Alicia’s Pov
I stared at myself in the mirror, for the hundredth time probably to make sure I didn’t look like a wimp before walking down the stairs and settling on the dining table. I’m nervous, feeling this way was inevitable and I don’t know what I’m supposed to do or how I’m supposed to act. I said I wasn’t going to continue whatever was going on with Jason, then I said why not enjoy it but now I feel sick to my stomach. It’s wrong, it’s all wrong, everything about it is wrong but why don’t I hate it? Why am I not disgusted? Shouldn't I not be able to stand the sight of him? Shouldn’t I feel repulsed when our eyes meet? Shouldn’t I cuss him out for being okay with the constant flirting and the fucking sexy texts he shoots me in between breakfast?
I try not to respond but my fingers are constantly begging me to do something and I end up picking up my phone and my lips twitch upwards when I read his messages. He’s sitting right in front of me while my mum moves around in the kitchen. She’s back early. Her night shifts always left her exhausted but here she was rambling about her co-worker, again.
“Alicia, be a darling and look out for Jason. I know he’s been in your school for a while anyway but you know boys, they need motherly love all the time and if they don’t get it from their mothers since they’re a long miles away, they seek it in their girlfriends.”
I almost snorted.
“Jason honey, do you have a girlfriend?”
My face whipped towards him and our eyes met. Does he have a girlfriend? There was a sort of hesitation in his eyes, I could feel it. He didn’t have a girlfriend right? He shouldn’t? Why the fuck would he have one? And who am I to have a say in that when I have a boyfriend who isn’t even fucking me but I’m still exchanging naughty texts with my cousin.
“No, no I don’t. I’m not really looking for a relationship right now.” Jason said and I smiled inside. That’s good, he should only focus on me.
What the fuck? I sound so desperate and pathetic sometimes. I was lost in my thoughts that I didn’t hear him ask me if he wanted us to take his car to school instead of going separately. I don’t think that’s a good idea but at the same time, I want it.
I want him.
Before I could answer, my mum was already chiming in as usual. “Yeah, go together so Alicia can save some gas, she’s always spending so much money on that second hand car of hers.”
This woman. “Mum, you don’t have to embarrass me sometimes. Some things are better left unsaid and I’m an adult.”
“An adult and a virgin at that.”
Jesus Christ. It’s like my whole body froze and I felt weak and limp like my body would break into tiny pieces if I fell on the floor now. Jason doesn’t know this! This was a huge piece of information that I kept away from him and now he knows. My mum doesn’t just know how to shut up. I can’t look at him, I know he’s looking at me, I can feel his stare, his intense gaze and why I’d love to be looked at like that, it should be over something else and not the fact that he just found out that I’m a virgin.
I need to get out of here and fast. “I’ll take my own car, bye.” I didn’t wait for a response from either of them but I knew my mum was chuckling. I seriously don’t like that woman sometimes but I do love her to bits but she can be so annoying. No wonder her husband probably loves her more, they suit each other. My dad is even worse.
I unlocked my car and got in immediately. The worst case scenario is Jason rushing out of that door to try and talk about it because I’m already so embarrassed I could eat a rock if it could save me from how embarrassed I am. And he’s so sexy-God, who looks that good in the morning?.
To think he’s just in a plain black shirt and simple jeans but damn—those thighs can crush me and I would’ve even mind. And his hands, do I have a hand fetish? Is that a thing? At least it’s not a foot fetish and this isn’t me going after people who do, y’all do you but be honest, it’s a little weird to get turned on over someone else’s feet. Christ.
And those green eyes, I don’t know—I just, he’s like a siren calling me towards him but not with a song, not with a beautiful voice because I’d laugh my ass off if he randomly starts singing and it sounds bad but he’s calling me with his body, his pretty eyes, his gorgeous gorgeous skin and face, and that jaw? Slice me open sir, those damn biceps, I wanna touch him so bad, and his personality—ignore that, I don’t really care about his personality but maybe I care about the part where you remove all the words attached to ‘P’ and add four more words.
I’m such an idiot and I’m giggling even though I’m embarrassed but that was a good one. I don’t even wanna go to school and then end up seeing the most boring person on earth, my boyfriend. Don’t get me wrong, oh well, you can get me wrong but Michael is so boring that I actually feel bad for both him and myself. And he’s popular? Or is he just bored with me? Do I make him act boring? How does a 6 foot guy not know how to turn his girlfriend on? He has a huge sex appeal but what does he even use it for? He’s gorgeous but Jason beats him. And why am I comparing them? What is wrong with me?
But it’s true, Jason is probably 6 '1 or so, I’m not sure, I can’t tell but he’s tall, the kind of tall that I have in my fantasies and he’s so much hotter than Michael. Micheal acts like a gentleman but I swear, I know he’s not. It’s like he’s pretending to be one until his true side shows which is in bed. But Jason? Heavens forbid that I don’t have those beautiful hands roaming all over my body. He’s oozing more than sex appeal, he has so much confidence and his smiles and laughs are to die for. He makes me grin over a ‘Hey, are you okay?’. Because he cares and he’s been at my house for two days, just two days and in those hours, I’ve constantly wanted to say ‘fuck it’ and go to his room but even though I act like a major whore over texts with him, I’m inexperienced, some might tag me innocent even if they see me but I know I’m far from that. I’m not innocent, just inexperienced and I know Jason can tiptoe around my inexperience.
He’s shown me so much over a couple of texts this summer, he’s told me so much, he’s turned me on every single day we exchanged texts. I don’t know what to do with myself and I do know I want him to ‘do’ me. I just—I don’t know how to explain it but I think it’s unhealthy how much I’m ignoring the fact that we’re family just to feel his body on mine, pressing me into a hard surface and doing those things he said he would do to me. Like when he said on the 19th of august—yes I remember the date, that’s how bad it is. He said he’d press me into whatever hard surface he sees and kiss me so much that my legs would feel like jelly afterwards and I’m never been sane since then.
I imagined it all the time, getting pressed into a door, on the kitchen counter, lifted atop of it, getting roughly handled and bent over a table, our dining table to be precise, getting bent over the trunk of his car. I even gave myself a smut break and wrote about it. Whenever I read it, I feel so good, I feel mushy like I’m gonna melt. I always wondered what his lips would feel like, taste like, I wanna know so bad it makes me want to cry. Does he bite? Nibble? Does he moan into kisses? Does he say things while kissing someone? Does he gasp into kisses? Does he grab the waist of whoever he’s kissing? Does he try to grind on them while they’re making out? Does he pull the bottom lip of the person he’s kissing? Does he moan their name? Does he take deep breaths or hiss if the kiss is so so good, does he whine into kisses? I wanna know, I just really wanna know and I won’t know until he kisses me and obviously, I’d be dumb as fuck to watch him kiss someone else just to find these things out.
I’m getting out of control.
Arthur’s POV“Oh my God Anna, you look like a car accident, what happened to you?” Alicia asked immediately as she walked into her business management class and found Anna sitting at their usual spots, beside the windows. Anna groaned, turning to the back to glare at something or someone and Alicia followed her line of sight to see she was glaring at Andre.“That bastard pranked me this morning. I swear, I’m this close to beating his ass with the crutches I used back in fifth grade.”Alicia chuckled and took the empty seat beside her. “Now we’re making jokes about you almost having both your legs amputated for getting into an actual car accident back in fifth grade. And what’s this little constant bickering between you and Andre?” Alicia asked, wiggling her eyes playfully and got an eye roll from Anna.“It’s worse that his name starts with an ‘A’ and mine does as well so people purposely try to form cute names from both our names, it’s disgusting to be honest.”“C’omon, Andre is hot,
Arthur’s POV Alicia stared around Micheal’s room as she waited for him to come back from the kitchen. They’ve been dating for four months and she still feels incredibly shy whenever she was at his dorm room. Micheal is in his second year and she’s just a fresher, it’s just that feeling of dating a senior that’s making her overwhelmed sometimes. She suddenly wondered if Jason was in his second or third year before shaking her head violently. She shouldn’t be thinking of another man when she’s in her boyfriend’s room.She’s been practicing on what to say to Micheal. She obviously needed to apologize first and then perhaps tell him why she’s been acting that way and of course, omit the part where she’s been sexting another guy who happens to be her sexy cousin. She sat at the edge of the bed, her hands in between her legs as she waited. Anybody who walked in and saw her would think that was her first time being to a guy’s place. She was always this shy person, she still is but she reali
Alicia’s POV “Can I—is it okay to give you a handjob?” It took every courage in me to say that and I waited, our eyes boring into each other’s soul. Was he going to say no? He wouldn’t, right? He did say it was okay to rub him through his shorts, he was enjoying it so why is he being hesitant now? It’s just a handjob. I asked for consent, that’s okay right? He’d let me do what I want for just tonight.“Micheal, do you not want me to?” I tried to mask the hurt I was starting to feel by speaking in a low voice, at least he won’t hear how I’m about to break down if he says no. I watched his eyes stare down at my hand that was still underneath his shorts, unmoving. He felt so big, I wanted to just take it out and stare at it till it feeds my ‘big dick kink’ but I’m this close to losing all the excitement bones in me because he’s not saying anything. “If you don’t want me to—”“I do, yes yes, go on.”Oh finally. I smiled at him and gently used my free hand to pull his shorts alongside his
Alicia’s POV We both sat side by side on the dining table and I suddenly couldn’t contain my thoughts. I suddenly wanted attention, all of his attention on me and I didn’t even need to ask the way I asked with Micheal but Jason was already giving me all that attention. I didn’t miss the way he glanced at me, thinking I didn’t notice or the way his legs would touch mine since we’re sitting close to each other. I was nervous, shaking and not because I wanted to bolt out of the room but because my hands were itching to touch him.It didn’t help that we were both close to being half naked. He’s shirtless and in sweatpants, I’m wearing booty shorts and my college shirt. I see him staring at my thighs and I’m not even uncomfortable because I want him to, I love that he can’t stop looking at me, I love that I don’t need to do anything extra to have him gawking at every part of me. It makes me feel wanted, the complete opposite of what Micheal makes me feel.The Mac-n-cheese was pleading to
Author’s pov “There’s absolutely no way she’d choose a freaking blonde over a redhead.” Alicia exclaimed, staring at the tv with so much seriousness and Jason just watched her, a fond look on his face. “Alicia, can I ask you something?” That snapped her out of her fight with the movie playing and she turned to Jason, quirking her eyebrows up. “Mm yeah.” Jason nodded, turning a bit to properly face her. “This might be weird to talk about but earlier today while we were having breakfast, your mum mentioned something concerning you. Uhm, are you really a virgin?” Oh God, Alicia wanted to faint. She didn’t want to talk about stuff like this and he just reluctantly brought it up. “This wasn’t what I thought our conversation would be like but yeah, I’m a virgin…” she forced a chuckle it, “a bit surprising there right." “You’re serious?” “Why would I lie about it? I’ve never had sex.” “Just sex, you haven’t done anything sexually related besides kissing?” Alicia shook her head, ni
Arthur’s POVAlicia feels lightheaded, she feels stuck in some kind of hypnosis and that’s over a mere kiss. It’s not just a kiss, it’s not some cheeky high school crush kinda kiss, it’s almost an nsfw with the amount of grinding involved in the kiss. Jason fits so perfectly in between her legs like a missing puzzle and he’s moving against Alicia’s aching pussy rhythmically with their lips. There’s biting, a lot of tongue sucking and both of their moans and groans disappearing into each other’s mouth.Alicia can feel her heart quickening, the sound of it making her feel dizzy, it just feels so good she doesn’t want it to end and when Jason is pulling awayfrom the kiss, she basically lets out a dry sob and tries to chase his lips and he indulges her, diving back in to close his mouth around her lower lip, sucking and pulling. Alicia kisses him with so much urgency, like she doesn’t want to let the moment slip away, her legs tightened around Jason’s waist, pulling the boy closer and buc
Arthur’s pov “It feels like I haven’t seen you in ages. Where the hell have you been?” Alicia rolls her eyes at her best friend, they’re walking to the university cafeteria and it’s filled up as usual, bunch of adults trying to get past the line and getting their asses dragged away by Whomever they’re trying to get past in the lines.“You saw me two days ago, it was the weekend for fucks sake and obviously I needed time to cry my eyes out after finding out my boyfriend was still messing around with his ex-girlfriend.”Anna sighs, she finally found an empty seat and dragged Alicia to sit with her so they’re facing each other. “How are you? You know I’m always here for you, yeah?”Alicia rolled her eyes, a small smile on her face. “Don’t get all sappy and shit and I’m fine, I swear. I just wish I was smart enough to realise that he wanted someone with so much experience like his ex and not me, the boring virgin.”Anna slapped her arm, “Don’t think of yourself that way, you’re gorgeous
Arthur’s POV Alicia’s eyes were still on the guy, Micheal’s friend. His name was Dylan and he definitely puts the D in ‘Dick’ with all the big dick energy he was radiating. She knew he was a fuckboy, everyone knew. She’s been in uni for two weeks and she’s had so much about him and his insane rizz. He had so much rizz you could feel it from a distance.“Uhmmm why the fuck are you and Dylan basically eye fucking each other?.” Andre asked, stealing a pickle from Anna’s plate.“He’s hot and I want him.” Alicia answered, giving Dylan a small smile before turning back to Andre.“Anna, is this Alicia because where did our innocent little 19 year old go?”Alicia rolled her eyes, “Shut up, he’s hot and I want something hot in my mouth.”“Okayyyyy ewwww, I’m gonna throw up.” Andre laments while Anna snickers beside him.“Alicia has always been this way, trust me, you don’t wanna know the things she’s capable of texting. She just loved keeping that side of her tucked away because her dumb boyf