登入NathanielRestlessly I typed on my phone…‘Are you okay?’‘Please tell me you’re okay?’‘I’m sorry, it was never my intention to hurt you….’And finally three dots appeared, indicating the person was typing back.A sense of relief washed through me when the message finally popped up.‘You fucking lied… about everything,’‘And I saw the news, how could you? I trusted you.’My heart squeezed, and the feeling of relief instantly evaporated.Shakily, my fingers moved. ‘I did it for you, for us.’Another reply came through. ‘And at what cost? You did it for yourself, Nathaniel, so don’t you dare justify your actions.’The hard lump in my throat felt too difficult to swallow.‘I’m sorry, Ethan… but you and mom are all I have left, and it was the only means for me to get money.’Blankly, I stared at the screen, waiting for him to reply.He never did.And it caused another heave of despair to settle in my chest.Weakly, I threw my head against the wall as I tightly gripped my phone.I did not
Nikolai I didn’t know how I got here, as Clinton slowly lowered my on the couch.Jeremy was angrily on the phone, probably trying to handle the situation and not make things worst.I on the other hand. I was begging whoever was up above the sky to not to make things all real.Nathaniel could not have betrayed.This is a whole big misunderstanding.Yeah. He’s probably just mad because of what’s happening.Of course, that’s what this whole thing is about.My baby would never.Clinton disappeared saying he was going to get me water.And I couldn’t take it any longer. I phone out my phone, calling Nathaniel.Baby, please pick up.The dial tone buzzed against my ear, a monotonous, mocking drone.Ring.Come on. Pick up. Just pick up and tell me this is a joke. Tell me it’s a prank for some stupid channel, or that someone hacked your phone.Ring.“Please, baby,” I whimpered, pulling my knees up to my chest on the couch. “Please don’t do this to me. Just say it's a mistake.”“The number yo
NathanielWalking away, and watching Nikolai collapse to the ground, begging and screaming for me to come back?It was soul crushing.Like the whole world was pressing against my chest.But I know I need to get out of here fast.If I want my head still intact.People who recognized me were giving me weird looks, which forced me to hasten my pace, gripping tightly onto my bag.Get your shit together Nathaniel.Get it together.Quickly, I navigated my way out, heading towards the main gates—A car brazenly pulled over, almost hitting me.What the fuck—The car windows rolled down, and seeing the person had me swallowing hard.Reina.“Get in, Nathaniel.”Gripping my bag, I walked over, sliding into the car.She had her signature smirk on.I just sat there in silence as she drove out of campus, and in the next ten minutes, she pulled over at a block.“I must say, I applaud your performance. Chef’s kiss, Nathaniel, your acting is extraordinary.”I couldn’t meet her gaze, as I stretched out
NikolaiIt has to be a dream.Please be a dream.“Stay the fuck away from me.” Saying this, I watched Nathaniel walk away.No…..No…..What’s happening….“Nikolai!” Clinton came running towards me.I blinked at him in total confusion, along with the rest of the students who were staring at me with shock and pity.I clawed at Clinton. “What’s happening, Clinton? What the fuck is happening?”My chest hurt like mad, and from the corner of my eyes, Nathaniel had disappeared completely.And it was then I noticed that Clinton looked pale too as he shakily spoke.“I need to get you out of here, Niko.”“What the hell is happening? Why are these fuckers staring at me—”I didn’t complete my statement when I spotted Jeremy angrily charging through.“What the fuck are you looking at! Huh! Fuck off, you motherfuckers!” snapped Jeremy, and that seemed to have gotten people to slowly disperse.My heart hurt as tears unknowingly blurred my vision. My brain was having problems functioning and processi
A week later……NikolaiRestlessly, I tapped my foot against the floor as my gaze stayed blank on the professor.I don’t know shit about what she was teaching, or whatever gibberish was coming out of her mouth either.Yeah, I couldn’t concentrate.My phone chimed.Impatiently, I grabbed it. It was a notification from someone irrelevant and not from the actual person I was dying to hear from.“Dude,” Clinton said. “Can you just calm the fuck down? Shit is completely written all over you.”I didn’t look at him.“I am calm.”“You’re not,” he said immediately. “You look like you haven’t slept in days. You’re not eating properly either. This is not normal, Nikolai.”I exhaled sharply through my nose, still staring at the front of the class without seeing anything.“It’s fine.”“No, it’s not fine,” he snapped back. “This is exactly what I was talking about. You’re spiraling over him.”At the sound of “him,” something in my chest tightened violently.Clinton lowered his voice. “You’re obsesse
Nathaniel My chest hurts a lot. Or it was due to the fact that I couldn’t. My throat feels incredibly heavy. “Baby…” Nikolai softly called out. Traces of blood hung on his lips. Through my blurry vision, I just stared at him as Anya helped him up and he slowly limped towards me. “Baby…” he reached, but I just stepped away. I had to. Cold disappointment soaked his features as his gaze trembled at me. I swallowed the hardness that clogged my throat and shook my head. The look on his face nearly destroyed me. Disappointment. Confusion. Fear. Like he had expected me to run into his arms and pretend none of it had happened. “Just…. Wait…. Just…..” I didn’t even know what to say. “I know I shouldn’t interfere,” Anya said from behind, which made me move my gaze to her. “But this looks pretty toxic. No offense Nikolai, but I think you both need some time away from each other.” She said. And instantly Nikolai snapped at her, “No one fucking needs your opinion here Anya. Just
NathanielSweat trickled down my neck.And for some reason, I felt overly annoyed and nervous too.I glanced at my phone for what felt like the hundredth time, staring at the QR code, which had a small location attached at the bottom.I twitched my glasses.Yeah, I finally got a new one after my pr
NikolaiIt was a sight, seeing him without his glasses.His preppy, pretty-boy features were perfectly outlined. I could see every line, every curve, every stupid little imperfection that made him him.I could feel it, my fingers itching to trace them. Down his face, down to his collarbone, before
NikolaiSo today I choose violence….Wait that’s not right.Let’s go again.Waking up in the heavens blessed sunny Thursday morning, violence had decided to choose me to take its course in my hands, which of course there was no way I would refuse getting my hands soiled in some motherfucker’s blood
NathanielI glanced at my phone, which was ringing, and of course it was none other than my mother.Heavily I sighed, ended the call, knowing that she’s probably cursing my whole future.“Hey Lockwood.” Someone called, and turning around, I spotted Tyler, waving at me, and subconsciously I inhaled.







