Se connecterTwo months had passed. Everyone was coming home for the holidays. We were having Thanksgiving dinner at our house this year. Baylen was home for a week and so was Quinn. They have been dating for two years now and were as cute as ever. Jeff wasn’t coming to this dinner since we weren’t boyfriend and girlfriend. We decided family events were off limits if we were to keep our friendship. It had been a great time making out with him and being friends too. It kept my heart protected.
Casey and Cyman were still not a couple yet and he was still with Harper. She didn’t want to hear anything I had to say about it though, so I kept it to myself, but I had a lot to say when she was ready to hear it. As we chatted over appetizers, the doorbell rang. I went to see who it was. My mom flipped the holiday record she was playing and Keegan and Baylen were engrossed in a conversation about football. To my surprise when I opened the door, it was Isadora! I could not believe Keegan asked her to come to our thanksgiving dinner. “Oh, hello Brees,” she said in her gorgeous Italian accent. She reached forward to hug me and kiss my cheek. She had on a cute teal sweater dress and knee high boots. She smelled like a freaking goddess and her beautiful, dark beach waves were perfect. I gave her a cordial smile as Keegan rushed passed me to greet her. He gave her a quick kiss on the lips and took her by the hand to meet the rest of the guests. I watched them as the pair made their rounds. They were two of the most beautiful people I had ever seen. He really seemed like he liked her and I couldn't really be upset with him for that. “Everyone, dinner is done!” Ms. Kyren yelled from the dining room. We all filed in and sat at our place cards my mom had made. Isadora even had one, so Keegan had told my mom she was coming. I stared at the cursive script spelling out her name in gold. She even has a beautiful name. My gosh, I may date her if things don’t work out for her and Kee. I giggled to myself. Dinner was great. My mom made her famous mashed potatoes with the bits of turkey in them and it was amazing. Everyone was cordial and the food was delicious. Alison told us about the trip her and dad were taking in March to Portugal. Quinn discussed how junior year in college was her most difficult year yet. Baylen complained about how much he hates being a redshirted freshman. I just enjoyed hearing all of the stories and soaked it all in. The doorbell rang, yet again, so I hopped up to greet our next guest. I could still hear laughter and chatting from the other room as I trotted in my black heels to the door. I didn’t expect the person on the other side of that door. I opened the door to see Jagger standing there holding a pumpkin pie. “Jagger? What in the world?” I said, standing shocked in the doorway. After my initial shock wore off, I lunged forward and embraced her. I had missed that face so much. We texted here and there but not too frequently. She was busy training for softball and I was busy having an existential crisis in my love life. “Well I missed you too beautiful?”she said, wrapping one arm around my waist. “I didn’t mean to attack you with my hug, I just truly didn’t think I would ever see you again,” I said, trying to hide my embarrassment. I grabbed her pie and set it on the doorway table. I then closed the door so we could talk privately on the swing. “Well it’s my dad’s turn for the holidays this year, so you will actually see me quite a bit. I’m here for five days but I’m here for 17 days in December!” she shared. “Well that is amazing news. I haven’t heard from you, so I thought you had forgotten about me,” I said, picking at my nails nervously. She grabbed my hands and slid closer to me on the porch swing. “Brees James, I could never forget about you,” she said, touching my knee. I smiled. I hadn’t thought about Jagger as an option since she had rejected me almost five months ago. But having her here made those feelings come back. She made my heart flutter and made my pulse race with her touch.The morning came in brutally. I rolled over begrudgingly and stopped my alarm. My head was hurting and my mind was racing. I had stayed up all night thinking about Keegan. His game was televised last night and I mindlessly watched. Seeing him actually enter the game in the 4th quarter was breathtaking. Keegan was a freshman so he didn’t get a lot of playing time. But on this day he did. I held my breath every time he was near the ball. Recalling the time from Homecoming when he had been knocked on conscious. My heart went back to that time. When he had seen me in my dress. The way his eyes had went over my body and face. Soaking in every inch. The way he gulped when I came closer. That made me smile. No Brees. Stop it. You aren’t his anymore. Today, I was going to the petting zoo with my softball team. They were doing team bonding. There were mazes, games, food and more at the petting zoo. She thought about the fun she would have with Harper and Quinn. She
Meanwhile, at LSU, Keegan sat on the edge of his dorm bed staring at his phone. Brees was still blocked from nothing on his end. She had blocked him. He had tried once. He’d stared at the message he’d typed for nearly twenty minutes before finally deleting it. I miss you. Too simple. I’m sorry. Not enough. I didn’t mean it. A lie. Because he had meant what he’d said in that moment. He had been scared. Scared of their families. Scared of what happened next. Scared of how serious everything had become. But he’d never been scared of Brees. That was the part he couldn’t explain. He could face thousands of people in a stadium. He could handle the pressure of LSU. He could handle everything his future demanded from him. But the thought of admitting how much he loved his best friend’s little sister terrified him. And now he’d lost her. He wanted to drive home and scoop her up in his arms and let her know that his love for her had not changed and that they needed to be
Brees thought blocking Keegan would make it easier.It didn’t.It just made everything quieter.His name no longer appeared on her phone.No late-night texts.No random pictures from his day.No stupid videos he knew would make her laugh when she was trying not to.No You awake? at midnight.Nothing.And somehow, nothing hurt worse than everything.She had stared at his contact for almost ten minutes before finally pressing Block Contact.Her thumb had hovered over the button.Once.Twice.Three times.Then she had done it.Because she couldn’t keep being the girl who waited for Keegan to decide what they were.Especially after what happened in front of their mothers.After her mom found out they’d been sleeping together, Keegan had promised her.“It won’t happen again.”Brees had wanted him to promise they would be safe. Not that it would never happen again.She had wanted that promise to mean he was choosing her.Instead, when their mothers asked what was happening between them, Kee
“Wow, okay. Yeah, we are focusing on our sports and I’m getting more serious about Jagger since she is moving here next semester,” I said. His head whipped around so quickly. He looked confused. After our moms excused themselves, he moved closer to me on the couch. “Brees, what did you mean about you and Jagger?” he asked. “Well you said we weren’t together, so I assumed that meant what you said this morning about being in love with me was complete bull crap. What was that Kee?” I asked. At this point I was holding tears inside so hard that I thought my heart might explode. He grabbed my hand and didn’t let me pull away. “I felt like that was the right thing to say for now. Your mom seemed upset that we have been having sex. I didn’t want to give her anything else to worry about. I’m really sorry I said that. You know I absolutely love you with all my heart Squirt,” he said, bumping my chin. I shook my head. “No Keegan, I don’t know that. You have had a weird way of
I looked at her with my mouth agape. Was she seriously having this conversation with Keegan in the next room? RAP! RAP! A knock on the door saved the day. Keegan poked his head inside and Ms. Kyren was right behind him. “You guys all good in here?” he asked. I nodded and tried to push him out of the room, but my mom made him sit down on the couch instead. “Join us for a moment you two. I was just discussing the protocol of safe sex with Brees,” my mom blurted. How embarrassing. She really didn’t need to do this right here just because Casey slipped up. Keegan fidgeted a bit and looked at his mom for reassurance. You could see how uncomfortable he was. “Oh they are safe Missy. I told Keegan they needed protection every time they were together and he promised me that they would,” Ms. Kyren said. My mom’s face turned a deep shade of red. I don’t think she was ready to hear that I had already been sleeping with Keegan. She turned to me specifically. Her eyes narrowing in on mi
We made our way to my mom’s house. When we arrived I saw Casey’s car in the driveway. I was happy that she came. I had invited her, but she had been missing in action all day. She got out of her car when she saw me and she ran to me. It looked like she had been crying. I reached out and hugged her tightly. “What’s wrong my Casey girl? Did Cyman do something?” I asked. She nodded her head aggressively. Keegan looked at me and smiled and excused himself after giving Casey a warm hug. He went into the house so that we could talk. “So remember during the back to school party you saw Cyman and I… well we were sleeping together up until Thanksgiving Break,” Casey said wiping tears on her jean jacket. “Okay. I knew this information Case. What’s the deal?” I badgered. I will admit, I was a little perplexed that she was even bringing up his name when she knows I can’t stand him after how he treated her. “James… I’m pregnant,” Casey sputtered out. I almost dropped my phone. Did she ju







