LOGINTAKUMI WILLIAMS
The announcer blew the final whistle as the buzzer rang out, signifying the end of the match. The crowd immediately broke into an uproar, cheers arising as my teammates rushed to my side, slapping their sticks against each other before waving it in the air. “And the match ends with a win from the Wolves! This is their first win against the Titans in months! Is the Titans streak finally over?!” “It clearly is! And who do we give the credit? Takumi Williams? Wow, what an amazing way to mark his return to the team!” “If I were Mason I wouldn’t feel so good about that. Oh look at that. I wonder what’s running through the Titans’ captain’s mind right now.” A smile appeared on my face as I breathed in the familiar air, feeling good to be back in the country. Japan was nice, but after a year away, I'd started feeling homesick. I looked around me, the crowd still roaring. The win must have meant a lot to them. After all, I'd heard the Titans had been beating my team every match since I left, so this victory was long overdue. I continued my search into the crowd, looking for my mum. She was nowhere to be found but instead I caught sight of a cardboard with ‘Welcome back, Takumi’ written on it in Japanese. I smiled at the effort but couldn’t help but laugh at the error accidentally changing the meaning from "Welcome back, Takumi" to something much closer to "Please return Takumi." Genuinely intrigued at all the possible wrong translations that could have raised with another wrong character, I continued to laugh. But the laughter didn’t last long as I turned around as suddenly locked gazes with Noah. Noah Mason. Noah fucking Mason. He had a frown on his face and I could swear it was the only expression I’d ever seen on his face even after knowing him for two years. He always looked angry like the corners of his lips were forbidden to stretch even a little. My smile turned into a smirk as I desperately hoped to get even the slightest bit of emotion from him. But it didn’t work. The frown was permanently etched and just like I told myself two years ago, I reminded myself to give up on trying to get him to smile. The first time I saw Noah Mason had to be on my first day of university. Out of love for the game, I’d gone to watch a hockey match between the university team and another university team. And that was when I saw him. The infamous Noah Mason. He was just as the rumours described him. Short hair, muscular body and so good looking the permanent frown on his face never diminished his features. The rumours never included his eyes though— green piercing eyes that made me reconsider my favourite colour. As the star player of the university official team, his arrogance was just as expected. His world orbited around him, his two friends and famous rich and single dad. I’d heard enough rumours about him to last a lifetime so when he barely paid attention to me in the crowd of dozens of people, I wasn’t surprised. But when he still didn’t pay attention to me after I joined the university club hockey team, I was then surprised. Our university had always had two hockey teams. The Harrington Titans, which was the team of all the elite players who were most likely going to join the NHL anytime soon and the Harrington Wolves, which was the team of all the people like me who played hockey as an hobby. As the Titans captain, he sure had a reputation to hold which included overlooking every single member of the Wolves. And when for the first time since he became captain, the Wolves beat the Titans with an embarrassing score, he was finally forced to notice me. And maybe, hate me. But my mission was accomplished so who cared? “What are you doing here?” I’d gotten so lost in my thoughts I didn’t realize Noah had walked up to me. He was standing so close to me and out of the three years of knowing him, beating him and being his new stepbrother, there had never been that little distance between us. “Nice to see you again too, brother,” I replied him, looking straight into those eyes I hadn’t seen in so long. His hair was still short and within a year, there was barely any changes in his physical features. “I know right? It has been so long.” “What?” he shot me a glare and I almost burst into laughter. He was handling my sarcasm so terribly it made me fear hockey was the only thing he was good at. “Why are you back? I thought you left.” “Oh, you noticed,” I simply smiled. “Well, yeah, it must have been hard not to since your team finally got a refill on that ‘luck’.” “You—” “Japan was boring,” I ran my hands through my hair as I replied. “That’s why I came back. So yes, brother, I am back. For good.” He looked speechless for a second. But not longer than a second as he immediately turned around and skated away from me without replying. “Mason,” I read the name stitched on his jersey as he slowly got out of my sight. “Oh, Mason.” He had to be capable of uttering more than five sentences. And more than anything, I was willing to stick around to watch that happen. “See you in a bit.” It’d been one week since I returned and finally, Jonathan had decided to invite Noah over for dinner. Whether it was his idea or my mum’s idea, I didn’t really care. I was just thrilled when they told me Noah would be coming over later tonight after our match. So when he stormed off without replying me, I knew it was only a matter of time before he sat next to me again and finally get those words out. I took my shower in a rush and got changed. My mum said he’d be here by 9pm and by 8:50, I was already. But I didn’t go downstairs until 9:15pm and Noah was still not present. “He was probably a bit tired from the match,” my mum tried to console Jonathan. “I’m sure he’ll sure up. I promise.” I raised my brow at the scene, Noah inevitably on my mind. Ever since my dad died, it had always been just us two until she met Jonathan. I didn’t know much about him but I knew my mum was a good judge of character. So when she said she wanted to get married to him, I was actually happy for her. And no matter how hard I tried, still couldn’t figure out why Noah was the complete opposite. “He’s here,” she rose to her feet as she heard the front door open. Excitedly, she rushed towards the entrance to usher him in, Jonathan clearing his throat a few more times than necessary. “Noah, nice to meet you again. How are you? How was today’s match? It’s so rare to see you these days. You should come home more often.” She was overcompensating and I felt embarrassed on her behalf. Noah would see right through her and if he was anything like the man I’d spent three years trying to figure out, it’d only irritate him further. “I’m fine, thanks.” One sentence down. He walked over to the dining, he and his father exchanging nothing but nods of acknowledgements. He took his seat, directly opposite mine, resting his hands on the table like he didn’t know what to do next. I almost laughed. Hockey had to really be the only thing he was good at. “Come on, let’s eat.” Dinner was served and silence followed. The awkward kind I hated so much cause I’d never been one to keep my mouth shut for so long. “How was today’s match?” Jonathan finally spoke up before I could die of boredom. “You played against each other, right?” “Yes, we did,” I replied, Noah focusing on his food. “It was fun. More than decent for my comeback match.” “Before I forget, my team won.” I watched Noah’s grip on his cutlery immediately tighten, my lips curling in contentment. He still didn’t speak up, urging me to try even harder. “Apparently, the Titans had been on a winning streak before I returned. Maybe I should just ditch the Wolves and join the Titans since I’m so good?” Jonathan laughed at my words but all I got from Noah was a forehead crease. “Before that, don’t forget you still need to get a new place now that you’re back,” my mum chipped in. “How’s that going? Found a dorm yet?” “You need a place?” Jonathan spoke up before I could. “Noah lives alone in one of my buildings close to the university. It’s a duplex and it’s just him so why don’t you move in with him?” I looked between him and Noah. "There are plenty of empty rooms there," Jonathan continued. "You could stay with him. At least until you find somewhere else.” Noah immediately looked up. "What?" "I said Takumi could stay with you." Two sentences. Followed by his cutlery immediately slipping out of his hands to fall loudly against the table. “What do you mean by stay with me?” "You've got the space," Jonathan replied calmly. "If you mind so much, it'd only be temporary until he sorts something else out." "I prefer living alone." "I know you do," Jonathan said. "But it's only for a little while." “It doesn’t matter.” "It does. You've got rooms sitting empty." "And I'd like to keep them empty." “You’re incredibly privileged, Noah,” Jonathan shook his head, letting out a slow breath. “When I was in university, I didn't have an entire building to myself. All I'm asking is for you to share one room you're clearly not using.” “I didn’t allow even my friends move in when they asked me to.” “Well, good, Takumi isn’t your friend. He’s your stepbrother.” “Is that supposed to make this any better?” I almost clapped my hands and jumped. My patience finally paid off and he broke his record of uttering not more than five sentences. Seven full sentences. From the one and only Noah Mason. “Jonathan, it’s fine,” I broke into a smile. I turned to Noah and continued, “If Noah doesn’t want me to live with him, he must have his reasons. I’m sure it messes up his ego to have his rival suddenly return and now want to live so close to him.” “You’re not my rival,” he fired at me. “Don’t be mistaken.” “Okay, I’m just your stepbrother then,” I raised my hands in defeat. “You don’t consider me a rival. Or a threat. There’s absolutely no tension between us. I almost do not exist to you.” I smiled sweetly then tilted my head. “Since that’s the case, can I move in then?”TAKUMI WILLIAMS I’d learnt from an early age that some lies were needed. Like when my dad called in sick at work so he could watch my hockey match in grade 6. Or when my I told my dad my mum was the one craving pizza so he could pick it on his way home after I’d spent an entire week eating nothing but that same pizza. Those lies were harmless and in the long run, we had all laughed at it upon realization. It had been understandable and somehow, made me grow up to believe everyone always had a good reason behind their every action. But hearing Noah’s father had lied to the world, including my mum, about his ex-wife’s death, I suddenly questioned the very belief that had been ingrained in me for years.“I want to see her,” Noah continued. “I don't care what he says. I just want to see her.”“You should.”He looked at me.“I mean it,” I added. “If you want to see her, you should at least get the chance to try. Your dad can't just decide that for you without telling you anything.”Noa
TAKUMI WILLIAMSThe drive home was painfully quiet.Not the comfortable kind of silence that sometimes settled between Noah and me when neither of us had anything worth saying, but the kind that made me painfully aware of every little sound inside the car. The engine humming beneath us, the tires moving against the road, the occasional clicking of the indicator whenever I changed lanes.Noah hadn’t said a word since we left the parking lot.I kept glancing at him whenever I could without making it obvious, and every time I did, he was staring through the passenger-side window with an expression I couldn’t quite place.He looked exhausted.Not physically exhausted, either.There was something about the way he was sitting, his shoulders slightly hunched and his hands resting loosely against his thighs, that made him look like he had forgotten what to do with himself. Noah was usually so controlled that even when he was angry, there was something deliberate about it. He knew what he want
NOAH MASON For a moment, I couldn’t hear anything. The parking lot hadn’t suddenly gone quiet, and the world around me hadn’t stopped moving, but my father’s words seemed to have swallowed every other sound, leaving me standing there with nothing but the same sentence repeating inside my head. She’s getting worse. I stared at him, waiting for him to take it back, to explain that there had been some misunderstanding or that the hospital had made a mistake, because there was no way he could have driven all the way here just to tell me something like that. “What do you mean she’s getting worse?” My voice sounded unfamiliar, and I hated how unsteady it was. “Why would she get worse? Why?” Compared to what the rest of the world was made to believe, my mum wasn’t dead. She had been alive all this time, locked away in a psychiatric hospital, while the rest of the world carried on as though she had never existed. I was eight years old when he told me she was suffering from b
TAKUMI WILLIAMS I spotted Wyatt almost immediately after stepping onto the ice. He was seated a few rows up from the rink, close enough that I could recognize him without having to look too hard, and the moment our eyes met, he lifted a hand in greeting as though we hadn’t already had a conversation about him staying away from me. I looked away. Of course, he had come. I’d told him not to, but apparently, that was another one of those things he had decided he could ignore, and I wasn’t particularly interested in dealing with him before a match. I had enough to think about already, especially with the Titans being our opponents and the last thing I needed being a distraction that had nothing to do with hockey. Still, my eyes wandered across the crowd again, searching through the faces until I found myself looking for someone else. Noah. I wasn’t sure why I expected to see him, considering how things had been between us lately, but I looked anyway. I scanned the rows closest to
NOAH MASON The silence that followed was immediate. Ethan blinked, while Summer’s mouth fell slightly open before she recovered and leaned closer across the table. “Guys?” I nodded once, suddenly finding the condensation on my glass far more interesting than either of their faces. “As in…” Ethan paused, looking at Summer before returning his attention to me. “You’re attracted to men?” “That’s generally what it means.” “Okay,” Summer said slowly, although the surprise in her expression hadn’t completely disappeared. “I wasn’t expecting that.” “Neither was I.” “How did you figure it out?” Ethan asked. “Did you meet someone?” I hesitated. “Did you fall for a guy?” Summer added, her curiosity growing with every second I remained silent. My mind immediately went somewhere I hadn’t intended it to. Takumi. I remembered the way his hair fell over his forehead, how it sometimes got in his eyes when he leaned too close, and the way his dark brown eyes seemed to hold
NOAH MASON I hadn’t intended to listen to their conversation. In fact, I had been perfectly content with minding my own business when I arrived at the rink, but seeing Takumi standing with another man had made that considerably more difficult. I hadn’t recognized him, and although I couldn’t hear every word they exchanged, I had caught enough to understand that they weren’t strangers. The familiarity between them was difficult to miss, particularly when the man handed Takumi something and spoke to him with the kind of ease that suggested he knew more about him than the average person would. Then there had been the mention of tomorrow’s match, the promise to see him again, and the rather suggestive invitation to celebrate together afterwards. It didn’t take much effort to put the pieces together. That was his ex. I didn’t know his name, and I wasn’t particularly interested in finding out, but the realization left an uncomfortable feeling sitting somewhere in my chest. Not b







