Se connecter“Hey Kee! I didn’t even know you were here!” Brees said, hugging my arm.
I don’t even think she has any idea the effect she has on me. The hairs on my arm stood straight up. Her touch was intoxicating. She plopped down on the couch right next to me. When she touched me like this, I wished she were mine. I know she wanted things to go back to how they were before we dated, but it was so hard. I studied her for a moment and took in her beauty with every blink. She had on an oversized sweatshirt that was cut, exposing her toned, glowing, tan shoulder. Her hair was up in a high messy bun with wispy curls that purposefully fell all around her face and neck and she had on some small, black shorts. I couldn’t help but admire her toned legs. She was seriously perfect. It took everything in me not to kiss her. “I thought you would be out with Jeff,” I said, gently hugging her back and ruffling her hair. “Not today. He said that Sterling was home so they are doing stuff with their parents. Where is Bay?” she asked, stealing the remote from my lap and looking around. I nodded towards the door, “Quinn is here.” “Aww, I should go say hello,” she said, starting to get up. I pulled her back down, knowing Baylen was probably doing something she didn’t want to see. I must have pulled her too hard because she fell right into my lap. “Whoa, what was that all about?” she asked, giggling softly. “Bay has missed Quinn. It probably isn’t PG out there,” I said, laughing as well. She slid off of my lap back onto the couch. “You can admit you were trying to cop a feel you perv,” she teased. We laughed some more at our corny jokes. It was nice to feel this comfortable again with one another. She snuggled back into my arm like she used to do when we were just friends, and propped her feet up to watch her show she had turned on. I simply watched her. I watched her laugh and gasp and yell at the screen. I watched the way she threw her head back and rubbed her arms as if she were cold. I watched her curls move back and forth across her tanned shoulder. I missed this. I became so comfortable that I put my arm around her chest and held her. She didn’t seem to mind. So many things went through my head. She leaned into me and continued her one way conversation with the reality stars. When she laughed her curls bounced and brushed against the nape of her neck. I watched her in awe. The low rumble of her giggles and the softness of her expression as she watched the television were so intoxicating. “You are so funny. The way you talk to these people like they can hear you,” I said. She sat up and at first I thought she was upset. She looked at me sternly and then the corners of her mouth turned up and she started hitting me with a pillow. I grabbed at the pillow and tried to shield myself. I started to tickle her sides. Finding each sensitive spot on her body. She kicked at me gently and fell back onto the couch with laughter. As my tickling continued, I couldn’t help but admire her smile and how her hair fell around her face when she moved. Her shirt lifting slightly as she wiggled away from my hands. “Ok, ok, I give up!” she squeaked, trying to push herself away from my tickling. As she did this, she almost fell right off of the couch. I quickly grabbed her around her waist and her back and pulled her back up. As our labored breathing began to slow, we looked at one another. My arms were still around her small frame.The morning came in brutally. I rolled over begrudgingly and stopped my alarm. My head was hurting and my mind was racing. I had stayed up all night thinking about Keegan. His game was televised last night and I mindlessly watched. Seeing him actually enter the game in the 4th quarter was breathtaking. Keegan was a freshman so he didn’t get a lot of playing time. But on this day he did. I held my breath every time he was near the ball. Recalling the time from Homecoming when he had been knocked on conscious. My heart went back to that time. When he had seen me in my dress. The way his eyes had went over my body and face. Soaking in every inch. The way he gulped when I came closer. That made me smile. No Brees. Stop it. You aren’t his anymore. Today, I was going to the petting zoo with my softball team. They were doing team bonding. There were mazes, games, food and more at the petting zoo. She thought about the fun she would have with Harper and Quinn. She
Meanwhile, at LSU, Keegan sat on the edge of his dorm bed staring at his phone. Brees was still blocked from nothing on his end. She had blocked him. He had tried once. He’d stared at the message he’d typed for nearly twenty minutes before finally deleting it. I miss you. Too simple. I’m sorry. Not enough. I didn’t mean it. A lie. Because he had meant what he’d said in that moment. He had been scared. Scared of their families. Scared of what happened next. Scared of how serious everything had become. But he’d never been scared of Brees. That was the part he couldn’t explain. He could face thousands of people in a stadium. He could handle the pressure of LSU. He could handle everything his future demanded from him. But the thought of admitting how much he loved his best friend’s little sister terrified him. And now he’d lost her. He wanted to drive home and scoop her up in his arms and let her know that his love for her had not changed and that they needed to be
Brees thought blocking Keegan would make it easier.It didn’t.It just made everything quieter.His name no longer appeared on her phone.No late-night texts.No random pictures from his day.No stupid videos he knew would make her laugh when she was trying not to.No You awake? at midnight.Nothing.And somehow, nothing hurt worse than everything.She had stared at his contact for almost ten minutes before finally pressing Block Contact.Her thumb had hovered over the button.Once.Twice.Three times.Then she had done it.Because she couldn’t keep being the girl who waited for Keegan to decide what they were.Especially after what happened in front of their mothers.After her mom found out they’d been sleeping together, Keegan had promised her.“It won’t happen again.”Brees had wanted him to promise they would be safe. Not that it would never happen again.She had wanted that promise to mean he was choosing her.Instead, when their mothers asked what was happening between them, Kee
“Wow, okay. Yeah, we are focusing on our sports and I’m getting more serious about Jagger since she is moving here next semester,” I said. His head whipped around so quickly. He looked confused. After our moms excused themselves, he moved closer to me on the couch. “Brees, what did you mean about you and Jagger?” he asked. “Well you said we weren’t together, so I assumed that meant what you said this morning about being in love with me was complete bull crap. What was that Kee?” I asked. At this point I was holding tears inside so hard that I thought my heart might explode. He grabbed my hand and didn’t let me pull away. “I felt like that was the right thing to say for now. Your mom seemed upset that we have been having sex. I didn’t want to give her anything else to worry about. I’m really sorry I said that. You know I absolutely love you with all my heart Squirt,” he said, bumping my chin. I shook my head. “No Keegan, I don’t know that. You have had a weird way of
I looked at her with my mouth agape. Was she seriously having this conversation with Keegan in the next room? RAP! RAP! A knock on the door saved the day. Keegan poked his head inside and Ms. Kyren was right behind him. “You guys all good in here?” he asked. I nodded and tried to push him out of the room, but my mom made him sit down on the couch instead. “Join us for a moment you two. I was just discussing the protocol of safe sex with Brees,” my mom blurted. How embarrassing. She really didn’t need to do this right here just because Casey slipped up. Keegan fidgeted a bit and looked at his mom for reassurance. You could see how uncomfortable he was. “Oh they are safe Missy. I told Keegan they needed protection every time they were together and he promised me that they would,” Ms. Kyren said. My mom’s face turned a deep shade of red. I don’t think she was ready to hear that I had already been sleeping with Keegan. She turned to me specifically. Her eyes narrowing in on mi
We made our way to my mom’s house. When we arrived I saw Casey’s car in the driveway. I was happy that she came. I had invited her, but she had been missing in action all day. She got out of her car when she saw me and she ran to me. It looked like she had been crying. I reached out and hugged her tightly. “What’s wrong my Casey girl? Did Cyman do something?” I asked. She nodded her head aggressively. Keegan looked at me and smiled and excused himself after giving Casey a warm hug. He went into the house so that we could talk. “So remember during the back to school party you saw Cyman and I… well we were sleeping together up until Thanksgiving Break,” Casey said wiping tears on her jean jacket. “Okay. I knew this information Case. What’s the deal?” I badgered. I will admit, I was a little perplexed that she was even bringing up his name when she knows I can’t stand him after how he treated her. “James… I’m pregnant,” Casey sputtered out. I almost dropped my phone. Did she ju







