The cold of the early morning woke me up, filled with hallucinations. I rushed to the bathroom; urinary incontinence was bothering me. As I walked, I also felt nauseous and vomited like a dog. I looked at myself in the mirror and washed my face. That's when I decided that it would be best to accept Laura's proposal.— It's not your fault, Lisa, you won't be able to handle this, — I said to myself, looking pale in the mirror.When the clock struck seven, I got up, took a shower, found decent clothes, and styled my hair. Convinced of my decision, it was best to have an abortion to get my normal life back. That would be the only way to determine if I really had a place in Thiago's life, even though he was married.I headed to Thiago's office, but Madeline, the secretary, stopped me.— You can't go in, he can't see you right now, — she said, looking at me over her glasses.— He told me to come today for a photo session, — I said confidently, feeling strange because I usually entered witho
I despised myself for feeling that his sweet words were overpowering my strength, courage, and even my decisions.— Do you promise not to abandon me? — I said, completely submissive to his will.— Neither you nor that baby, — he replied, still holding me in his arms.— It's too heavy a burden, — I clarified, feeling sorry.— It doesn't matter; together we can bear it, — he said with his loving voice. That was the only thing that made me change my mind, to understand that if life had given me the chance to be a mother and had put someone in my path to help me, I shouldn't reject it. After all, I wasn't as alone as I thought.— I don't want you to break my heart. I don't want to feel tied to you without reason. This situation is so confusing, — I repeated, pleading.— Lisa, just understand that my intentions aren't to hurt you. I just want to help you. For now, I can't do more. I also like you, but I don't know if it's temporary or if it means something deeper. I'm also afraid you'll fa
I got out of there straight to the parking lot, but just as I was about to start my bike, I heard a voice:— Hurry up - He said to me almost in whispers from the window of his car.— I'm on my bike — I explained nervously.— Don't insist, we already talked about that you must take care of yourself, you can't use the bike for now — He explainedUnwilling to follow my strength I got on his Ferrari, full of nerves and completely anxious in case someone was watching us, he raised the car windows.— Calm down, everyone has already left — He said and his clarification bothered me a little.— So what are you hiding? — I askedHe couldn't answer me and just asked another question — Where do you live?— Main street, 42nd avenue. I'll give you directions when we're close.Thiago looked at me with anguish, I saw on his perfect forehead a little sweat, maybe he was afraid that someone would see us, or simply also for him it was incomprehensible what was happening to us, the great attraction we fe
— I can't, Thiago — I replied as I pushed him away from me. He got up angrily from the couch and walked towards the door. I remained seated, looking at him. I felt a knot in my throat choking me, and I silently cried after the sound of the door. The sound of the car confirmed his departure, and I felt devastated. The cold attacked my nakedness, and my strength as a woman was defeated. It was so difficult to give in to my instincts, and so easy to heed my conscience, to let the opportunity of my life slip away feeling completely rejected. I know what had happened wasn't right, but the truth was that nothing that was happening was right anymore. Still, I couldn't become just another one of his lovers, especially because, at his request, I had decided to continue with my pregnancy.I got up slowly, completely numb, and turned off the lamp. I picked up my clothes in frustration and headed to the bedroom. I lay down and felt a heavy weight on me. I reached out my arm to the empty space on
I took a shower, and I felt fresh—though not entirely beautiful. My self-esteem was faltering more and more, but it was my night, and I had to make it the best of all. Amidst all the chaos, there was something good, and that was the prize.Once ready in the most casual clothes I had, convinced that the agency would provide me with the right outfit, I took a taxi that promptly took me to Siluetas. I entered but didn't see Thiago anywhere. I went straight to Fernando's studio, who would be the one to get me ready. Sandra and Laura were also getting dressed for the award ceremony. They glanced at me as I passed, but they didn't dare say anything. They knew that I was now succeeding beyond their taunts and scorn. Their venom couldn't defeat me, and thanks to the photos I had taken of them, they could attend the most anticipated event at the agency.— Lisa, dear, congratulations, — Fernando greeted me with indescribable joy.I thanked him as I sat down. — Before we begin, I want to clarify
The ballroom was incredibly elegant with floor-to-ceiling glass windows, dazzling red carpets, a gleaming stage with massive floral arrangements on either side, and a sea of golden chairs. I had never imagined I could be in a place like this, that I would actually have the opportunity to win the Fotomodel award, a highly coveted accolade among photographers in the country. It was an overwhelmingly pleasant feeling, with butterflies in my stomach. I couldn't tell if it was because I had the most handsome man by my side or due to the anticipation of hearing my name in that beautiful hall.— This is Lisa Miere, a photographer from my agency and winner of the Fotomodel award, — he introduced me to each person. I shook hands with them, feeling very embarrassed, and smiled.Once he had greeted all his partners and friends, we took our seats in the front row, where a spot had already been reserved for us. Sandra and Laura looked at me with anger and envy. He introduced them too, but for most
I heard Thiago's tremulous voice responding — She underwent an operation and couldn't accompany me, but you'll soon see her shine on other red carpets and she'll be able to have a glass of wine with you.— Oh, the woman said in a shocking tone. — Plastic surgery, I suppose, to make herself even more beautiful than she already is.I saw and could feel Thiago's pain, as confessing that his wife had undergone an operation to prevent having children wasn't easy for him. Even though that conversation brought me back to reality and made me forget the beauty that was happening, I couldn't avoid feeling compassion for him.— Yes, he affirmed tersely, lying to avoid saying what was really happening with Esmeralda, and he bid his farewell.I continued walking with him, but I avoided getting too close, as I had become aware of why people were staring at us so much. It was clear that everyone was surprised to see my boss without his wife. However, he lacked self-control and didn't understand the
— Get in quickly, he ordered me with his voice tired from haste, without the desire to tell me what was happening.I got in quickly, looked through the window, but no one was watching us, and we had been harassed enough throughout the night to run now. Thiago started the car and drove rapidly.— We're going to crash! I shouted in desperation. Are you going to tell me what's happening right now? I demanded irritably, as I knew well that I was pregnant, and it annoyed me that he was behaving this way while being unaware of my condition.Once we managed to leave the immense venue, Thiago slowed down the vehicle.— Ungrateful! Realize that you're carrying a pregnant woman on board, and it'll be your fault if I vomit in these luxurious seats! I yelled. Thiago burst into laughter like an idiot, causing my anger to intensify. I glared at him with fury, fully intending to do as I had said, but my conscience stopped me.— Oh, Lisa, you're truly one of a kind, he remarked, still laughing.— Exp