LOGINWedding weekend came quickly. Poppi had thought she had way more time to prepare herself for a five hour car ride in the back seat with Madden, but she was wrong.
They didn’t even say hello to one another when they got into the vehicle. Fred finished piling bags into the back of the black SUV and they were off. The roads were smooth and relaxing. Poppi read a book while Madden scrolled on his phone. They didn’t even glance at one another for two hours. Poppi was finished with a few chapters so she set her book on the seat between them. Boom! Fred hit a large pothole and it sent her book flying forward. Poppi and Madden went to catch the book at the same time. The book fell to the floor, but their fingers were touching on the seat. Neither of them moved. Only their pinkies touched, but it was enough to send electric shock waves through both of their bodies. Valyn noticed a shift in their demeanors. “Poppi dear, can you check the route on your phone and find us a gas station? Fred wants to maybe fill up since we have been driving for two hours already,” Valyn said. Fred looked over at her startled by her claim. “V, I have a half tank. I’m good,” Fred said. No matter his response, this still broke whatever moment Poppi and Madden were having. Poppi moved her hand first and then Madden followed. He glanced over at her and gave her a small smile. She did not return the smile. This weekend was going to be super difficult if this is how they were starting off already. Three more hours went by painfully slow, but they finally made it to the cottage. Pointing to a small blue cottage behind the large one they were staying in, Valyn said, “MJ, your living quarters will be in that blue cottage just behind the house. You will be staying with cousins Drake and Talon. Poppi’s head snapped up from her phone. She was shocked to hear that he wasn’t staying with them. But he would have fun with Drake and Talon. They were very protective over Poppi. Madden would enjoy the company. Poppi inhaled the mahogany smell of the staircase. She set her bags down for Fred to carry to her room. Then she went off to explore. Madden had already dropped his bags and was playing horseshoes with Talon. Poppi tried to not watch him, but she was mesmerized by each muscle flexing when he tossed the shoe. Talon noticed her watching. “Is that my little popcorn?” He asked, setting down his horseshoes and running over to hug Poppi. She embraced him. “Hi Tally. How have you been? You didn’t come to the fourth this year!” She noted. “Listen, work has been super demanding. I was only able to take this weekend off or the fourth. And you know your aunt Babs. She will not allow me to miss a wedding in the family, so wedding it is!” He laughed. Madden kept throwing his horseshoes, never looking up at Poppi or Talon. “He isn’t a man of many words is he? How are you enjoying having a big brother now?” He asked, using air quotes. “It’s fine Tal. Mom has really overwhelmed us both with all the family bonding. It’s a lot,” Poppi claimed. That evening they had to meet at the reception hall for the dinner rehearsal. Hagen was beautiful per usual. She was making her way around the room, greeting everyone she came by. The reception hall was decorated in a farm chic look with muted greens laced throughout. Poppi was already at the venue. She looked around to see who was all present. Pretending that she wasn’t looking for—HIM! She didn’t see him, but did see a guy named Hohner that she used to date before he moved to Louisiana. He and Hagen’s brother were best friends, so it made sense that he would be here. She tried to look passed him quickly, but he spotted her and made his way over to her.Not because it wasn’t true. Because it was. The phone rang. Madden. Poppi answered. “Hi.” His voice came through the speaker, tired and quiet. “Hey.” For a moment, neither of them said anything. Then Madden asked, “You okay?” Poppi smiled sadly. “No.” He laughed softly. “Me neither.” She curled her legs beneath her. “How far are you?” “Still a long way.” “That’s not an answer.” “I know.” She could hear the road beneath his voice. “You driving?” “Yeah.” “Then don’t talk to me.” “I can talk and drive.” “No, you can’t.” “I’ve missed your bossiness.” Poppi smiled. “I’ve missed you.” Silence. Madden’s breathing changed. “Say that again.” “No.” “Poppi.” She laughed softly. “You heard me.” “I just wanted to hear it twice.” Her smile faded. “Madden…” “Yeah?” “I don’t want us to make this harder than it already is.” “I know.” “I mean it.” “I know.” “But I don’t know how to do this.” His voice softened. “Neither do I.” Poppi stared down at her stom
The house felt different without Madden.Poppi didn’t know how else to describe it.It wasn’t quieter.Fred was still moving around downstairs. Valyn was still in the kitchen, opening and closing cabinets as she cleaned. The television was playing in the living room even though nobody seemed to be watching it.Everything was exactly where it had been yesterday.And somehow, everything felt completely different.Poppi stood at the upstairs window, watching the empty driveway.Madden’s truck was gone.She had watched it disappear nearly twenty minutes ago.She had stood there until the very last second, until the truck turned at the end of the street and disappeared behind the row of trees.She hadn’t moved since.Her arms were folded tightly across her chest.Her hand slowly drifted down to her stomach.The baby.She still wasn’t used to thinking that word.Baby.Their baby.Madden was somewhere on the road to Maryland right now.And she was standing in Texas, pregnant with his child.
Madden and Poppi entered the gated oak tree near the wooden swing and sat. Poppi fidgeted with her hair. Putting it in and out of a ponytail. Madden gave her his undivided attention.“What’s going on?”She took a deep breath.“So I haven’t seen you much for the last month. And I have been kind of going through something on my own,” Poppi stated.Madden reached for her hand but resisted, “I’m sorry you have been dealing with something Poppi. I’ve tried to honor what we said and I stayed away. It is very confusing and heartbreaking for me. Anchor is just easier unfortunately. But we agreed to that, right?” Poppi nodded and looked out towards the barn. “I mean, we ended this Poppi. You wanted this. Me leaving, me with Anchor, this is what you wan—“ he began.“I’m pregnant Madden,” she blurted out. The words felt so heavy coming out. As if she pick them up and hold them in her hands.Madden stopped. He turned towards her with his eyes wide open. “What?” He asked.“I’m pregnant. With
The second decision proved even harder.Fred.Just thinking his name made Poppi’s stomach tighten.She loved her stepfather.He had raised her.Protected her.Believed in her when she hadn’t always believed in herself.He had been there for every birthday, every school event, every heartbreak. He had taught her how to drive, sat beside her when she cried, and never once made her feel like she was anything less than his daughter.And now she had to tell him the one thing that might completely destroy the life he thought they were all living.She was pregnant.With Madden’s baby.Her hands trembled as she sat on the edge of her bed, staring at the test sitting on the nightstand.She had looked at it so many times that morning that the two lines almost didn’t feel real anymore.Almost.She placed a hand over her stomach.There was nothing to feel yet.No movement.No bump.Nothing that should have made this feel real.And yet, somehow, everything had changed.Madden was leaving for Maryl
The house had never felt so loud.The laughter downstairs drifted through the vents while Poppi sat on the edge of her bed, staring at the pregnancy test she’d tucked inside the back of her nightstand. Hidden beneath old dance recital programs and birthday cards, it still felt like it was glowing.Two pink lines.She’d checked it a dozen times, as though somehow they might disappear if she looked hard enough.They hadn’t.Her hand instinctively drifted to her stomach.Nothing had changed.Everything had changed.A knock sounded softly against her bedroom door.“You awake?” Valyn asked.Poppi swallowed. “Yeah.”The door cracked open just enough for her mom to peek inside.“You okay? You’ve been awfully quiet today.”“I’m just tired.”Valyn studied her for a second, the way mothers always seemed to know when something wasn’t right. But after a moment she smiled gently.“Don’t stay up too late. We leave early to take Madden to the airport.”Airport.The word hit like a punch.Tomorrow.T
Back home Poppi and Madden stayed away from one another. They didn’t glance at each other the way they used to. Valyn noticed.Poppi was cleaning Thunder’s hooves out one evening and Valyn joined her. She pulled up a stool next to Poppi who was covered in dirt and hay. “Pops, you’ve been so down lately babe. What can I do?” Valyn asked, hand her a tool she was trying to reach. “Mom! Are you serious? You know why I’m sad. There is nothing you can do to change it so please just let it be until August 20th comes and he goes home,” Poppi said, letting Thunder rest her hoof. Valyn almost spoke but withheld. She knew her daughter was right. She hated seeing her hurt this way. “I love him, mom. You don’t care about that though do you?” Poppi asked.Valyn was speechless. She tried to form words…the right words. But she had nothing that would heal her heart. She hugged Poppi and then walked back up to the house. Poppi sat in the barn and cried. She couldn’t believe this was her life. Fa







