And I swear to all the saints that the floor looked liquid when he passed to my side and seemed to offer me an even wider smile when he bent down "I was not so sure about the smile because of the white mask he wore" and then choose an olive oil straight from the box, which I held with trembling hands and which they grabbed so tightly on the cardboard that he evenExtra virgin olive oil was Flynn Ashton's favorite, and I observed when he chose a bag of seasoning ready for meat and went out the aisle, probably in his normal shopping routine. Before he turned the corner of the hallway, he threw a look over his shoulders, and caught me still looking. However, I could not say if he was still smiling, because he quickly disappeared from the reach of my vision."A little more and you burn," Jordana pointed out, snapping a finger in front of my face. " But I totally understand, my friend. I wish I had a Greek God like that to call my own.”I cast an ugly look at her, but she didn't notice, sh
When I was finally able to leave for lunch, I found a message from Flynn waiting for me at 1:45 p.m. I took the backpack and started following the wide corridor from the cabinets to the kitchen, following a group of colleagues who talked excitedly about some bars having returned to work even in the pandemic period."Did you know that I thought he was really good? I like Terror, maybe not as much as you, lol. But I liked this thing about marrying a little with a police movie. The idea is very good. Apparently it's not 100% based on the story of police officer Sarchie, but I was interested in learning more. ""I'm in love with the dark and the inexplicable, so I must have watched this movie about five times... lol. So, yes, you can say that it's hard to find someone who likes horror movies as much as I do."His answer didn't take more than three minutes, and I assumed that, in addition to being online, maybe he was waiting for me. I didn't want to sound stupid, but that's what it seemed
"The problem is that every time I meet a guy, we have three or four dates and then he just disappears. "I vented, putting the glass with a vodka shake on the table. My vision was already starting to get blurry at that time, and my voice sounded engrossed. On normal occasions, I would never drink in front of other people, because I didn't admit to being vulnerable in front of anyone. However, the three women around me offered me kind and languid smiles, so I could not refuse to drink and laugh with them. Because I needed a little normality, or I would end up freaking out for good. "Guys, I'll never understand that rotten finger of mine!”Luciana choked as she tried to laugh and drink beer at the same time, spooking a few small drops of the liquid against Alice, who was by her side. Her face turned completely red when she recovered enough to speak again."I think the problem is that you focus too much on one guy, Tas.”I reflected for a moment. Wanting to find my seriousness as Alice gr
So, every day he sent me a good day, I called him a beautiful creature. He said he felt like an alien, but that no one had ever called him in such a way, so I believed he liked it. And he never complained, on the contrary, he kept asking what ways I would like him to call me, so I said that any nickname was fair after I got him used to being called a creature.And because of him, I didn't even remember Cristiano's existence. Because of him, I slept very badly, I woke up with headaches, but with the mood in the heights. I spent the whole day excited, because I knew that any free moment would be dedicated to talking to him until dawn. And I still couldn't concentrate on anyone other than him. Even if at the end of that story my heart was broken, I couldn't have more than one person occupying my heart. So the story was repeating itself. Like Cristiano, Flynn became the center of my world, and there was no way it could end well.I knew I could be honest with my friends. I knew I had nothi
" But I want to make it work, guys! "I stubbornly insisted, whining again. "Not that I'm wanting the guy to be the love of my life, but it's very sad not to have anyone to count on in this life. I mean, having friends is not really like having a love. You've already been married, you know what I mean. "I sighed, looking at the sky. "I just wanted to get home and have someone to talk to about my day. I wanted to tell someone about how I believe that aliens exist and that we are controlled by them. I wanted someone to tell me to watch old movies and give my critical analysis of the history of the movie. I wanted someone like...”I stopped talking. Because I was describing Flynn, imagining a life with him, based on what we lived at the time. I shook my head to ward off my thoughts, but they still stood there, as if exposed in a window. That was crazy. A madness without any size. Because I had already been involved with many men, and none of them woke me up that way. None of them made me
Maybe one day I would be able to write a story about my life. Maybe one day I would put to the world what I didn't tell anyone. I could do this in the form of a story, and then no one could judge or feel sorry for everything I went through. Maybe one day people would know the worst side of the family I had, and understand why I was so dedicated to finding a family that my heart would accept, after everything I had done to get rid of that real family. When that day came, maybe the hole in my chest would disappear. Maybe I didn't need to rely on relationships to suppress fraternal needs.However, as long as I couldn't establish myself virtually as a writer, I couldn't mentally convince myself that I was one. I still considered myself just a person with too fertile an imagination, dreams beyond what is possible to achieve, and not a writer who had many stories to tell. I wanted to make a difference in people's lives. I didn't know how to do this so far. And I didn't want to create a self
At the end of the night, I literally had to be carried home, because I was not in a psychological condition to climb stairs or unlock a door. But somehow my friends managed to get me inside and waited until I locked the door to go to their homes. My apartment was silent, and even staggering I still had enough coordination to pick up my cell phone "to the moment forgotten on the shelf at home to prevent me from sending several messages to Flynn" ignoring several notifications to open my Facebook.My friends had posted sequences of photos of us and several stories. Luckily in all of them I was very presentable and nothing changed by alcohol, and there were many complimentary comments. Among the people who liked the photos was Flynn, and he also commented on an emoticon with heart. Immediately I closed the application and entered WhatsApp, where the last message had been from him wishing me a good fun. Entering the application, my vision was cloudy and patchy trembling, even so, I ended
I remember feeling butterflies in my stomach every second I looked at the clock on my cell phone, at the same moment that a constant sweat began to spread through my hands, revealing how much anxiety and stress accumulated in my body for the fateful and long-awaited encounter with Flynn Ashton.I had done too much that night with all those sprays of the most expensive perfume I had, and the fragrance that usually didn't bother me, that day even caused me a deep headache, after so much walking from one side to the other looking for accessories and paraphernalia that would make me a little more worthy than the usual apathy, causing the smell of the perfume to spreadAt that time my arms tinkled holding a pair of bracelets on each one, and my ring fingers boasted small shiny jewels " that were truly nothing more than costume jewelry. And the hoop earrings on my ears clung from time to time to the strands of my hair.God only knows how I managed to stick myself in a red tube dress that I