LOGINJosh bolted upright as his head throbbed with a sickening liquid heat. It felt like his brain was being shredded from the inside.
Before he could even squint against the blinding morning sun, a thunderous knock shook the entire room. The sound was sharp and violent.
"Open up! I know you’re in there, Josh!"
That voice. The recognition hit him like a physical blow. Josh scrambled out of bed and ignored the haze in his mind as he lunged for the door.
His palm slammed against the freezing metal knob. It bit into his skin as he ripped the door open. The wood groaned as it swung wide.
Josh froze. His hands balled into white-knuckled fists at his sides. His breath hitched and turned shallow as he stared at the figure in the hallway. It was his non-biological father standing with an unyielding aura. A dark blue suit wrapped around him, and his dark blue slacks matched perfectly.
Josh’s eyes darted down to the phone his father held tight. The screen flashed with a fresh notification from the school parent portal. The A- on his English test paper had just been uploaded to the system.
“Yes, Dad,” Josh said. He kept his voice neutral and perfect in that baritone softness he used as a shield.
His father’s brows lifted right away. His grip on the phone tightened until his knuckles went pale.
Josh stepped back as his legs began to tremble. He felt like he was facing a death sentence because his father never wanted a grade so depressing that it would boil his blood.
“Your teacher just uploaded this five minutes ago,” his father hissed. “Where did you get that, Dad?” Josh repented. He looked down and avoided the eyes of the man standing in front of him.
“You dumb coward. You got an A minus?” His father’s voice was deep, and it metaphorically crawled under Josh’s skin.
“I didn’t really mean to,” Josh started to say. Before he could finish, a hand struck directly onto his cheek.
He flinched and almost lost his balance as he stepped backward. The blow left a burning mark on his face. It was a sign telling him he was idiotic for getting a grade like that.
His eyes went teary for a moment.
“I expected more from you,” his father criticized. “If another A minus shows up, then you are no son of mine.”
With that, his father slammed the door shut.
It left the room with a thud bullet sound. Josh just stared at the ground without moving a single muscle.
A tear escaped from his lids, but he managed to wipe it quickly.
The A minus was a verbal error to his system. He couldn't have imperfection because he was the King. He was perfect.
Suddenly, the phone on his bed started ringing. He walked toward the mattress where his messy sheets stayed unorganized.
He grabbed the device and saw Thomas was calling. His eyes lit up. Thomas had invited him two days ago to head out to the skateboard park for stress relief, and right now he needed to escape.
Josh headed toward the entrance of the park. Skaters were showing off with tricks that he couldn’t understand.
He didn't know why they would slack their time off with this kind of activity. He had changed into fresh clothes, and it put a candle inside his light. It boosted his confidence enough to walk through the crowd.
He spotted Thomas wearing a baggy black shirt with a faded band logo. Josh waved. Thomas gave him a smile and showed off the skateboard in his hands. It looked like it had just been opened right from the store.
“Dude, thank god you are here. I already miss your face,” Thomas said with a wink. He sat on the bench while Josh adjusted his glasses.
“My presence is a gift to your surroundings,” Josh said gloriously. He kept his face serious even as a skater flew past him. The scent was unpredictable and definitely not flowers. It was pure armpits.
“Yeah, whatever you say,” Thomas replied. He fixed the cap he wore as a special accessory to attract the girls in the park.
Thomas lifted his body off the bench and began to show off the tricks he had practiced. Josh was stuck staring at the display. Then the atmosphere glided and changed. A familiar face materialized beside Thomas.
“Oh, hey man,” the familiar face said. He shook hands with Thomas. Thomas stopped his tricks and tightened his grip as sweat ran down his forehead.
Josh’s heartbeat began to rise. He felt the same sensation from the convenience store the night before. Tristan was wearing the same style as Thomas. A board hovered beside him with a design like a dark forest.
“What is he doing here?!” Josh asked. He stood up and walked closer.
Thomas looked confused. “You know each other?”
“Yes! I mean no. But why is he here? And why were you shaking hands with him?” Josh’s cheeks began to flush red once again. He never wanted to get near this person, but the universe kept forcing their paths to interact.
“Why, Mr. President? Am I annoying you?” Tristan’s voice sounded charming in Josh’s ears all of a sudden.
“Stop calling me that!” Josh hissed. He crossed his arms and glanced away.
“Oh my god! Hi hottie!” A high-pitched voice echoed behind Tristan.
Tristan stepped aside and revealed a girl. Josh found himself stuck in her orbit. Her hair was a gorgeous mess of golden curls that caught the light. It looked almost metallic as it bounced against her shoulders. Her eyes were deep and black like ink dropped into water.
Josh noticed her lips were a perfect natural color.
She stood there in a black crop top that radiated an energy headed straight for him. Her skinny jeans pulled the whole magnetic outfit together. Josh simply could not look away.
He told himself he was mesmerized by her beauty, but a sharp guilt began to rise in his throat.
“Thomas, I will be right back. I have some company ahead of me,” Tristan said. He turned toward the girl.
Before she could clench her hand onto Tristan’s shoulder, he looked at Josh. “See you later, Mr. President.”
Tristan walked away with her.
Josh’s shoulder went limp after hearing that. Inside the fabric of his shirt, his stomach twisted in an imperfection way that could throw his throne away.
“Lucky guy,” Thomas scoffed. He went back to his tricks.
“Yeah, lucky,” Josh muttered. He sat back on the bench with his eyes locked on Tristan’s back. He felt a sharp guilt and a heavy weight in his chest that he couldn't explain. He wasn't looking at the girl anymore. He was watching Tristan leave.
“THE TOURNAMENT IS ABOUT TO BEGIN!” a voice yelled over the speakers.
Josh looked up at Thomas. “What do you mean, tournament?”
“The Annual City Park Throwdown,” Thomas explained while kicking his board up. “I forgot to mention it on the phone because I was worried about something. It is an open entry event. Tristan paid the f*e and signed up as a wild card ten minutes ago.”
After school, Josh wandered into his room like a statue, paralyzed by a depression he could not escape. Dark circles shadowed his eyes, a weight he could not simply blink away. His mind flooded with desperate "what-ifs." If he had not gone to that party, his life would still have been perfect. The memory of Tristan’s face flickered in his mind and haunted him.Josh pulled his laptop close, the screen’s light echoing his name. He stared at an application for a school abroad, a place where he could wander into a new life and start a fresh chapter.Suddenly, a loud bang on the gate echoed outside his window. His heart jumped and his mind fractured. His body went rigid as a familiar voice pierced through his memory."Josh! Come out! Let’s talk about this!" It was Tristan. He sounded drunk. "I’ve been missing you, dude. Where are you? The school year was ending and you were still not showing up!"Josh felt the "sin" of the situation and wanted to zip his mouth shut as Dylan moved to handle
The ground turned transparent beneath Josh’s feet. His hands stayed frozen. His eyes snapped toward the full-length mirror and caught the raccoon-textured mess of his hair. He couldn't move. He wouldn't.Memories didn't just drift. They flashed. Tristan’s face. The lingering heat on his lips. Hands pressing hard and real. It felt like love then but now it felt like a wrecking ball hitting his life. Why meet someone who dragged so much chaos into his orbit? What now? The walls weren't just silent. They seemed to be peeling back their lips and getting ready to laugh.Underneath his lids black circles had burned in. He hated them. Tears leaked. Last night hadn't been a dream. It was a nightmare he was still wearing. No one would understand. Not now. Not ever. He sobbed and his throat tightened until it hurt. Nerves plucked at his spine. The water thrusted down his cheeks and stained his features. Everyone would see that dirt.Bang! Bang!The door rattled on its hinges. "Hey! Kid, you’re
Josh’s body went rigid. Chains held him. Cold ones. Metallic. This presence ate him alive. Every fiber. Every breath called to him. It was as if the air tried to pull back the sections that diffused into his body. It did not want to connect to Josh’s lungs.No. Britney witnessed it. She saw how their lips pressed into each other. His heart started to tear. Piece by piece. His mind cut off. A blank space sprinted inside his stomach.Strands of his hair froze. It felt like it was supposed to happen. Even the air watched Josh with dark, predatory eyes. The walls sealed his lips.Then his hands moved. They tore away from Tristan’s burning cheeks. His mouth tasted sin. Sin meant beer. Sin meant trouble.Josh pushed his hands out. He stood up. He stepped away from the bed. Tristan remained there. His eyes widened. A shock of electricity volted in them.“Britney,” Josh spoke up, “it was a misunderstanding.”Josh tried. His steps became heavy. Frantic. He lifted pounds of secrets inside his c
It was too loud.The air felt thick. It tasted of spilled vodka and cheap sweat. Everything in the room was inappropriate for Josh’s sense of order. His mind mashed together shallow, useless thoughts. Why had he agreed to this? His stomach ached with the sudden tension.The furniture had been shoved aside. The carpet was stained with a dark, sticky liquid. It was a mess. Josh hated messes. He lived for lines and logic. He lived for everything to be in its place. But right now, his fears were clawing at his mind.This house was a nightmare of imperfection. He shook his head. He knew he was changing. He was becoming part of that imperfection too. He realized that judging others didn't change anything.He looked around the room. People were everywhere. It felt like a farewell party for a group of teenagers who had no vision for their future.Then he saw them.Josh’s chest hardened. Then it broke into pieces under a heavy hammer.He spotted Thomas. His best friend."What is he doing?"
“There’s this party… and I wanted to invite you.” Tristan asked with his hands pinned behind his back.The air played its part in the darkness, collecting every light it could catch in its own net and placing them inside a transparent jar.“I’m thinking that you’re inviting me, aren’t you?” Josh spoke with his finger on his chin, pressing into the coldness of the night.“Yes,” Tristan’s eyes lit up wide. “And I want you to go with me and have fun for a while. I mean—”Josh cut him off.“Sorry to announce, but I’m not coming. There’s one task I have to do before graduation as the Council President. You should, too. You’re the vice.” Josh threw the responsibility right at Tristan, whose jaw dropped into a massive loop.“And what was that?” Tristan stepped forward, crossing into Josh’s personal space.Josh let a smile settle on his cherry lips. His hand drifted toward Tristan’s smooth forehead, which felt like a cushion made of skin.“Our statement! Our vocabulary and a long text to expo
This day left Josh and Tristan feeling so jittery and restless that they could barely stay still. The two of them were inside the gym, where everyone had already gathered and the rest of the group was already mingling about.Josh kept scratching the skin on his hands while Tristan stood beside the coach, both hands resting firmly on his hips. Josh gave Tristan a soft, cute smile that tugged at the corner of his lips. Everyone else was loud and chatty, but the atmosphere felt calm and cool. A gentle breeze seemed to blend perfectly with the quiet stillness of everyone around, whether they were sitting or standing.“All of you, this is our very last class here at school. And to all of you soon-to-be graduates, don’t you dare forget me,” their coach said. Right then, tears started to well up in the coach’s eyes, and Josh felt a deep, heart-tugging emotion washing over him. His cheeks felt cold and stiff.“Shit,” he muttered under his breath.The air in the gym crackled with sudden intens
Yesterday had been a complete rush. Now, Josh sat in his room, trying to focus on a book he didn't even care about. There was a heavy feeling in his chest because he couldn’t stop remembering what happened in that dark closet.The air in there had been so thick it felt like it was cutting the hair
“Oh my god! The President and Vice President are here! What a shocking revelation from the heavens!” Jessica yelled. Her cheeks were flushed a deep red, and her perfume smelled sharper than anything Josh had ever experienced.“Yes, we’re here—and the two of us will be joining the adorable game!” Tr
The door flew open as Josh entered the mansion, and the movements of the people went rigid instantly.Students’ eyes lingered on Josh. His heart beat fast. He remembered the events of two days ago at the Math Decathlon. A person gave him a quick nod, and others offered plastered smiles that felt sa
“Tristan, what are you doing here?” Josh whispered as he spotted Tristan’s messy hair through the window glass.“Tristan’s actually not here,” Tristan’s voice replied from the dark.Josh rolled his eyes despite the agonizing ache in his fresh wounds and the dark purple marks painted across his body







