Chapter Thirty-Nine

CHAPTER 39: EXES BELONG IN THE PAST

If I were to go,

if I were to go closer to you,

What would you think?

Just thinking of this breaks my heart.

If you were to leave,

if you were to leave my side,

How would I ever let you go?

I'm always scared of this.

Because I was a fool

I could only look upon you from afar

Because I was afraid of how your heart might change,

and we might grow further apart

I was a fool not be able to tell you I love you

Because I was afraid of the hurt and sadness I would receive after we meet

— Taeyeon, If

A U T U M N

"What is wrong?" I heard his worried voic