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It's extremely hot and i put away my covers and roll to the other side of the bed. It had been a very tiresome day and had it not been for my mother's screams I believe I would have slept through it all. I wake up to smoke in my room. I open my bedroom door and see my parents through flames standing across the hall, outside their room. "Vienna, get out!" my father screams at me as I stand frozen. My room is beside the stair way, but my legs feel heavy. I look at them, I cannot leave them there. Logically I know there is no way they can make it across the fire to me, but i can't move. The fire is getting stronger and I start feeling my skin itch from the intense heat. "Vienna Starr Kilmartin run!" this time it's my mother. I look at them as they hold each other. Whether it was to comfort each other or to keep each other from collapsing from the smoke I have never known. "It's okay love, go," my mother says softly between coughs. I turn to leave as they slide down to the floor together and I run until I am outside.
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"It's not okay, it's not okay," I feel someone nudging me. I open my eyes to see Christine, my assistant bending over by my side. "Are you okay? seems like you were having another nightmare," she looks genuinely concerned and I am grateful for that. "I am good," I tell her as I get up from the couch and walk across the room to my chair. "Your two p.m is here," she says giving me a look of doubt and I reassure her with a small smile. She heads out before ushering in Mr. Avan Ray, my new patient.
He is the kind of person you cannot help but notice. He is over six foot tall and has a big build. His face has soft features, the kind that milds his threatening aura. His eyes are a shade of grey and emotionless. In overall he is a very handsome man and he carries himself as someone who is aware of that. I wonder what a seemingly perfect man is doing in a psychiatrist office. I smile as is my routine to try and make him feel more comfortable. He sits on the couch across from me, his eyes never leaving mine. I look down at my notes and try not to fidget.
"So Mr. Avan how are you this afternoon?" I ask and he laughs like It have said something funny. I watch him, trying to get a read out of him. All he does consistently is watch me. He does not look at me the way one would a beautiful lady, no he watches me. He watches me like one would an animal in a zoo. He looks at me like I am his source of amusement. I try my best to keep my wits about me through the whole session. By the end of it I have learned he is an only child. He had a older brother when he was young. According to him, his brother suddenly disappeared one day. He does not know what hapenned to him and his parents never talk about it. "I think i had something to do with it but i don't quite remember," he had sayed so casually and went on about his favourite meal like he had just said nothing. He enjoys watching my reaction towards him.
He is my last appointment for the day. I can not stop myself from thinking about him as I drive to 'Roselle's'. It is a joint we frequent, my bestfriend, Jade and I. We have known each other for over twenty years. For as long as I can remember her family and mine have always been close, that was before the fire tragedy that took my parents and my brother dying abroad. Jade took care of me. She worried aboout me and lacked subtle ways of showing it. I watch the entrance as I sip my wine. She eventually appears carrrying documents and smiling at everyone who'd look at her. We order dinner as soon as she sits. She tells me all about her day in so much detail as my mind keeps wandering off to Mr Avan.
After dinner her driver drops me off at my place. "You should stay with me tonight you know how your parents get when you go home so late," I offer. She chuckles lightly and pushes her hair slightly off her face. "I am a grown up there's nothing they can do to me even if I get home later than this," she says looking at her driver who tries to hide a smile. "Oh, they're travelling again huh," she looks down sheepishly and I laugh as I go in. "Love you," she shouts as they drive off.
I can not hold off my curiosity any longer. I search Avan Ray after washing up. After an hour of browsing the internet and what feels like a million controversies about him, only one thing is certain, he is the only heir of the richest tycoon. I feel intimidated and curious of why he chose me as his psychiatrist. I'm good at what I do, maybe even great but the kind of money and influence he has could get him the best not only in the state but also in the world. I shut off my computer as it starts to rain. It's past eleven and I can hardly keep my eyes open. I make myself honey water and sit by my bedroom window watching the rain. Just before I go to bed I notice a familiar car parked outside my gate. I can feel the stare without even seeing it.
I check the alarm system before getting in bed. I can not help but think of the second most popular romor about him. Apparently his parents had insisted on him seeing a psychiatrist as a condition before they handed over the company to him. He had refused until recently when he agreed only if he got to choose his own psychiatrist. So why me? That question bugs me as I finally drift off sleep.
The lights are off, but the bright reflection from the moon lights the whole room. He lifts me from the floor and puts me on the computer desk that is close to the door. He leans in and lick my lips. I close my eyes in anticipation. He tightens his grip on my waist and pull me to the edge of the desk. I wrap my legs around his waist. He lifts my face and connect our lips. There is nothing slow about the kiss. It is full of passion and desire. I wrap my arms around his neck, but he takes them and puts them on his trouser's waist line. I run my fingers teasingly below his trouser along his waist.He deepens the kiss. He slowly kisses my cheeks until he gets to my neck. When he gets to my neck, he deepens the kiss. I give in and move my hand lower to his crotch. He comes up for air, and pulls me closer and burries his head in my hair. It doesn't take long to get him hard. Feeling him getting hard makes me wet. As if hearing my thoughts he unzips my dress. He carries me from the des
I have lost track of just how much I have had to drink. Everything suddenly feels like it is not such a big deal. Jade pulls me from my seat and we start dancing. We haven't been up for long and there are two guys grinding against me from the back and the front. I link my arm around the guy in front of me. He pulls me closer by my waist. The guy behind me has his face at the nape of my neck and his hands on my hips. I look up at the moving lights and I feel like I am the one moving, but the position I am in even if I was indeed moving I wouldn't fall. The guy behind me moves his hands to the hem of the dress. He lets his fingers linger there for a moment. The one on the front pulls me closer that my breasts are pressed against his chest. I don't mind any of it. I prefer to be thinking of what they are doing other than anything else. I look away for a second. I see him. At a distance, watching me. His perfect face with amusement written all over it. I look away and try to pull aw
"So how have you been?" It is my last patient of the day. "I have been good. The medication and the breathing exercises are really helping," his eyes are still twitching and I am concerned. "How many hours of sleep do you get?" he has insomnia and extreme anxiety. "Seven to eight hours," he answers. "A night?" he shakes his head. "A week," he has been taking sleeping pills for years now and he has build a tolerance for them and I am not comfortable upping his dosage. "Martin, you have to sleep," I plead with him. He is on the verge of a breakdown. "I want to but my mind won't shut off," I feel for him. "I understand. But if you're not getting better, then I will have to get you committed," I explain. He should have been committed long ago, but he is from an influential family and they are very critical of their image. "Give me more time," he says, his twitch getting worse. I don't want to be an addition to his stress, but I have to put my foot down. For his sake. "You have to stop
It's harder to go back to my life after all that has happened. I tell myself,I will have to go back eventually, and the sooner I do it the better. I just need to get through the first day, just today. I arrive at the office earlier than Christine. I look though my notes and all the cancelled appointments. Avan really fucked over so many people."Hey," I look up from my computer to see Christine standing by the door. "It's really you," she is both shocked and excited. "Of course, who else would it be?"I ask, standing and walking away from my desk. "I thought it was another patient trying to steal her file, or worse a wife of a patient," we hug. "No, just little old me," she remains holding my hands even after the hug. "Where have you been all this time?" she asks. "It's a really long story," I don't want to get into any of it now."How have you been?" I ask, shifting the attention to her. "I have been good, better than you at least," she gives me a sad look that I dismiss. "What's
After three days of being closely examined, the doctor finally signed the release form. Jade hasn't left my side. She wants to know more about Avan, but after seeing how reluctant I am to talk about him, she finally gave up. "Finally," she finishes packing my things and helping me up. "I can walk by myself," I take a couple of steps to prove it. "Okay," she says, laughing. At night when everyone is asleep I'd walk around the hospital, but I have never been outside my room at day time until today. It looks smaller, with people running around. "What are your plans now that you are free of that homicidal maniac?" she asks linking her arm with mine. "I just want to get back to work," I say, Christine crossing my mind. I wonder how she has been doing. "I think you should take some time off," she says throwing me a concerned look. "I can't sit in one place anymore. Plus I am ready," I give her a small reassuring smile. "I know this is weird, but I think you should see someone," she say
There is ringing in my ears and my head feels heavy which seems to be made worse by the lights. "She is awake," I hear a familiar voice before people are all over me. "Do you know who you are?" a doctor shining light into my eyes asks. "Stop that," I say, pushing the pen torch aside. "How are you feeling sweetie?" Jade asks, coming closer to me. "What happened?" they all look at each other. "What is the last thing you rememmber?" the doctor asks me. "I was getting away. Did I manage to escape?" I look around me. I did it, I managed to escape. "Yes honey, you made it out of the fire," Jade says, holding my hand, tears welling up in her eyes. "Fire, what fire?" I look around their confused faces. "Wait, what did you mean by escape?" the doctor asks, a look of concern taking over her face. I am hesitant to say anything, especially since it seems there are pieces of my memory missing. "I am tired, can I sleep?" I hope they would all go away. "Not yet," the doctor says. "Where are you
Going back to work is actually harder than i thought it would be. Christine lights up as soon as she sees me, "hey, are you already cleared to come back to work?" She asks walking around her desk to hug me. "Yeah," i smile at her but it doesn't wipe away the look of worry off her face. "How do you
"Wait, you don't have to leave yet," Avan says as i pack my things. "There's no way i'm going to let you carry that suitcase by yourself." My tolerance for him is so low right now that everything he says since the hospital just sits wrong with me. "Let me? As who?" I close and lift the suitcase fro
One...two....three, i hear a knock at my door. I like how predictable Claudia is. At exactly eight in the morning she knocks and comes in to help me freshen up and go downstairs for breakfast. "Good morning Vienna, hope you slept well," after three days she finally got used to calling me by my name
I wake up in a strange environment and it takes me a minute to remember where i am. There's a knock and I cover myself up properly before answering. It's not Avan, it's a lady i have not met before. "Hello, i am Claudia and i have been assigned to take care of you." I instantly feel a knot tighten







