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Chapter 6
I woke up not feeling well. Mag mula nang mag simula ang morning sickness ko ay palagi na iyon na nangyayari sa akin, kahit pa gabi, tanghali o hapon, walang pinipiling oras. Nagtuloy tuloy na at hindi na huminto pa.
"Are you feeling better now?" he asked while weighing my expression, checking if I was already fine.
Tahimik akong tumango, sumisinghot pa matapos ang halos ilang minutong pagsusuka na wala naman minsang laman. My stomach hurts as well as my throat. I wanted to cry in frustration because this is freaking giving me a hard time!
Umiwas ako ng tingin dahil sa hiya na nararamdaman. I carefully stormed out of the bathroom and walked straight to bed. Yttrium gui
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Paubaya Chapter 7
"I look fat..."Ngumuso ako habang tinitignan ang repleksiyon mula sa malaking salamin. Suot ang isang maluwang na puting kamiseta noon sa akin, ngunit ngayong magta-tatlong buwan na buntis na ay humahapit na iyon sa katawan ko.I glanced at Yttrium's face with full of amusement through his own reflection on the mirror. His gaze slowly lingered first to my embossed tummy up to my sullen face."You're not fat," the side of his lips turned up.I know. I just feel like I looked like one. Hindi ko naman sinasabi na hindi ko gusto iyon. Naninibago lang siguro ako dahil ngayon ko lang nakita ang sariling katawan na magkalaman. Just by a few months, I already gained a lot of weight. Which is nakakapanibago talaga sa akin.Well, actually that's good. It means that I am healthy as well as my baby. Noong una'y halos wala talagang pag babago sa akin, ngunit ngayon ay medyo nakikita na rin iyon.
Paubaya Chapter 8
"What should I write as a caption?" tanong ko habang pumipili ng pictures namin na ia-upload. Nakauwi na kami at nag hahanda na sa pag tulog. We took a lot of pictures awhile ago. I edited it by compiling it into one, nag mistulang collage na photo booth siya dahil sa dami niyon. It looks cute. I am already done taking a half bath. Ngayon ay kakapasok lamang ni Yttrium sa kwarto ko. Galing siya sa kwarto niya para doon maligo. Now, he looks so fresh with his gray sweat pants. Hubad baro at hindi man lang nag abalang mag suot ng pang itaas. "Ikaw bahala..." I made a face when I heard his answer. Walang kwenta. I felt him sitting down beside me. Hindi pa nakuntento at sumiksik pa lalo sa akin. We shared the same comforter as he peeked through my phone. "We looked like a real couple," Yttrium stated while staring at our picture through my phone. Hindi ako nagsalita, sa halip ay nagtipa ako roon ng para sa caption. I typed, "My Fir
Paubaya Chapter 1
My wet palm landed on my mouth, covering my lips as I inwardly gasped in surprise. Each passing seconds that I am staring at the plastic rectangular thing that I am holding on my other hand-my eyes get blurry because of my sudden tears. "Tangina..." Two red straight line were seen on the pregnancy test that I bought earlier. Natataranta akong binitawan iyon at halos mandiri nang ihagis ko sa lababo ng restroom. My hands trembled in fear and shock as I searched for the other pregnancy tests inside the small paper bag. Nanginginig ang labi ko at halos mag sugat na dahil sa mariin na pagkakakagat ko doon. My face contorted as I suppressed my sobs. My heart was thumping and clenching so bad and I couldn't take the pain that's slowly consuming inside me. Libo libong tanong ang walang humpay na pumapasok sa isip ko. Hindi ko maintindihan, wala akong maintindihan. Hindi ko alam kung totoo ba talaga na nangyayari ito o panaginip lang. Fuck! Hindi dapa
Paubaya Chapter 2
I feel so desperate yet guilty for what I've done, the reason why I remained silent the whole time we were waiting for our food to be served.Kinakabahan ako at panay ang paglalaro ko sa mga daliri sa ilalim ng lamesa. The man is currently sitting in front of me. He bought me to a nearest coffee shop around the Club. He ordered an iced coffee for him and hot chocolate for me. Ayaw ko nga sana niyon, dahil hindi naman ako mahilig sa tsokolate at mas hilig ko ang kape o gatas, kaso ayaw ko naman nang mag inarte, kaya hinayaan ko na.I don't know his name yet, because I definitely don't know him. Hindi rin naman ako nag abala na mag tanong, malalaman ko rin naman siguro mamaya.Just like what I've said, he seems so nice. I also noticed that he has many friends and acquaintances around. Nahihiya nga ako dahil ang daming sumusulyap na kuryuso sa
Paubaya Chapter 3
Yttrium brought me to his place. Truth to his words, he really helped me despite of his doubts againts me. He didn't ask nor bombard me a lot of questions, instead, he let me stayed at his place for a week now.I can't help but to think some inappropriate thoughts, like-what if, siya iyong totoong naka buntis sa akin at hindi si Yeshua? Would I be happy? Maybe yes, lalo pa ngayon na natutulungan niya ako.Bahagya akong natigilan sa naisip. Masaya lang ba ako dahil natutulungan niya ako? O masaya ako dahil siya ang totoong ama ng dinadala ko?I sighed. Maybe both. Iyon nga lang, hindi nga siya ang ama nitong baby ko. Kung sana ay siya na lang.Yeshua didn't text nor call me for the past weeks. Hindi na rin ako nag abala pa na i-reach out siya dahil malinaw pa sa tubig na pinamukha niya sa akin na hindi niya kami pananagutan ng anak ko. I don't want to force him even more. Konsensiya na niya iyon. Kung ayaw niya, edi huwag.I can't help but to compar
Paubaya Chapter 4
"You look stupid, what are you smiling at?" My eyelids nictated as I came back to my senses when Yttrium ridiculed tone filled my ears. The movie that we were watching awhile ago has ended now. I irritatingly scowled at him. "Pake mo?" "What are you thinking?" tumaas ang kilay niya, tuluyan nang ibinibigay sa akin ang atensyon. "Jowa ko," I smirked. "Wala ka ngang gano'n..." inosenteng aniya. I loured. "Napaka epal mo, alam mo 'yon?" Yttrium scoffed. "I was just telling the truth, Fiery..." Kala mo siya mayroon, puro hook ups lang din naman. "Ah, so makikipag talo ka sa 'kin?" hamon ko. Sinadya kong palamigin ang boses ko. I even glance down at my tummy, as if letting him know that I am pregnant so that he can stop annoying me. Yttrium boredly rolled his eyes and exhaled. "Fine, panalo na kayo," then he stood up. "What do you want to eat?" Ibinagsak ko ang likod sa malambot na kutson ng s
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"Is this the baby?" Yttrium curiously asked while looking at the ultrasound's pictures. I watched how his eyes filled with delighted while staring at it. Parang may humaplos na kung ano sa puso ko. I suddenly wondered, if Yeshua was the one who's with me right now? Ganito kaya ang ekspresyon na makikita ko galing sa kanya? I sighed and slightly shook my head to erase it on my mind. Hindi ko na iyon dapat na iniisip pa. We just got home after we visited at the OB. He already booked for the third check up and also for the paternity test. Kapag naisagawa na iyon, pitong linggo lang daw o mahigit ang tatagalin sa pag hihintay ng resulta. This is our second time that we visited at the OB. Noong una ay iyong pangatlong araw ko rito. Yttrium was also confused and nervous that time, ngayon naman ay ganoon pa rin. "I can't recognize him..." Yttrium pouted his lips, still dubiously staring at the pictures. Binabaliktad niya pa iyon at iniaangat.
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