DISAPPEAR

Trigger warning: Assault 

Oh the moon goddess is a player, alright. She loves to play these games. 

I am not going to fall for this.

It truly does not matter whether he's my mate or not. The hate does not change; I hate him just as much as he hates me. The jealousy I am feeling at this moment, watching him laugh and touch this princess wolf is all fake.

It's a ruse. 

Without the mate bond, I would feel nothing but utter disgust for a pack wolf like himself.

He means nothing.

With this realization, I turn around to leave. The sun is already begun to sink and the weather feels right for a swim.

Yeah. A swim will be nice...

I can wash away the envy sticking to my skin and cleanse my mind of Liam. I decide then to leave for the river within pack grounds.

The Silver Moon pack is extremely large, spanning over two different rivers and many acres of land. The river I am heading to now, is the less popular one.

Rogues are rumored to sneak around the area. I guess it's befitting then that I go there; I am a rogue afterall.

I pass by the sparring warriors again and hear them laugh.

"She must have seen the Alpha's proposed Luna. Sad...did she think she was something special?" One of them says as I walk, shakily rubbing my hands.

"Oho. Maybe she thought that the almighty rogue killer Alpha Liam would fall for her! A rogue?" A rough sounding man guffaws. I look through my dark curtain of hair at him. Numerous goosebumps of anger and shame cover me like a cloth.

"A common plaything? A sex slave like her? I heard the alpha is very shameless with her...going at it in public. Makes me get a hardon thinking about it. She looks so..."

I block my ears and walk faster, feeling the burning stares at my back. 

Even as my ears are blocked I can still hear the muffled sound of their laughter.

Can I disappear?

I run down the field, letting the wind whip my face and make my dress dance. My eyes are burning and I feel hot tears stream down my face. 

The forest stands in the distance, calling me. I can't escape from this place but I can retreat to somewhere quiet, somewhere I can't hear their taunts.

Oh how I hate you...

Liam's spiteful words. Someone who saw him curse at me would never believe he was the same person with that princess wolf. 

His smile and gentle touch.

It should not matter.

It's the mate bond. This thing is controlling me immensely; I hate the feeling of losing control. 

Can I reject him? Will that free me?

No. I would die. The alpha made it clear- the only thing keeping me alive was the fact that I could bear a strong heir for him. Nothing more. 

Rejecting him would mean I was ready for death. A great lie.

My legs don't carry me fast enough. Before I can get to the thick forest leading to the river, someone grabs me forcefully.

It's one of the warriors.

No. There are five of them. I recognize the rough sounding man and his damned subordinates.

"W-what do you want?" I'm panting from the effort I put into running. The warriors look at me; their faces full of hunger. I back away, feel my legs shake.

The leader laughs. "I've been wondering what the Alpha sees in you. I've been hungry for a taste...I want to know."

I shake my head know; the sun is setting, sinking below the horizon and leaving me in darkness.

I'm too far from the pack houses so even if I scream, it will be of no use.

"A-alpha Liam will...he will-"

"He will what, useless rogue? What exactly will he do?" The second warrior says and starts to remove his shirt. My lips are trembling and my knees feel like buckling over.

"The Alpha doesn't care one bit for you. Sure, he gave orders but that's because he wants you all to himself. I want to know why..."

An owl hoots somewhere in the forest; the wind blows cool. I back away further but trip on a fallen branch and fall. The warriors laugh, I hear them ripping their clothes.

I try to scramble to my feet but someone drags my legs.

"No! No!!"

"You are nothing but a stupid sex slave. Do your work, girl. Do your work..."

Like a mad woman, I scream and kick. I bite any hand that touches me and kick whatever is in range. 

"Get your hands off me! Go away I'm begging you! Please!"

My wolf is too weak to shift so I have nothing but my tiny claws and canines. I make the most of it, biting and tearnin6my attackers.

The laugh at everything I do; untouched by my efforts.

"Oh she's feisty. This will be fun."

I cry a river, wailing and praying that someone would hear my screams. An inner voice laughs at this moment.

Who will care if a rogue dies?

No one...

This is the sad truth. I'm getting weaker and the men are preparing to take me right here, in the fields.

Tears leak out of my eyes as I realize that there's absolutely nothing I can do to stop these lust-crazed wolves. 

Can I just disappear?

The world is spinning; I hear them rip my dress. My bare thighs are exposed to the harsh cold of the evening. I feel someone's hands around my legs.

Sounds are becoming muffled.

"...such a beauty." 

"...alpha's got good taste."

"...let me have a go."

My vision is getting blurry and the world looks like it's all merging together.

I can hardly breathe from fear; my body tingles and I wonder if I'm dying. Two rough hands grab my legs. "I will be the first..."

The fellow above me drags, leans over me and whispers harshly in my ear; "hope you're ready for me girl?"

Before I can beg to be freed once more, I hear a thunderous growl.

My body tingles again.

Liam?