Say That You Love Me

For how long could you settle into a relationship that has been choking you? Like a shackle, it has been holding you, preventing you to leave, making you stay no matter how toxic it has been. But I guess, there’s no way out of a prison that you voluntarily went in. There's no way out of the person you love no matter how toxic it is.It’s because I loved him. I loved him from the bottom of my heart kaya kahit gaano na kasakit, hindi ko siya kayang bitawan. Hindi ko alam kung paano. At hindi ko kayang gawin.Back then, I could still remember his courage, his kindness, and his humor that made me fall in love. I could still remember the moments we shared. It was the fastest, yet the strongest I fell in love with.But as times went on, he changed. He became possessive. He hid me from the world when he knew I craved freedom. It’s like he pulled me out of the dungeon of my father, yet, he pushed me back into the abyss way deeper. He put me in a cage much worse than where I’ve been. And it h

“I told you, Markus! I'm not damn drunk! It's just a few shots of tequila!” sigaw ko sa kanya nang pinipigilan niya akong umalis sa bar nang mag-isa. “I know!” he exclaimed before he threw me inside his car. “And I trust Chancellor kaya hindi kita pipigilan. Pero ihahatid kita ro'n, hmm?”He pushed my forehead using his index finger before he closed the door. Wala na akong sinabi at nag-seatbelt na lang.Damn it. I badly want to see Chancellor right now. Iniisip ko pa lang na magpapakasal ako sa iba, mababaliw na ako. On top of that, I… I am sure that I will never get to see him again kung magkataon.And I couldn't swallow the bitter truth.Ever since Dad knew about my relationship with Reese, and the other issues we were involved in, he did his best to refrain me from dating other men. Kung kaya nang makilala ko si Chancellor… I became so afraid to fall in love with him even though I clearly know that we're on the same page.True to his words, nang tumigil ang sasakyan, parang mas

I moaned softly when his kiss went deeper. I couldn’t have a damn time to process anything dahil sa patuloy niyang paghalik sa akin. Chester cupped my cheeks and pulled me closer to deepen the kiss. At kung hindi pa kami parahong hinihingal, hindi niya pa ako lulubayan.Fuck… w-what was that?When I opened my eyes, I met his pitch-black pair of eyes. I can see how the lights reflected on it, and it looked stunning. But unlike others, his eyes were blank. Almost like it does not hold any emotion at all. And it bothered me seeing that way.“Still looking for Chancellor?” he asked in a seductive tone as he smirked. He then licked his lips, which made me roll my eyes.“Umalis ka nga riyan,” I said and pushed him back to his damn personal space. “Halik ka nang halik, hindi naman tayo close,” I whispered as he laughed and continued driving. This bastard.“Where should I drop you off?” he asked.Honestly, I don’t know. Right now, I have nowhere to go. And I’m definitely not going home. Ayaw

“How can I know? Hindi ka naman nagkukwento.”“You don’t have to know. All you have to do is stare at me… and remember that I am Chancellor. Alright? I am the only Chancellor, Paris. I am Chancellor.”When I opened my eyes, I immediately gasped for air. Para akong tumakbo nang napakahaba dahil sa matinding tibok ng puso ko. What the fuck happened? Where the hell am I?!“Paris… Paris, are you okay?” Chester went inside the room and immediately attended to me.He pat my back as he called someone to attend to me pero hindi ko iyon kailangan ngayon. All I need is a damn space and time to think.Anong nangyari? Why was that so hard to swallow? At bakit may parang nagpapaulit ulit na panaginip sa akin. I couldn’t really picture it. All I can recall is that I had this conversation with someone. Was it Chancellor?Maybe. Paulit ulit niyang sinasabing siya si Chancellor. But I… I couldn’t recall why. I couldn’t recall when I had this conversation with him.After the nurse checked me, pumasok

Para akong masasamid sa sariling laway dahil sa sinabi niya. While I was too damn tensed, he looked so fucking calm, amused of my reaction!How can he like me? I mean…“I’m in love with your brother…” I reminded him, yet he only laughed at me.“No you’re not,” he said with confidence. “I can prove it.” My brows furrowed at his sudden movement. He put down the sandwich and leaned toward me in a swift move. Almost telling me that he’s ready to kiss in a public place!“Anong g-ginagawa mo?” Nauutal-utal pang sabi ko at bahagya siyang tinulak pero hindi naman nagpatinag ang loko.“Nakatingin ang kabit mo,” he said in a husky tone while he was too close to me. I know he’s pertaining to Chancellor, yet I don’t know what to do. The way he looked at me put me in such a dilemma. In a dilemma that I… think I actually know how to respond.When I locked my eyes on him, it didn’t make me want to look at where he was gesturing. Instead, my eyes dropped to his lips. It was red and plump, it was ver