33. VANYA

Somehow, along the way, something had gone wrong.

When we got out of the shower, there had been no gentleness left. He had been rough, not that I didn’t like it, but I hated the fact that he preferred taking  me from behind.

I hated not being able to touch him.

Obsidian had fucked me numerous times during the night and even this morning before we left the basement, but I wasn’t even sore. There weren’t any bruises from being tied up, which was strange, considering the fact that I bruised so easily.

I sighed and braced my hand on the wall as my head dropped.

Humans are only good for one thing and one thing only; fucking.

Tears burned my eyes. His words hurt more than it should.

Last night, it felt like we had connected, but clearly, I’d been wrong.

Tilting my face back under the water, I allowed it to wash away my tears. I stood there until it had dried and I had managed to bury some of the pain, and then I got out of the shower and dressed before sliding into bed.

But sleep didn’t come even though I was exhausted. So I got out of bed and walked over to the window and stared into the darkness. It wasn’t long before Ezra entered the room.

He walked right over to me, and without a word, wrapped his arms around my waist from behind. We stood like that, with his face pressed to my neck, for a few minutes until he broke the silence.

“Are you okay?”

I nodded because there was nothing else to do.

“Do you want some ice cream? I read that humans like to eat that when they’re sad.”

An unexpected laugh fell from my lips. “No, I don’t want some ice cream, but I wouldn’t say no to some chocolate.”

Ezra groaned. “We don’t have chocolate.”

“It’s okay.”

He sighed and pressed a kiss to my shoulder before stepping away and walking over to the bed.

My eyes were drawn to the waterfall once again. I wanted to go there, alone, so I could clear my head. I needed to think.

“Vanya?”

“Do you ever wonder why?” I asked him softly.

“Why what?”

I looked at him. “Why he acts the way he does? Why he always pushes everyone away? Why he hates humans so much?”

“Sugarplum,” he sighed.

“For a time last night, he was so different.” I croaked. “He treated me like I was his equal.”

Ezra held out his hands. “Come here.”

I bit my lips as I walked over to him and slipped my hands into his. Ezra pulled me closer to stand between his legs and gave my hands a squeeze before letting go and gripping the back of my thighs.

“There are a lot of rumours within the pride about Obsidian, but Devrim does his best to silence them.” He paused. “All I know about him is what I had learned… by knowing him. We won’t know more unless we ask him ourselves.”

I needed to talk to Devrim. Maybe he could tell me more about Obsidian. They seemed closer than Ezra and Obsidian.

“Show me.”

I frowned down at Ezra, confused. “What?”

“Show me how to pleasure you. Show me what I need to do to make you forget about what he said.”

I blinked at him, surprised by the sudden change in topic.  

“You want to have sex?” I asked, just to be sure that it was what he meant.

He nodded, but then his face fell. “It’s okay,” he muttered. “Forget I said anything. I’ll let you get some rest.”

“Ezra.” I grabbed his arm when he moved. “Wait.”

“You’re tired, Vanya. I understand that you’ve had a long night.”

Stepping around him, I searched his eyes.

“Ezra,” I slipped my hands up his chest to the back of his neck, and tugged. “I didn’t mean it like that. I… are you sure?”

His brows dipped into a frown. “I’ve never been so sure about anything in my life before.” He smiled and reached out to grip my hips. “I want nothing more than for you to be the first woman I enter.”

I pulled a face at him. “Please, don’t ever say that again.”

He chuckled and then swooped down to steal a kiss.

“I won’t,” he promised against my lips.

“Good.” I pecked his lips and pulled away before he could deepen the kiss. “Get naked.”

His lips curled up into a wide smile as he took a few steps back and reached back to grip his shirt. I sighed when he pulled his shirt off in that sexy way only men on the TV managed to do.

My eyes dropped when he hooked his fingers into the band of his gym shorts, but he didn’t push it down like I was expecting him to.

“You know, it’s not fair that I’m the only one getting naked.”

I laughed. “Fine. Get on the bed.”

Ezra hesitated and then moved. My laughter increased when he practically jumped onto the bed. He rolled to his back and sat up to scoot backwards so he could rest against the pillows.

He smirked and raised an eyebrow. What now? His eyes questioned. He looked as hot as hell in the position he was in. I took the time to study every inch of his tanned skin before I moved.

I wanted to make him remember his first time. I wanted to give him the best experience I could.

“What are you doing?” he questioned huskily.

“Undressing.” Gripping the hem of my shirt, I slowly pulled it over my head and dropped it to the floor. I bit my lip and watched him from beneath my lashes as I hooked my fingers into the band of my sleep shorts and slowly pushed them down my legs. I didn’t bother with any panties and Ezra didn’t seem to mind it either.

His eyes slowly trailed over my body, taking in every inch of skin I had exposed.

“Vanya,” he growled. “I need you.”

Swallowing, I moved forward and placed my hands on the bed. His eyes narrowed and dropped to my chest as I slowly crawled towards him.

I loved the way he was watching me.  

Kneeling between his spread thighs, I leaned closer.

Ezra groaned when I pressed my chest against his, his eyes fluttered close and his head dropped back as I pressed my lips against his neck. I placed open-mouthed kisses up his neck and along his jaw until my lips reached his.

I lost myself in the kiss, the teasing forgotten as Ezra pulled me closer. He tugged on my hair, tilting my head back so his lips could move down my throat.

I moaned and sat up to straddle him. His hands slid up and down my back, from shoulder blades down to the small of my back and then up again. His lips trailed lower to my chest. I jerked when he nipped my skin with his sharp teeth.  

My back arched, and a moan fell from my lips when his lips closed around my nipple.

Unlike Obsidian, Ezra was gentle. It felt like he was almost afraid to touch me.

I tugged on his hair until he raised his head to look up at me, then I dived to capture his lips again. I brushed my lips along his jaw and to his ear. Sucking his earlobe into my mouth, I nipped the skin before I moved my lips down to his neck. I could feel the erratic beat of his pulse beneath my lips.

His chest vibrated against mine as he rumbled when I bit down and sucked hard to create a love bite. Ezra’s body jerked against mine and a strange sound fell from his lips. If it wasn’t for the feeling of his dick jerking against my pussy, I might’ve thought that I had hurt him.

“Vanya,” he groaned.

I ignored him and continued the trail I had planned. He was forced to let me go when I scooted backwards, but it seemed like Ezra had reached the end of his patience.

The air locked in my throat when he flipped us around. I blinked up at him in shock.  

Ezra reached between us and pushed his shorts down before lowering his body against mine.

My mouth dropped open when I felt the tip of his dick at my entrance. He braced himself on his arms on either side of me and then lowered his head until his forehead brushed mine.

“If I let you continue doing that, I’m going to come in my pants,” he whispered. “I want to be inside you when that happens.”

He gripped my thigh and guided my leg over his hip as he slowly entered me. “Fuck,” he hissed. “You feel so good.”