squeezes it softly and gently, and her tongue licks my nipples, causing me to groan slightly.

Damn!!! So this is how it feels, huh!? I think I'll desire it more!

She slides her hand across my flesh until reaching my very own pearl. At first, I wanted to stop her, but instead I bit my bottom lip as she inserted her finger and slowly drove it within me.

I am now catching my breath with each stroke of her finger inside, and as she does so, she showers me with a kiss on my neck and shoulder.

The more she deepens the kiss, the more intense we both become, until I reach my peak, which causes me to moan out loud!

While a liquid is streaming out of my core while feeling tired, we both fall asleep, and I feel as if my entire universe is whirling around; the tipsiness I'm experiencing has taken over my entire consciousness, causing me to sleep heavily!

When I opened my eyes, I was shocked to see that I was not in my room! What the fuck! Where am I!? Damn it. I am not thinking clearly anymore!

Wow, Esther! I know you want to be laid, but not like this! What if you become pregnant—

I was abruptly stopped from debating with myself when an arm hugged me, which astonished me.

I am not sure what to do anymore, so I grab the arms and move them away from me. I'm not seeing who I got laid with, and I really hope it's not some random man—what the heck!?

I was taken aback by my thoughts when I spotted the person next to me.

Oh, geez!!! She is the person I did my dare with at the bar! I'm thinking about what we did last night. It stopped me when I suddenly remembered her and what we had just done!

Shit! I cannot stay here like this. I needed to leave before she woke up, so I stepped silently and carefully out of the room when I heard her talk.

"Walking out on me again, huh?"

She said. Fuck! I'm so doomed now!

"Mmm, I just want to go home! I'm sorry,"

I muttered, facing her, but she merely got out of bed and hugged my back, kissing my nape.

"I know you are tired of being alone, and I don't mind being alone, but for the first time, I finally felt this feeling that I want to be with someone..."

She whispers in my nape, still clutching me from behind.

I'm not sure, but her remarks really got to me again... although this time I wasn't so tipsy...

I take a deep breath and face her. I look into her eyes and see how certain she is, but I'm confused. How come she appears to enjoy women? ...wtf! Is she...

"Are you a lesbian?"

I asked directly. That made her eyes blink twice.

"Hmmm, isn't it obvious since the time we kissed here?"

She merely exclaimed.

"Whoa! I mean, you are actually more beautiful than me, with your long hair, height, and the way you stand, even if your movement is a little hard... but I just can't fathom what you said?!"

I remarked, still perplexed by what I was seeing in her.

"There's no reason for confusion. I am simply a lesbian, that’s all! I like girls."

She said, and I'm understanding it now.

"Okay...so you...like me?"

I shyly inquire.

"I do...I am,"

She said. I'm not sure why, but that makes me smile inside.

"Alright, so if you like me, then what now?"

I ask.

"Why do you have so many questions? Perhaps I can answer that over breakfast. What do you think, Doc?"

She said, and now I'm smiling! Shit! My heart skipped a beat as she said that with her lovely smile.

Fuck, am I also a lesbian now!? Geez! But I appreciate the vibe I'm having right now. We both go to the kitchen, where she wears her apron and cooks. The way she moves and prepares for everything is incredible!

"If you don't mind me asking, what do you do?"

I asked curiously.

"I thought you'd never ask. I am a chef at the Forester Hotel."

She simply stated, which astonished me. I mean, it's a five-star hotel in the country!

"Wow! That explains, but given that you work there, it's even more shocking that the hotel caters to business travellers! I only ate there once,"

I explained.

"Have you already eaten there? When?"

She asks in shock.

"Last year, it was Christmas time.”

I said, and she started her unusual silence.

"I wasn't here those times. I am in California with my parents,"

She explained.

"I see, well, maybe you can spend the holidays here now."

I can see her smile at that thought. We converse a lot after she prepares, and it's actually quite enjoyable!

I had never felt satisfied with anyone before meeting her.

From that moment, it never prevented us from seeing each other. She paid me a visit at the hospital, and I reciprocated.

It took months of dating and connecting before she finally made a move on me, which still makes me laugh. I mean, I drooled over a stunning woman. Damn! With that notion, I'm biting my lip and blushing!

We just got officially together today, five months after we met. I'm not sure how we start, but yes! She is now my girlfriend.

Every day and every moment we have is incredible. We used to travel abroad and visit the locations we wanted to go to.

And after two years of dating, Amber had a surprise for me.

"Do you really need to blindfold me, babe?"

I asked, smiling big.

"Sure do! It is a surprise, babe; therefore, you must comply!"

She remarked, then squeezed my nose, which made me giggle.

"Fine! Now, let me see it!"

I said, and she handed me a key and removed the blindfold. I am currently facing a door. It did not come readily to my mind, but when I saw the smile on her face, I came out!

"Oh my goodness!!! For real? Seriously?"

I inquire, surprised.

"Yes! Open the door."

She excitedly said, and that is exactly what I did. Then I spotted a gorgeous pad, much larger than hers, inside.

"Surprise! From now on, you will live with me. We will both build our dreams here."

She added, and I look forward to it. We spent the entire year having fun together. We treasured every moment we had together.

But… the following year was bleak, and we both grew preoccupied with our job schedules.

"Babe, can you pay the bills? My schedule has abruptly changed today. We have VIPs coming."

She added, and it has remained that way ever since.

And then, as months pass, we simply talk and see each other as we both get busy with our work, till conflicts and fights arise.

"You will never understand what I am trying to say!!!"

"No! You are the one who doesn't understand anything! Tell me, do you even know what I like and dislike?

"How do I know? When I go out of the hotel early and try to invite you to eat outside, you constantly make excuses! We have a patient here and there!"

"Wow! Let me remind you of what kind of job I do! I'm saving lives! I can't just leave the hospital because you called, or I have to attend to you!"

"Then don't expect me to know everything about you!!!"

These disagreements lead to animosity and neglecting one another. We normally clear up any misunderstandings, but that isn't enough to prevent clashes.

I must admit that I, too, have flaws, and the flaws we produced contributed to the end of our relationship…

The four years of delight and fun turned bitter and unhappy in the next year, and we have now broken up.

A one large error can spell the end of everything...and we never see each other again for how many months…

She returned to California about eight months after our breakup, and she spent some time there.

And me, I joined the group when Monica invited me, and honestly, a lot has changed in me; whereas I used to want to be in a relationship with anyone, now I want to be single and happy, and I just enjoy life and get drunk and tipsy.

Going to the restroom, I feel like my world is whirling around and the floor is floating. I entered the cubicle, but was astonished to see myself sitting next to someone!

"Oh shit! I’m sorry!"

I apologized and shouted, but when I looked over at who I was sitting next to, I could see Amber’s face…

I genuinely look at her, and she is... she truly is, I'm looking right now. I feel as if all of the alcohol in my body has suddenly disappeared!

"Ahem, I am sorry..."

I said.

"Tipsy? Your cheeks are red now, you know you can't drink too much, right?"

She said that, and she still remembers it.

"I have my medicine with me, okay!"

I said.

"Well, anyway, I need to go,"

She replied, and I'm not sure why I instantly took her hand...

"What?"

She inquires.

"Hmm, are you already going home? I mean, let's relax a little! Like…like the usual…"

I said, and she simply smiled. She sits with us, but Monica and others had to leave early again.

We both left at the table.

I was going to get more drinks when she stopped me.

"Enough, let's go, I will bring you home, but first wait here…"

She said, then went back to the washroom.

When she returned, she took me out of the bar and gave me a ride in her car. She adjusted my seatbelt before taking the driver's seat.

It shocked me when she took out a wet towel and wiped down my face, neck, and forehead.

I am totally gazing at her right now... I felt like kissing her, but I couldn't...

I attempt to stop myself, but I can't take it any longer, so I grab her face and am about to kiss her when she whispers something while our lips are only an inch apart.

"I have a girlfriend,"

She explained that stopped me. I released her face as silence enveloped us both... Then she speaks.

"How are you now?"

"I'm fine, how about you? Oh, I'm sure you're delighted."

“I should be. She's nice, and I love her."

"That is good to know…and you deserved that…"

I said, trying to calm the emotions that want to come out of me…

"You deserved it as well, and I just wanted you to know that I am always here for you. Friendships are not a part of our breakup, right?"

When she stated that, I couldn't hold back my tears and hugged her tightly...

"I miss you, Babe…"

I said, almost in tears.

"I miss you, Esth, my baby."

She added, and tears streamed down my cheeks.

"Look, I won't leave again. I will stay here now."

She replied quietly, and I turned to face her. She wipes away my tears and kisses my forehead.

"Best friends?"

I was stopped when she asked. It may not be the word I expected to hear from her, but I suppose it is sufficient...

We don't work well as a couple, but I suppose we will as friends.

“Just so you know, becoming my best friend requires more than just a girlfriend; are you still interested in applying?”

I smile and ask, though I am trying hard to suppress my emotion.

"I guess I can work that out!"

She replied, smirking.

And the entire night inside her car is filled with laughter and giggling; I suppose it's much nicer this way...

But I must say, I really miss her...so much…