Chapter 8

Arthur’s POV 

Alicia stared around Micheal’s room as she waited for him to come back from the kitchen. They’ve been dating for four months and she still feels incredibly shy whenever she was at his dorm room. Micheal is in his second year and she’s just a fresher, it’s just that feeling of dating a senior that’s making her overwhelmed sometimes. She suddenly wondered if Jason was in his second or third year before shaking her head violently. She shouldn’t be thinking of another man when she’s in her boyfriend’s room.

She’s been practicing on what to say to Micheal. She obviously needed to apologize first and then perhaps tell him why she’s been acting that way and of course, omit the part where she’s been sexting another guy who happens to be her sexy cousin. She sat at the edge of the bed, her hands in between her legs as she waited. Anybody who walked in and saw her would think that was her first time being to a guy’s place. She was always this shy person, she still is but she realized she was different with Jason, he made her act like a completely different person and at times it scared her but other times, she loved it.

Micheal came back with a can of apple juice, Alicia’s favourite. He handed it to her and she took it, setting it beside her. Micheal cleared his throat and squatted right in front of her, taking her hands in his and giving her gentle strokes with his thumb before looking up at her.

“Are you ready to tell me what’s been going on with you lately?”

Alicia nodded like a child, eliciting a small chuckle from Micheal. He was comfortable enough squatting, he does it all the time that it’s become such a comfortable position for him.

“Then tell me, what’s going on?”

Alicia took a deep breath, looking up at him briefly before looking down at their hands intertwined. “I’m sorry for ignoring you, I shouldn’t have done that.” Alicia said in a small vulnerable voice, refusing to look at him.

“Why did you do it then?”

“I was upset, you made me feel like a complete fool that night.”

“But you make me feel like a complete idiot all the time because I never know what you want but instead of just being upfront about it, you think it’s better to ghost me and that’s a shitty thing to do.”

“I’m sorry.”

“Alicia, baby, what do you even want? One minute you’re telling me you don’t wanna come see me because you’re busy, the next you’re calling me to tell me you miss me and you want me with you and the next minute you’re upset about something you don’t even wanna tell me about and afterwards, you call me to have phone sex with you.”

Alicia feels her face flush and she fights back a whine, she’s embarrassed enough and Micheal isn’t making the situation any less humiliating.

“I’m sorry.”

“Stop with that and just tell me your problem.”

“I don’t have a problem.”

“You clearly do, you have a problem with me. Just say it already, what is it that I’m not doing that you want me to do?”

Alicia tried to pull her hands away but Micheal held her hands tighter.

“Don’t avoid the question because I know the minute you leave here, you’d be pissed about something else that you won’t tell me about but instead, you’d ghost me.”

“I-I just, it’s just that whenever I wanna do something, you always say no, you don’t love me.”

Micheal sighed, one of his hands coming up to gently caress Alicia’s cheeks. “Baby, saying no to you a couple of times doesn’t mean I don’t love you.”

“What does it mean then? I just want—I don’t like how you say no to me whenever I wanna explore with you sexually. It’s like you don’t even want me at all.”

“We both know that’s not true-”

“I don’t know shit.” Alicia interrupted him, frowning when she heard him laugh. “You must think I’m a joke, what’s funny?”

“Hey hey, I’m sorry, sorry, I just—you’re so adorable sometimes and I keep forgetting how innocent you are but hey, tell me, tell me the things you want, the things you’ve been dying to tell me.”

Alicia looked at him for a minute and looked away, she wasn’t sure it was a good idea but she wanted to tell him so he’d know that she might be innocent but her thoughts and fantasies aren’t. Micheal got up and sat beside her, gently lifting her up so she was sitting on his laps.

“I wanna have sex for a start,” Alicia looked at him, “I know what you’re gonna say, but Micheal, how long do you want me to wait? It’s not that easy to hold back you know when—I just wanna have sex, with you.”

“I know, I know and I do too but I do want it to be special for you, I don’t wanna hurt you.”

“Do you think I wanna be hurt? I want this as much as you do and you keep saying no and it makes me wonder if you really love me as you say.”

“Don’t use that against me, I do love you.”

“Then why don’t you wanna have sex with me and don’t give me the same ‘I wanna be careful with you’  line, I’m sick and tired of hearing it. You dated a sorority girl, everyone knows about that and when you were with her, I heard….so many things.” Alicia said the last part in a small voice, almost scared to tell Micheal the things she heard.

“What did you hear?”

Alicia fumbled with her fingers, her eyes stuck on Micheal’s hand that’s on top of hers while his other hand circled around her waist. Her eyes diverted to his pants and then his crotch area and she swallowed, she doesn’t even know what her boyfriend’s cock looks like and she hates it. She wonders if it’s huge or maybe if the head is flushed pink, perhaps there’s a beautiful vein running from the underside all the way to the tip of it—

“Alicia?”

She snapped out of it, looking at him and she sighed. “Everyone says you both had an adventurous sex life and I know it’s true, a friend of hers talks about what you both had while you were together and it makes me so jealous because I don’t even get to see that side of you, the Micheal with an adventurous sex life. Why’s the case different with me? Why are you playing safe with me?”

“I told you to stop listening to stuff like that.”

“Can you ignore what I’ve been listening to and just answer me? Do I not look exotic to you? Do I not turn you on? What exactly is holding you back from doing the things I’ve been begging for? Is it because I’m inexperienced? You could teach me, I—I’d devote my time to learning the things you like. You don’t even want me—you don’t want me to give you a blowjob, you don’t let me touch you past your chest, you don’t even let me grind down on you whenever we’re making out and I’m straddling you. You don’t know a lot of things about me.”

“What? I know a lot of things about you. I know how you like your fries unsalted, your burger served without pickles and Mayo, and how you love chicken breasts instead of the thighs—”

“Things other than that, Micheal. Micheal you don’t know the things that I like, sexually related things, you don’t know my fantasies,” Alicia fidgeted with her fingers, “I also want to have my hair pulled and marks sucked into my neck but you don’t know that and it makes me so upset.”

Micheal sighed and nodded. “Then tell me, tell me baby, what are the things you like? I’m listening.”

Alicia looked at him, she was going to be bold this time around and just say the things on her mind. She was tired of going around in circles, she was just going to lay it all down for him and whatever happens, it happens.

“I-ughmm..”

“Don’t get shy on me now, tell me everything.”

Alicia smiled a little, shifting on his lap, her eyes briefly snapping to his crotch area and she looked away.

“I want us to sext sometimes and I want to have phone sex with you.” Alicia watched him nod, she wasn’t sure if he was nodding because he was okay with stuff like that or if he was genuinely freaking out but pretending to be cool. “Even though you don’t want sex right now, I wanna try other stuff too.”

“Okay, like what?”

“Ughm….” Alicia let her hand wander off Micheal’s grip and she tentatively played with the waistband of Micheal’s shorts. She looked up at him, his eyes were fixed on her hand and she took a deep breath, “I want it in my mouth,” She said, her hands now moving downwards to give Micheal’s cock calming strokes through his shorts. She watched him suck in air and gently let go. “Is this okay?”

Micheal nodded, his eyes trained on Alicia while she continued rubbing his length that was getting harder after each stroke. Alicia wasn’t going to panic, with what she has felt and how much she’s still stroking Micheal’s length, it’s definitely as she imagined, big and thick and she doesn’t know when her hands slide past Micheal’s shorts, warmth enveloping her hand as she grabbed him and she heard Micheal hiss.

“Can I-is it okay to give you a handjob?”