LEAVING THE WORLD

AT THE END OF THE DAY, NO ONE SITS IN THE ABYSS OF PAIN WITH YOU. NO ONE CARES FOR A FAILED PERSON. IT’S JUST YOU, YOURSELF AND IN YOUR ABYSS OF DARKNESS.

NOT EVEN THE ONE YOU LOVE THE MOST.

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WELCOME💕🌸

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ALICIA’S POV

I groaned out painfully as my back hit the floor, a pain coursing through my body. I ignored the pain, standing up quickly as tears rolled down my eyes. With trembling lips, panic and pain entangled deep within me, I rushed towards Walter only to be pushed back to the ground, “Please! Please Walter, not today! Please.” I begged.

But everything went on deaf ears, watching my mate stand in front of the gathering pack, the father of my dead child donned in a robe, a guard separating just the both of us.

“Walter! Please! You can do anything to me but not this!” I rushed forward again, ignoring the confused looks and whispering voices.

He had dragged me out of the room with no mercy, my scalp still burning from the pain of his hand tugging down on it. But none of it matters. All that matters was him taking me back. Where would I start from if he dared leave me?

Who would I run too?

I shook my head, proceeding forward after another push from the guard, none of it would happen. I would beg and beg until he took me back, I…

“Stand down, Alicia!” He boomed out, a compelling force stringing through every part of me.

“Kneel!” He added, the command in his alpha voice coursing through me.

My knees jammed with the hard ground instantly, another pain shooting through me. I swallowed it all, it was not worth it, the pain was just little. What mattered was him taking me back, not the pain.

The disgust in his eyes as he eyed me was strong, disrespectful, and not with one ounce of loving. He hissed out, taking his eyes off me, his cold and cruel face replaced with one of smiles as he glanced at the pack members that were already available.

In just five minutes, everyone was here, to witness the disgrace of their Luna. My heart tightened against my chest at the word.

A Luna. Was I even one?

“Today, I’ve gathered you here this evening to announce two things. There’s nothing about any of this news and everything that happened, is because,” his eyes returned to mine, the disgust and disdain returning to his face together with his crumpled eyes, “..because of this wrench of a lady I married.”

A collective gasp left each of the people’s mouth, all their eyes boring to every part of me.

“How dare he call her that?”

“Is she not the Luna anymore?”

“A wench? What has she done?”

I bowed my head in utter shame, clenching my fist hard on my laps and the tears still rolling down my eyes. I slowly looked at every one of them, their faces confused and also with disdain. He was the alpha afterall and his word, whatever lie it might contain, was what they were going to believe in.

“That woman right there, on her knees, is a witch and a wench that killed her own son!”

I snapped my head up towards him, my eyes widening as I stood up on my feet. I ignored the words of the people, rushing towards him, “Walter please! You know I didn’t do it! Please, we can sort this inside. There’s no need to…”

The guard gripped me down this time, allowing me no space to take an inch. His hands weee all over me as disgust churned towards me. A mere guard touching his Luna like an object of ridicule. My eyes didn’t leave my mate for one second, “please Walter! Think that Jason just died and spare me this time.”

He just stared at me like I was nothing, and that he was enjoying this.

“Walter, please. Please!” I cried out, sniffing in.

“I’m in the wrong here! I’m in the wrong! I shouldn’t have brought up the child at all. He should have died! He was nothing! Please…”

My heart broke at the thought of my child. He was my everything. He was not nothing at all. He was a joy, a greatness, someone destined for more.

My face crumpled as I broke into sobs, almost collapsing in the guard’s arms,

“Release her and let her come!” He yelled out.

My heart leaped with small happiness as I shrugged off the guard, sniffing in quickly. I eyed the guard in a disrespectful manner, hissing lowly before turning back to my mate, my husband.

A smile that didn’t reach my eyes formed bitterly on my quivering lips, dragging my foot towards him. I was so close to reaching him, just some feets left when he yelled for quiet, halting me in my steps. The entire crowd died in silence as he turned his eyes back towards me, “clean your disgusting self up.”

I nodded quickly, looking down at the little wear I was putting on. I hadn’t even noticed I was just in a silky long robe which was covering the black transparent lingerie gown I was putting on. I sniffed in, brushing my long hair back down with my hands as I desperately tugged the silky robe to my body.

“Good girl. Now walk towards me.”

I had only stepped a foot forward when his vice silenced me in my thoughts, freezing deep with his malicious eyes boring into mine.

“Say that you killed Jason, and I’ll spare you. If you do not, I would reject you and allow you to be feeded to the hounds here.”

I parted my lips to say something, speak something but there was no words, just shock.

“Walter…” I called out slowly.

He tilted his head to the side, watching me as the smirk grew wider, “say it and you’ll be spared. If you don’t, you’ll get whatever is coming to you.”

Tears pooled my eyes as I glanced slowly at all the eyes watching me, the pack members, the small children staring at me with squinted eyes, curiosity laced in them. If I sa… I blinked, a tear rolling down my cheeks.

My throat was hot as I opened my mouth, trying to form the words but it wouldn’t just come.

“It’s just a small disgrace, Alicia. You have nowhere to go if you don’t say it.” A part of me thought.

I pressed my lips together, my face crumpling in disgust and pain. I was once so happy to be a Luna. The joy on people’s face as I addressed them, to lead the pack with someone I loved.

I bit down on my lips, glancing down at what I have now become before looking up at them, “I’m so sorry everyone…” I started, my voice croaking at each word, “but I killed my own child.”

Loud and utter gasps of shock filled the air, each of the people lining the front taking some steps back, “I’m so sorry, I just could not bear it anymore.” I added, closing my eyes and allowing the tears to roll freely.

“You’re so disgusting, Luna Alicia!”

“I can’t believe her!”

“You killed that poor boy! He was so full of happiness!”

“Such a disgusting mother, we can’t allow her to be our Luna anymore!”

“Reject her, your highness! She’s not worth being a Luna! A killer is not worth being our queen!” someone finally said aloud.

I opened my eyes abruptly. turning towards Walter instantly. No. He could not reject me. I did my part.

He stepped towards me, my throat gobbling up with every step he took. His hand was folded to the back as he stopped in front of me, “you’ve heard them, Alicia. They don’t want you.” He muttered, mockery lacing every word of his.

I shook my head fast, my eyes almost bulging out. I went on my knees quickly, grabbing his leg, “Walter please. I followed everything you said. Please. Please. Don’t listen to them.”

He kicked me away, lowering his eyes and eyeing me, “I, WALTER THORN REJECTS A DESPICABLE PERSON LIKE YOU, ALICIA WILSON AS MY MATE AND BANISH YOU FROM THIS PACK!”

He lowered himself to stare at me in the ground, the pain of the rejection burning cruelly in my chest, “You have five minutes before you leave here before you get eaten by the hounds.”

He turned immediately, not sparing me a look or a word. I just laid there, unable to cry, unable to say any word. I was numb, and it looked like nothing was working for me again. There was no pain, no feeling, no emotions.

I heard the steps of people walking away, some of their spits hitting me at every angry words they muttered. Suddenly, I laughed out when it was just only me, hot tears pooling my eyes once again.

I wasn’t even the bad person here. I was not the one that was supposed to be getting spitted at. I was a mother! A real one at that.

“And what did I get in return?” I muttered to myself, laughing more in horror of the harsh reality.

I have tried and tried, to be loved, to make sure that none of my scars affected my relation with the pack. And at the end of the day, nobody even stayed back for me. My mind went back to the times I cared for this same people, listened to them, loved them.

I took in every harsh beatings and lashings I got from Walter because of the help I rendered to HIS pack members.

“What’s the essence of this world, really?” I muttered as the tears dried off my face.

Nothing.

I got my answer as a cold wind blew at me, that was it. I was all alone. I gulped down, managing to get back on my feet. I stared at the pretty mansion I had lived in to call home, and a sad smile crept up my lips.

This was the last time I was going to see this place because there was just one thought on my mind.

I was going to die. Leave this harsh world for people like Walter.

I was going to end it all. Tonight.