JENNA
I WAS not surprised to find out I enjoyed Topher’s company. Nakita ko agad na pareho kaming mahiyain, asiwa sa simula at maingat, pero walang komplikasyon sa katawan kapag kaharap ang isang kasundo.
At magkasundo kami, and so obviously. Matapos ang unang mga sandali nang pagkaasiwa at pakiramdaman ay biglang ang daldal na lang namin. Knowledgeable kami sa parehong mga subjects at tumatawa kami sa parehong mga jokes. Nakukuha namin agad ang sinasabi nang isa’t isa, iyong klase na pwede kong simulan ang sentence at tatapusin niya. It was amazing. I wished we’d become friends much sooner. I really did. Sinabi ko pa iyon sa kanya. He was as wistful.Tinulungan ko siyang mag-ready ng hapag-kainan pagkatapos kong mag-shower at isuot uli ang damit kong fresh from the washer. Nag-init pa nga ang mga pisngi ko nang maisip kong bagong bago ang suot kong sexy underwear, lacy and sheer and black. Unless he was undressing me with his head turned away, imposibleng hindi niya nakita ang nipples ko at ang bakas ng pussy hair ko sa see-through material! I had meant to make love with Keith today. I didn’t want to remember that, but I didn’t have control over my head here.At hindi ko rin maiwasang bumalik ang galit dahil sa ginawa niya. Kaya noong nagkukwentuhan kami ni Topher, binigay ko sa kanya lahat ng atensyon ko. I wanted to get distracted and he was the perfect person to get me through it kasi unassuming siya, intelligent, gentleman, at masarap kausap.Malayo si Topher kay Keith na may certain authority sa pagtrato sa akin. Machismo, iyong ‘ako ang lalaki so I lord over you’ si Keith. Lalo na kapag tungkol sa batas ang pinag-uusapan, akala mo naman nababasa iyon sa Latin at hindi ko maiintindihan. I didn’t know how much I hated his condescending ways until that moment. Kapag naiisip ko kung paano ako nagpasensya para hindi siya mapahiya, naiirita ako sa sarili ko. Ang gentleman ni Topher, and I feel… important. Like he cherished my company, ganoon. And thank God, he rescued me today. I was grateful he wa the one who did it. I was happy I got to know him better. Dahil sa kanya, gumaan ang pakiramdam ko at natuklasan kong hindi ko naman pala dapat masyadong pansinin ang sakit na dinala ng panloloko ni Keith.Sa halip na ma-stuck ako sa sakit, nakabawi ako agad at nakalipat sa galit. This wasn’t my first time. Mas malala pa iyong mga nauna dahil nabigay ko ang katawan ko. Mabuti na lang talaga hindi nangyari iyon ngyon.May araw din si Keith. One day, matutuklasan ng manlolokong iyon na no one lords over this girl.Unless I let it happen.DUMIGHAY AKO. Mahina lang pero dighay pa rin.
Pagkatapos ay pinamilugan ko ng mga mata si Topher, na natatawa. “Akala ko hindi ako makakakain nang maayos kasi kanina, masama talaga ang pakiramdam ko. Mabigat ang ulo ko. Pero masarap pala talaga magluto si Mommy, huh?” Nakiki-Mommy na rin ako. “She was a chef before she retired early para maging full-time mom sa mga sisters ko,” sabi niya. “Saka you had two strong, black coffee after you came out, and an Ibuprofen. You should be good.”Nginitian ko siya nang matamis. “Sanay ako sa matapang na kape dahil madalas na kapag inatake ako ng ideas para sa mga concepts ko, gumagawa ako ng draft at hindi ako tumitigil until it’s done, kahit magdamagan.”Tumango-tango siya. “I got that. I do the same thing.”Tinulungan ko siya sa paghuhugas ng mga pinag-kainan namin. Nagtatalo pa kami at nag-aasaran dahil ayaw niya akong maghugas ng plato, being bisita. I couldn’t help thinking what a surprise it was that I was finishing the day being playful with another man. Not that Topher was like another man. Pero – you know what I mean.Though come to think of it… hindi kami magkamag-anak, hindi rin magkaibigang matalik, but I had a feeling we’d started to become good friends. And he really was gwapo.Sinusulyapan ko si Topher sa gilid ng aking mga mata. He was tall, wide shoulders, strong chest, flat stomach, and clearly defined facial features that turned adorably soft everytime he smiled – which was quite often. His smile was sexy and contagious, and I had noticed that before. Kaya ko nga siya crush noon. Tonight, he made me feel good by openly laughing to my stupid jokes. Nakakataba ng puso.Feeling espesyal ako. I knew, it wasn’t proper but…Just for tonight, universe. Kasi ako lang naman ang kasama niya rito. So for tonight, let me be carefree. Nami-miss ko nang ganito ako. Hindi ako ganito sa kahit isa sa mga naging Ex ko.But it really wasn’t healthy to entertain thoughts about another man right after my painful disappointment of another one, naisip ko. Okay lang ba talaga iyon kay Topher? Biglang namatay ang ngiti ko. Naalala ko na naman kasi si Keith at ang iba pang mga lalaking muntik na akong maloko nang tuluyan through the years.“You’re pretty and so easy to like… but, yes. A hefty bank account helps, too. C’mon, it’s not like you didn’t expect this. Ganito talaga, if you love you also have to use your head, hindi lang heart.”“Jenna?” untag ng tinig ni Topher.Napatingin ako sa kanya at nakita ang pag-aalala sa kanyang mga mata. Natulala kasi ako, at alam ko kung anong nakikita niya sa mukha ko.Ngumiti ako agad sa kanya. “I’m okay.”Marahan siyang umiling. “No. But you will be.”“I will be,” ulit ko, tumatango na agad hindi pa siya tapos magsalita, nilalabanan ang mabigat na pakiramdam na dinala ng alaalang iyon.Pero malakas ang kapit ng mga alaala kasi na-trigger nang ginawa ni Keith today. Nadamay sa nararamdaman kong galit. “Did you not ever really wonder? You don’t even want sex. You’re so frigid. Of course, it’s your money. What else…?” Nagsimula akong mangatal.“Halika. Gusto mong makita ang mga paintings ko?”Ilang sandali ko siyang natitigan. I heard na isa si Topher sa mga artists na hindi basta nagpapakita ng unfinished work. That he was strict about this, kahit nga age na ng collaboration ngayon. Ang mga wokes, every minute detail mula sa conception hanggang sa pinakahuling revision ay naka-post pa nga sa mga socmed accounts nila for all the world to see. This artist wasn’t like that.But he’s doing it for me para ma-distract ako sa sama ng loob ko.“Topher…?”“Hmm?”“Is it okay if I talk?”Ni hindi siya nalito dahil kanina pa ako nagto-talk. He understood right away what I wanted to talk about. “Yes. You can trust me, Jenna.”I wanted to kiss him. I was so grateful.Instead, I just found myself telling him about what happened to me that day.TOPHERNAKATITIG SI JENNA sa akin, and I couldn’t look away fast enough.“You mean you knew Keith. Like, you knew about him na ni hindi ka man lang na-shock o kahit nagulat when I told you what happened?”Napapikit ako, saka nagmulat at tumingin sa kanya. “I knew Keith before the company. Barkada siya ng mga pinsan kong pumasok sa same school where he’d went, sa Ateneo. He’s arrogant and a social climber. Kilala rin siyang player. But… it’s been a while. He’s successful now so hindi ako sigurado kung gano’n pa rin siya. I am sorry, Jenna. I wasn’t close to you. Lalabas na sinisiraan ko lang siya kung may sinabi ako.”Nagbuntunghininga siya pero mukha namang hindi nagalit. “That’s okay. Mabuti na lang nalaman ko agad bago pa lumala. Kung gano’n, kanina pa lang alam mo na pala ang nangyari sa akin?”“More or less,” sabi ko. “But just think how lucky you are that you’re not going to marry the bastard.”Pinipilit niyang ngumiti, iyon ang nakikita ko bago ko sinabi ang sinabi ko. Awang awa
JENNAMIDNIGHT.“It’s Christmas Eve!” sambit ni Topher nang marinig namin kapwa ang tunog ng grandfather clock habang sine-set up niya ang pose ko sa tabi ng armchair na hinila niya sa work room. At yes, may grandfather clock si Topher sa library ng bahay niya. And I really liked that clock. In fact, I like how he designed his place. Masculine, traditional, and yet may mga shades ng black and chrome na masculine na masculine. Kasing authentic nang pagkakakilala ko sa kanya.I was back in the room where I woke up so I could get naked of the clothes I borrowed from him that night. Saka ko sinuot ang panlalaking robe na sabi niya ay itakip ko muna sa katawan ko at props sa pose ko. And now, it’s Christmas. Napabuntunghininga ako nang malalim. “Akala ko talaga darating ang Christmas Eve na wala akong pakialam sa season, or probably passed out. Mali ako. But I like the change. I like this.”Ngumiti siya. “Merry Christmas, Jenna,” sabi ni Topher habang bahagyang lumalayo. “Sorry, wala
JENNABUMAGSAK din ang panga niya, gaya kanina.Then his eyes darkened with the unchecked arousal. At napalunok ako. Kasi kung kanina, kung hindi ko man sinadyang nakita ang pagpitik ng pagnanasa sa mukha niya, ngayon ay ni hindi niya na iyon makontrol.“It’s been a long time?” tanong ko.Pipi siyang tumango.Ngumiti ako. “I haven’t seen any man look at me like that and it makes me really feel okay about my body now. Thank you.”Nag-angat sa mukha ko ang mga mata niya. “Jenna, I…” Lumunok siya. Pinanood ko ang pag-angat at pagbaba ng kanyang Adam’s apple. The hungry way he looked at me… I hungered for that, too.“You already know I wore my sexy underwear this morning for a reason?”Muli siyang tumango, saka napapikit nang mariin. At nabisto kong hindi siya naging ganoon entirely ka-successful sa pag-iiwas ng mga mata kaninang hinubaran niya ako nang marumi kong mga damit. Totoong meron siyang naramdaman.Yay!“Yes.” “I still want to do it, kahit it’s not the same man.”Napamulat
TOPHERAGAIN, she responded to the kiss so eagerly, and I groaned between our lips. Anything she did turned me on in a big way. Had I known we’d be in bed together when I was undressing her this afternoon? I had wanted her since then. I missed taking care of someone. I missed loving someone. I missed being in love, and making love with a woman like Jenna who, by her simple smile, could make my heart blossom like a plant long denied of water.And all these—my longing and hunger, I poured out to her. I kissed her deeply, and she gave back to me as hungrily, her tongue sensually playing with my tongue, her body rubbing against mine. I lifted myself from her and she knew. She opened her thighs and I placed myself between them. Ahh, her flesh felt warm to me. I couldn’t wait to take her. I rubbed my meat against her silken flesh and we both moaned. I growled against her skin. Ang sarap niya sa pakiramdam, hindi ko napigil ang aking sarili. I couldn’t stop kissing her but her breasts,
JENNAI WASN’T REALLY SURE how it was to go. I knew my first experience with a guy was sorely lacking – I didn’t cum then. I had to fake it so it would stop and anything else after that just didn’t matter. I was never excited enough. Lalo pang lumala noong mabisto ko ang panloloko.Kahit kay Keith, I couldn’t relax. I couldn’t forget.When Topher carried me to his bed, I was scared to disappoint him. But he kept kissing me and I was so excited like I had never been before, and I certainly knew he wasn’t a conman. Kasi hindi kami.We were basically both just reacting to the sexual tension we definitely feel since this started. When he got rid of his clothes, I couldn’t help but wonder about how good he looked, and how hot he moved. He was so confident and so warm, so sexy, that I could only feel what he was doing to me. The way he checked on me, connected as he kissed me, touched me, and when he went down there I was fascinated with how watchful he was of my every reaction. It was
JENNA I BECAME aware of Topher again after a long moment. He was still thrusting, but slower.“Topher…?” “Sshhh... give me a second to calm down a bit.”“Did you cum?” I asked, feeling ashamed for even not knowing. He still felt hard. Hindi man lang lumambot o lumiit.Umiling siya, pero nakangiti. “Ayokong matapos ito agad,” sabi niya. Saka siya umurong at lumabas.At nakangisi pa rin… bumaba siya roon.And he licked me, happily. It would have looked weird if it didn’t feel so good, and if watching him doing so while he watched me watch him wasn’t such a turn on. The act was so intimate, sandali akong napaisip kung hindi ba sa matagal nang lovers nangyayari ito, nararamdaman ito.Pero ni hindi ko ma-imagine itanong ito sa kanya. I didn’t want him to think that I needed more than this. I didn’t even want to think about this now. Gusto ko lang ma-excite lalo noong nakikita kong gumagapang na siya pabalik.“I’ll make you cum again,” pangako niya.Nakakahiya iyong parang iyak ng antisip
JENNAHE MOVED and I became aware. Not fully awake or right away, pero namalayan ko siya agad. Naging conscious ako agad sa posisyon namin sa pagtulog.It hadn’t changed since I fell asleep. His arms were still around me, my head was laying on one of his upper arm, his other arm was around my waist, and his other thigh was over one of mine, which was securely wedged between his. I was sleeping deeply and it wasn’t even my bed, nasurpresa akong naisip. Pero ni hindi ko nga ito prinoblema kanina bago kami matulog. There were times when I wasn’t comfortable in other beds. Actually, the only other bed that didn’t disturb me from sleeping were houses or any other places where my mother happened to be staying wherever in the world she happened to be at whenever I visited her. Bukod doon, namamahay ako. Kahit sa guestroom sa bahay ng Uncle Markus, hindi ako nakakatulog nang maayos.But I felt so comfortable here. And I was warm in his arms, covered by his naked body. I slept without a c
JENNANOONG BUMAGSAK ako at natunaw sa kanya, pumihit siya sa pagkakahiga hanggang sa nakatihaya na ako sa kanyang tabi, ang mga labi ko ay kulong sa mga labi niya, ang katawan niya ay nakakurba sa akin.Saka siya bumangon at sa sumunod na sandali ay nahila na niya ako, nakaangat na ang mga tuhod ko sa ere, at bumababa ang kanyang ulo sa pagitan ng aking mga hita.Napahingal ako. “Topher!” I thought that was going to be the first time. Nakukuha ko nang gusto niyang gawin iyon, lick me after I cum. And he was tender as he laved my clit with his tongue, sensitive as I was. The first time we made love, the first time he touched me there, he knew how much should be enough. He knew how to touch a woman. Hindi lalayo na alam din niya kung paano gamitin ang kanyang dila. Sa lahat ng bagay, naiiba siya talaga.Napaungol na lang akong parang kuntentong pusa habang patuloy siya sa paglaro at pagdila sa akin, slow movements that calmed me down. Pagkatapos niyon, pumuwesto siya at naramdaman k