Betrayal

Keegan has a lot of explaining to do. How was he just about to make out with me, but still have Jada here to watch a movie?

I said hello to them and then went back into the living room. Keegan didn’t follow me. He didn’t even say my name as I headed off. He clearly was playing me and I was dumb enough to fall for it. Baylen was really pushing for Jada and Keegan to be together and I knew it.

As the foursome walked past me to go into the basement, Keegan looked in my direction. I could feel his stare. I didn’t give him the satisfaction of looking back at him. I covered myself with a blanket and started my movie, 10 Things I Hate About You.

He stopped at the basement door and whispered my name, “Brees.”

I shot him the most distasteful look that I could muster.

“Go enjoy your double date,” I quipped, throwing a handful of popcorn in my mouth

“I didn’t know she was coming, Brees,” he said, putting one arm up on the door.

“But she is here, isn’t she? Just go away, Keegan. I was stupid to think we had a chance after everything that has happened,” I said, snuggling my knees and sinking lower into the couch.

I didn’t even want to look at him. How could I be so stupid. The minute he touched me, I was putty in his hands. Casey would shake me right now. He had almost kissed me and now he was standing here with a date in my house.

“We do Brees. I want you and only you. I swear,” he said.

I could hear his voice crack as if he were holding back tears. He walked over near me and grabbed my hand. I could see the pain in his eyes but also the love he had for me peeking through those baby blues.

“Then stay up here with me and watch our favorite movie together, snuggled in this blanket,” I dared him.

He put his head on my forehead and sighed. He glanced down the stairs and back at me.

“I can’t. Not today. Baylen asked me over to spend time with him. I can’t just leave him hanging. You understand that right?” he asked, pleading with his eyes.

“Then you’ve made your choice,” I said, turning my gaze back to the television.

“No Brees. I haven’t. You just don’t under-…” Keegan started.

“Kee, you coming bro?” Baylen shouted up the stairs.

I looked at him and he looked at me.

“I’m sorry Brees,” he said, as he turned to trot down the stairs.

I could not believe he chose her. My heart wouldn’t believe otherwise. He sat in my kitchen holding and caressing me and still chose her. I felt tears start to well up in my eyes and without hesitation they began to fall. Why was I this gullible? I knew better and I still fell into his entanglement. I promised myself he wouldn’t be allowed to touch me again but when his warm hands hit my waist, I lost all sense of reality. The way his voice got low and he said my name wasn’t fair and he knew it.

I leave for my softball training camp in a week and I swear I wasn’t going to look back. I needed a fresh start. I would be an hour away from him for almost a month. I need a place that was my own. Somewhere that didn’t include Keegan Patts and his games.