Panay tisod ako sa mga batong nagkalat sa daan habang pilit binibilisan ang pagtakbo papunta sa likurang parte ng mansion. Alminaza in front of me is a far way faster than me. Hindi ko na nga siya maabutan sa bilis niyang tumakbo.
"Shi, bilis!" excited niyang tawag sa akin na para bang mawawalan na siya ng araw sa mundo. Bahagya siyang lumingon bago nagpatuloy muli.
Huminga ako nang malalim at tiningnan siya. "Sige lang. Sunod ako." Halos hindi ko na mabigkas ang mga sinasabi ko dahil sa paghingal.
"Ano ka ba? Bilisan mo. Kalimutan mo muna ang pagiging model mo at huwag kang rumampa rito."
"What's with thr bonfire thingy that makes you this excited, anyway?"
Sa wakas ay tumigil siya at hinarap ako. Her eyebrows drew closer from each other, asking me to continue. I shrugged off and chose not to speak.
"May I remind you, Shiyuri Cruz, I've never been in campings before. You know that. I've been telling you for a week already how much I a
Mariin akong napapikit nang maramdaman ang sinag ng araw na tumatama sa aking mukha. Kinapa ko ang isang ekstrang unan sa kama at agad itinakip sa aking mata. Ilang beses muna akong kumurap sa ilalim nito bago tuluyang bumangon.Naulinigan ko ang lagaslas ng tubig na nagmumula sa banyo. Tumayo ako mula sa higaan at nakapaang tinahak ang daan papunta roon. Nakapikit ako habang kinakapa ang hamba ng pintuan nito. Nang nakapasok na ako, walang anu-anong hinawi ko ang manipis na plastik na kurtinang nakatabing sa shower. Nakapikit pa rin akong dumiretso sa bandang lababo. Binuksan ko ang gripo at dahan-dahang binasa ang aking mukha. Unti-unti ay nag-angat ako ng tingin sa salamin.Bumungad sa aking paningin ang guwapong mukha ni Third sa aking likuran. Smile crept on my lips. He's intoxicating like an aphrodisiac in his muscled body, together with the small drops of water dripping down his chest to his v-line.He is perfect in his well-toned naked body. Wait . . . i
"Kung nandito ka lang, wala talaga akong pakialam kung bagsak 'yang buhok mo dahil kakalbuhin kita!" Halos madurog ni Ami ang phone kong hawak niya habang kinakausap si Shiyuri.I just let her talk to Shiyuri after she caught us. At least my sister can explain. It doesn't matter if she gets mad and upset. As long as she will keep it a secret, I have nothing to fear about. Ang kinatatakutan ko ay ang umabot ito kay Third. I don't want him to hate me, and I don't want him to get hurt."Sorry na, Ami baby," may paglalambing sa boses ni Shiyuri. "Ang boyfriend ko naman kasi, gusto sa mga writer na kagaya niya, e. That's the reason why I told him I'm a writer. Pero 'di ko naman in-expect na magkakaroon tayo ng trip 'di sana wala nang panggapang nagaganap. At saka Ami baby, may photo shoot ako for a week. I don't want to decline it! It's a car modelling, you know. I love it!""E 'di sinabi mo sanang may photo shoot ka?""Tapos ano? Iisipin niyang priority ko an
"Coffee, Shiyuri?"Isang tango ang isinagot ko kay Erica, isa sa mga kasama kong staffer sa university nang inalok ako ng kape. Gusto kong makipag-usap sa kanya sa paraang nakagawian ko pero alam kong hindi p'wede. I need to remind myself that I am Shiyuri."With sugar?"Tumango ulit ako. Mula rito ay naririnig ko ang tunog ng tubig sa labas at ang pagbagsak ng katawan dito, hindi malayo sa kinaroroonan namin. There's a swimming pool outside the kitchen. I think it is perfect to swim this morning. I'll do it when everyone is eating their breakfast. Ayaw kong may kasabay, ang sarap mag-float sa malawak na espasyo."Magkamukhang-magkamukha pala talaga kayo ng kapatid mo," ani Erica habang binubuksan ang lalagyan ng asukal. "Akala ko nga, ikaw siya. You are really identical in person. Iba ang itsura mo sa mga magazines at internet pero kapag sa personal na, you look elegantly humble. Your eyes reminds of Sarina."Napangiti ako. Erica loves my eyes eve
Walang pasabing hinablot ko ang cell phone mula kay Third at agad na pinatay ang tawag. Sasabihan ko na lang si Shiyuri kapag wala nang ibang p'wedeng makarinig."Sino 'yon?" walang-buhay na tanong niya, ang mata ay nakatingin sa cell phone na hawak ko.I can't manage to say a lie anymore, so I chose to simply shut up. Tumalikod ako habang inaayos ang tuwalyang siyang tanging tumatakip sa akin. Dali-dali kong pinihit ang seradura ng pinto niya at walang pasabing linisan ang silid. Narinig ko pa siyang tinawag ang pangalan ko pero hindi na ako lumingon.There are times that I can't lie anymore. The words I myself is saying are suffocating me. They are slowly choking me to death. And the fact that I'm deceiving the only man I love are like multitude of punches on my stomach. Nakakapagod ding maging masama.Wala na akong pinalampas na oras. Kinuha ko ang mga gamit kong panligo at pumasok sa banyo. I still need to properly wash my body. I chose one of my twin
Halos lumuwa ang mata ko nang mapagtantong hindi siya imahinasyon lang.Tumakbo siya at agad akong dinambahan ng yakap. "Sisssssyyyyy!" Sa gulat ay napipi na lang ako, hindi na napansin ang halos nananakal na niyang yakap. Humiwalay siya at ngumiti nang pagkalaki-laki. "I miss you, Sissy."I blinked a couple of seconds before I finally absorbed it. "I miss you too. Bakit ka nandito?" Not that I don't want her to be here. It's just that . . . this isn't a part of the plan. I was not expecting her to appear here, in this place, and in this kind of situation.Humagikhik siya. "Tapos na ang photoshoot ko and I miss you all. Ikaw, si Ami, and my boyfriend. Speaking of which, where is he?"Para akong kinapos ng hininga nang bigla niyang binanggit ang kasintahan. "N-nasa mall. Makikipagkita ka sa kanya?" Hindi ko alam pero parang may estrangherong emosyon na dumaan sa dibdib ko. Ayaw ko silang magkita gayong isa lang naman akong ekstra sa k'wento nilang dalawa.
For me, acceptance is harder than letting go. As a matter of fact, it's the aftermath of it.May mga bagay na napakawalan mo na pero hindi mo matanggap na napakawalan mo na. May mga bagay na nagawa mo na pero hindi mo matanggap na nangyari na.And it seems like there's no problem with that after all. It doesn't matter if you can't accept the reality, as long as it already happened, we probably have no choice with that. However, people came to know that you will never feel the real happiness if you don't accept the whole of it—the reality. And as what Aristotle have stated, the purpose of human being is to be happy. We need to learn the art of acceptance then, but it is easier said than done.Gamit ang kaliwa kong kamay ay ibinaba ko ang laylayan ng damit na suot ko. It's already six o'clock in the evening, and we're heading to the entrance of the mansion.Shiyuri and I switched off again. Me and Ami are now walking together, acting innocent an
"Interpretative literature is written to provide understanding and pleasure. It is a fiction that is designed to take the reader deeper into the real world and provoke thought, broadening our awareness of life." A perfect introduction for discussion. "Take down the characteristics."As Sir Tejada ordered, we opened our lecture notebooks, clicked our pens, and readied ourselves in writing."First, the character is complex, multi-dimentional that are not always sympathetic. Second, the plot may focus on internal conflict that is more emotional and psychological. Third, the outcome or ending may be tragic or indeterminate, and fourth, the themes are broader, and may challenge our view of the world or suggest deeper insights; leaves us thinking."We are currently having a lecture in Creative Writing. A week passed after the field trip, I busied myself writing my updates on my on-going story and reading the pending novels on my shelf . I wonder how words flow r
My lips pressed together. Sa lakas ng kaba at pagkataranta ay halos sabay magtaas-baba ang balikat namin ni Shiyuri."The fuck?!" she hysterically cussed. "What will we do? What will we do?!"Pareho naming gindi alam ang gagawin habang tuloy pa rin ang pagkatok ni Third sa pinto."Hey, baby. I saw you. You don't need to change your clothes anymore. You look good in everything you wear, ain't that right? Your simplicity is beauty and I love it."Natigilan ako mula sa pagkataranta. Simplicity? Is he referring to me? Third loves my simplicity? Just my simplicity?"Fuck, Sarina, what now?!" may diin na bulong ni Shiyuri sa akin na mukhang ayaw lumapit sa pintuan."Let's not panic, okay?" Alam kong walang magagawa ng pagni-nerbiyos. Instead of asking hows, I better make a move."Ikaw na bahala rito. We will just hide for the mean time. Inform us once he's gone," utos ko kay Shi. Linapitan ko si Mr. Model at hinila siya sa kamay. "Follow me