Chapter 53

We are the last ones to walk down the long white path. At the end a big Coffin One half of it is opened. They have extra built him a little stage, put drapes around the corners with white and grey organza lovingly draped around it. With big flower stands. I swallow hard. Not wanting to admit that it is his final goodbye. Up until now I managed to shield myself from the enormous pain and kept everything locked away. I don’t even hear what the Speaker is saying, nor when Aaron or Zain get up to speak and when they present their beautiful speeches they have prepared. I barely manage to look up but when I did, I could see Tim, Rasmus, Miller and Liam, staring in my direction. Their faces sad and full of emotions.

Everyone is now turning to me and I jump a little as I realise that absolutely everyone’s eyes are on me. I breathe in sharply taking steps towards the Coffin.

Seeing him there makes me realise how I have tried to avoid this situation. I didn’t even help to plan