Chapter 63

Keegan texted Baylen to seek his approval of our relationship. I didn’t really care if Baylen approved. I was 18 years old and could choose who I loved. My heart was broken for how I ended things with Jagger. I know she loves me, but I truly can’t give myself to her in the same way I can with Keegan. He is my person. He is the one I want to call when something good happens. He is the one I want to talk to when I get home from a long day. Even when he was the one breaking my heart, he was who I wanted.

Keegan and I planned to meet at his house to discuss our plan for dinner. Our moms have already been asking us both questions about that kiss. We have played it off as if it were just a New Year’s Eve tradition and nothing more. But my mom said that no one kisses someone the way we did unless there is love behind it. And my goodness was she right.

I pulled up to his house and a warm feeling came over my entire body. Just thinking about him made me giddy. As I walked up the driveway, the door flung open. He was standing there in his shorts and a Nirvana t-shirt.

“Hey babe,” he said, greeting me with a forehead kiss.

“Hey Kee,” I said, moving passed him in the foyer.

I kicked my shoes off and headed into the living room. He quickly grabbed my hand and ushered me upstairs to his room.

He shut the door behind us.

“My mom hasn’t left yet with the girls and I didn’t want her questioning our relationship before we even had a chance to discuss it,” Keegan said, sitting on the edge of his bed.

I nodded my head in agreement. I truly didn’t know what to say to him after everything we had gone through this week. Was I his girlfriend? Were we together? I didn’t even know where to sit in his room.

He must have noticed my discomfort, because he grabbed the back of my thighs and pulled me over towards him.

“Hey Squirt, you okay? I know so much has happened, but you know I love you right?” he asked, with hope in his eyes.

“I want to believe that you do Keegan. Because I love you too. My heart is so broken by all of the things you’ve done to me over the last year. It’s been difficult without you Kee,” I said, hearing my voice crack.

He opened my legs with his knees and pulled me onto his lap. He caressed my neck gently. I let my head fall back and closed my eyes.

“Brees? Can I show you how much I love you?” he asked.

I smiled coyly and nodded. He started to kiss my neck and I instantly gave in. He lifted my dress off and slid his hand down the front of my underwear. I gasped in ecstasy. I wasn’t wearing a bra so my breasts were exposed to him. He licked them gently one at a time. My moans got loud and I tried to muffle them. He slid down my underwear with one quick swoop and I was standing before him fully unclothed.

“This is the most beautiful sight in the world,” he said.

I stepped forward and kissed him. One knee up on the bed. I reached into his shorts and pulled him out. He was already throbbing for me. I climbed on top with of him and lowered myself onto him.

He lifted me off.

“What’s wrong?” I asked.

He went to his nightstand and opened the drawer. He pulled out a condom and put it into himself.

“I promised my mom we would be safe,” he said, joining me back on the bed.

He pulled me back on his member. Before I knew it our bodies were one for the second time. It felt different this time. Better. He took control and didn’t seem nervous. As I straddled him he pulled my hips up and down. He kissed me so passionately. He held me as I slowly moved my hips making him moan.

After we finished, we lay together in his bed. He held me tightly.

“Brees, I can’t believe I get to love you. It’s all I have ever wanted babe,” he said, stroking my curls.

“Me too Kee. I’ve loved you for so long. I want us to be together. Can we do that?” I asked.

He stopped rubbing my hair and pulled my chin towards his mouth. He kissed me deeply and sensually.

“Whatever you want, Brees, that’s what you will get. We will let our families know that we want to be together. I would like for you to be my girlfriend again. Would you?” he asked.

I sank into his arms with my hands over my face. I screamed into my hands a muffled cry.

“Of course I will Keegan Patts. I thought you would never ask,” I squealed.

Just then we heard a knock on the door. I jumped up and pulled my dress back up.

“Keegan, we are headed over to Missy’s house. Are you coming?” Ms. Kyren asked, through the wooden door.

“Yeah ma, I’ll meet you over there in a bit,” Keegan said, pulling on a pair of pants.

“Alright my sweet boy. Are you coming too Brees?” she questioned.

My heart sank. I shot him a look. Oh my gosh. How did she know I was in his room? Probably because I didn’t park down the street like we had planned. I was so excited to see Keegan that I parked right in front of his house. Keegan looked at me with confusion.

“Yes mam!” I shouted nervously.

“Alright, I’ll see you both there soon,” she said, heading down the stairs.

“Oh no Kee! Do you think she heard us?” I asked shyly.

“Hmmm, I heard you in my ear moaning and saying Keegan over and over,” he said, biting his lip and pulling me into an embrace.

“Kee stop, I’m being serious. How embarrassing. Do you think she will tell my mom that we had sex? If my mom knows then Bay will know and he will be pissed,” I said, crashing out on my own made up scenarios.

“Brees, you are an adult. If you want to be with the person you love in that way, then that’s your business and no one else’s. I’m not ashamed of how we have shown our love. I’d like to keep showing you my love if you will let me,” he said.

“Of course. I’m not ashamed either Kee, I just know how protective Bay is and he would flip,” I said.

I didn’t want Keegan to think that any of this was a mistake. I knew what I was doing and the type of commitment I was making. I wanted to eventually marry this man. Have his children. Grow old with him. He was the one.