KABANATA 85

Probably, that is the last thing that I would ever want to happen between us. But despite that, I still let it happen. I could have pushed him away, and I know he won’t force himself anymore. I could have easily pushed him away if I wanted to. So why didn’t I? How come I didn’t even try to resist him anymore?

“Dominic is acting weird these days.”

My fingertips are cold. Something feels like tickling my stomach from the inside. Hindi ko na mabilang kung pang-ilang beses ko na rin itong pagkakagat sa loob ng pisngi ko upang pilitin lang na alisin sa isipan ang alaala ng nangyari kahapon. Since last night, I have been occupied by those thoughts, those memories, by that heat emanating from his fingers as if I could still feel them today.

“Lagi na lang siya umaalis, nagmamadali. Tapos kapag tinatanong, ayaw sabihin kung saan pupunta, minsan halata pang nagdadahilan lang.”

Napahilamos ako ng mukha na siyang nagpatigil sa pag-uusap nila para mapatingin sa akin. Ilang beses ko na rin itong na