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Wanting More Than Safe

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(Her POV)

There’s a difference between peace and complacency.

I didn’t understand that until peace settled into my life so gently that I almost mistook it for the absence of desire.

Almost.

It happened on an ordinary afternoon the kind you don’t expect revelations from. I was in the dance studio, sunlight spilling across the polished floor, the mirrors catching me from every angle. My body moved on instinct, muscle remembering what my mind sometimes forgot: how to want without apology.

Music filled the room, something slow and aching, and I let it pull me apart and put me back together again.

When the song ended, I was breathless not from exertion, but from clarity.

I wanted more.

Not more chaos.

Not more uncertainty.

But more feeling.

I sat on the floor, back against the mirror, heart still racing. My phone buzzed beside me.

Noah: Thinking about you.

I smiled, then hesitated.

I typed, deleted, retyped.

Me: Do you ever worry that comfort can become a cage?

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