“What do you mean you’re stepping down?” Lucas turns pale.I hand my son over to Clara who looks devastated before I turn to face my mate, “Exactly what I said. I’m not - I can’t anymore. I’m leaving the pack. I’m leaving my position.”My voice is empty, devoid of any warmth or emotion.“Leaving the pack? Where are we goi-““I’m going,” I cut him off. “I’m leaving. You’re staying.”“Oh,” There is a wealth of pain in Lucas’s voice as he looks at me, and I can see the life drain from his eyes. “You’re leaving me.” A part of me wishes to hold him, to wipe that dead look from his eyes, but that part of me is only a glimmer and it’s easy to squash. My heart is in shreds. Despite knowing the truth, the damage has been done and old scars and new scars have blended together to wreck me in the most absolute way.I have been left an empty husk.“I have to leave,” I say, dully. “There’s nothing left anymore.”“Sarah,” He takes a step towards me, freezing when I fli
SHERRYI wake up to the smell of smoke and the sound of screams. The screams of my people.As awareness infiltrates me, along with this numbing dazedness, I feel an overwhelming sense of suffocation. It’s almost as if there is a heavy pressure on my chest.The sweet release of darkness has never been more inviting.It might be the cowards way out but right now, it seems the easiest way.But just as I am slipping into the void, I hear a familiar voice cry out, “Mama! No, don’t hurt my mama!”It’s a plaintive cry, the voice of a child who has till now been filled with laughter and joy. Ignoring my own pain, I look around and see the raging fires, along with the little girl screaming. There are other people crying out too, shouting, crying, screaming, but it is three year old’s voice that forces me to assess my situation. The reason for my suffocation is pretty easy to narrow down. Here is a huge slab of metal resting on my chest. The memory comes back in a sharp
LUCASThe setting is familiar.It’s a village.A village I never I want to return to.It’s the place where I lost everything.Every corner of it haunts me.As I love closer, inside, drawn by some invisible force, I stand in front of a motel. I recognise it. How could I not?But it’s empty.However, my eyes linger on a door and I remember forced touches, the screaming in my head, the desperation to escape and yet the inability to do so. My heart begins begins beating wildly and I start looking around for my salvation, for the one person who can soothe me.But the motel is empty and that door that was my personal hell is growing bigger and bigger.My hands are shaking as I try to move back but the door looms closer and closer. It’s getting difficult to breathe as that familiar feeling of disgust and horror overwhelm me.And then my eyes fly open.For a moment, my breathing is hard, my heartbeat unsteady, as I try to take stock of my surroundings.I’
My anger is fierce at her words.“What?” I set the coffee cup on the counter with a loud clang. “Have they lost their minds?!”Clara sighs, “If it makes you feel any better, I was also against the whole idea but Lucas,” she looks up to meet my gaze, “Sarah isn’t coming back. It’s been a year. The pack is fracturing without an Alpha pair.”“Then I’ll step down-““You know you can’t do that,” Clara rubs her temple, looking just as tired as I feel inside. “You’re the strongest member of the pack. And you’re the only who knew what Sarah was planning for the pack. You’re keeping everything going.”But I hate it.I hate stepping into a role that belongs to Sarah.She should be here. This is her home. Her place.Even a year as Alpha of the Stone Wolves and I still feel like a fraud.Clara seems to catch my wave of thinking and she murmurs, “Truth be told, Sarah was the catalyst of change int his pack. She brought us into a more advanced age. She had plans for the fut
When Sarah decided to leave the pack, I had known that she was leaving me.The heartbreak that had followed, on top of my trauma had left me in pieces. But I had known that it had been my fault, that I had broken that vibrant, laughing girl who already wore scars on her soul. I should have fought back harder. I should have resisted more. I don’t know why I couldn’t or why I didn’t.But each ugly word that had left my mouth back then, each action, it is imprinted in my brain. The look in her eyes is seared behind my eyeballs and every time I close my eyes, I see her. I see the heartbreak, the betrayal, and it makes me flinch.I wrecked her to the core.And I deserve this.I deserve the nightmares and this aversion to touch. I deserve the listlessness in my soul.But I can’t stop my hands for reaching for her every night.I can’t keep drying out the pillows every time I wake up.As I run in the forest, a russet coloured wolf who looks thinner than before,
I stare at her, my hands clenching by my sides.“You want me to bring her back?” I echo, a cold anger rising in within me. “To do what? Fight this war? Stand at the helm of everything? Have you seen the state she is in?!”Aliya’s eyes are tight as she meets my gaze, “We need her. I’m not saying she needs to fight. I’m saying that for the world to have any kind of future, Sarah needs to be leading the Stone Wolves Pack. Till she was there, we all had a chance. She is a catalyst. That girl is special, Lucas.”I absorb her words but it doesn’t help the anger inside of me.Aliya is talking about Sarah as if she is a thing, something to be used. “She is broken!” I hiss, hating myself for how my voice cracks. “I broke her, Aliya! You expect me to go to her and tell her to come back and see my face every day just to be reminded of what I did to her because you think it’s import-““This is not about you or her, or even me, Lucas!” Aliya’s words are sharp. “This is about the
“He’s still hunting you?” I feel tense on knowing that.My eyes wander around the surroundings as something occurs to me, “Wait, didn’t he destroy this place before?”“He did and I fixed it back up,” Aliya murmurs. “I might be the only free witch he knows right now so I am a threat to him.”Her words strike me as odd, “Free witch? What does that mean?”She doesn’t say anything for a few seconds before murmuring, “I don’t want to say yet. I’m still trying to figure it out. But Damon offered me a place in his territory, within the forest. I prefer to be in nature so…”Her words fade off and I know that Damon probably saw an opportunity and lured her in. He’s clever that way. She looks around, a discomfited expression on her face, “He annoys me but he’s been a good protector every time I have been in danger. And there are little ones in his tribe.”Ah, the children.Aliya likes children.Damon’s tribe is far more advanced than the pack is and I know that he
I stiffen at her words and I want to say something but I just clench my fists. It is a painful reminder to myself that I have no right to interfere, no rights anymore to Sarah.From the look in the female shifter’s eyes, her words had been deliberate. I understand their anger and I choose not to respond.A year after losing Sarah has calmed down my usually explosive temper quite a lot.When we reach the underground garage, I see more vehicles but I don’t comment on it, just helping the wolves out. They rush towards a door on the side and I instinctively know they are going towards wherever Sarah is.Sarah’s ability to summon wolves is one that only a few powerful members of the Clear Mountain Clan have. She retained this ability even after losing her wolf. So, I follow the two wolves without thinking, my hands trembling.They race through the corridors of the den, rushing past people who don’t seem very surprised to see the two wolves but do gave me frowning looks. B