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2025-02-18 18:25:40
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THE REJECTED LYCAN PRINCESS HOW LONG HAVE YOU BEEN WAITING FOR?
ZADEShe is everywhere.I can feel her in my blood, in my bones, under my skin. She envelops me, traveling through every neuron from my head to my toes.But then it's gone too soon.She slumps down, my neck tingling where she has bitten me. All I want is for her to bite me again, for me to feel that closeness that I have never known existed. It's heavenly to be close, to be one with her … her blood still in my mouth, her scent intertwined with mine.But she is twitching on the floor. She is in pain, and I want to help her. But I am weak; my body doesn’t feel like mine. Something is making me immobile, this heavy=iness over my body.I can't breathe as I watch her from where I am kneeling on the floor.But then she exhales, as if she has been released, just as the feeling of being repressed fades away, and I am back to myself.My head is feeling hazy still, in a good way. I feel high. I am high on her …She is shifting. Her wolf seems to be awakening …She is beautiful. She is so beauti
Huling Na-update : 2025-02-18THE REJECTED LYCAN PRINCESS FIRST HUNT AND YOU RUIN IT?
ARII feel alive for the first time in over ten years.The first thing I wanted to feel was freedom, and that meant running until I forgot everything and everyone. I became one with the wind until someone started tailing me.My senses are open: the wind, the smell, the ground beneath me, the surroundings, it all feels so different from how I have been used to now.How did I live for so long, feeling like my head was underwater all this time? I lost Lin when I was a child, fear and grief crippling me that when Lin left, it just added to the pain that I felt.I didn’t think much about it then, growing up feeling like I was just floating in the world, running and always afraid.Every child gets their wolf and forms a bond with them, and it gets harmonious, bonding and blending into one as you mature. It might be because I am not used to the strength and all these sensational things I feel, but I don’t hate it.I have always thought that I would feel disconnected from my wolf, but it's lik
Huling Na-update : 2025-02-19THE REJECTED LYCAN PRINCESS OF YOU KEEP THIS UP, I MIGHT GET THE WRONG IDEA, MATE
ARII hesitate.Even in my hesitation, he doesn’t do anything but wait. He hates me, doesn’t he? Then why is he letting me get this close to him? I deflect, going for his jugular, and instead bite his shoulder instead, as if marking him a second time. His blood is so refreshing, those pheromones tingling my whole body I have to get off him, shaking off that weird feeling as I glare at him.“you. what are you doing now?” he is pissing me off with this act.“I should ask you that. You are the one who is attacking me and wounding me.”So annoying.All the fun is now ruined, like always, whenever he shows up.“you need to get back to the academy. No one knows that you have your wolf back.”“did you come all this way to tell me that?”“it's not safe out here; you are alone and vulnerable in this state.”“I have never been less vulnerable.” I pointedly look at the brown wolf that’s watching us from a distance in wary. Who the hell is he anyway?“I get that, but you haven’t gotten a pass to
Huling Na-update : 2025-02-19THE REJECTED LYCAN PRINCESS YES, I FEEL A LOT
ZADEI don’t understand why I care that she is hungry.I don’t understand why I feel the need to make sure she is well-fed and then get her back to the academy safely. She is not my concern; she never has been and never will be.Yet here I am, feeling satisfied as she is eating the hamburger, gulping it down, and not even raising her eyes to look at me or bother talking to me. She hasn't pretended not to be hungry; I know she must have been starving. A bonding ceremony is exhausting, mentally, and draining on the body.I feel like I can sleep for a week. Adding to shifting, too, I know she is bone tired. Being bonded to her is a curse. Before, I could feel most of the things she felt, that is, if I didn’t block her.Now, it doesn’t matter if I block her or not, she has shit me out. It's very weird, something being taken from you, a thing you didn’t even care about that existed in the first place.I feel like my whole life is cursed. I am not lucky; I am not favored, unlike what people
Huling Na-update : 2025-02-20THE REJECTED LYCAN PRINCESS I HATE ME TOO
ZADE“you mated her?”“livie, I did try not to but-““you mated her! You completed the bond, and now she is your mate. You two are linked for life,” Livie is pacing in my bedroom, hands pulling her hair roots.“I need you to stop moving and calm down first,” I try approaching her, but she shakes me off hard and steps back.This is what I was fearing. This is what I didn’t want to see: the betrayal that’s in her eyes when she looks at me.“How can I ever listen to you? How can I ever believe you ever again?”“because it doesn’t matter to me who my mate is! You are the woman I love; I don’t care about her.”She stops and looks at me blankly before she starts laughing. “what? You don’t love her? You love me, and I am the woman for you?”“livie,”“no,” she raises her hand and looks at the floor. “I mean, I am the woman who has your love, right? What does it matter if I don’t get what I have wanted from you since I was ten? I mean, I have all your love, and nothing else matters.”“livie.”
Huling Na-update : 2025-02-20THE REJECTED LYCAN PRINCESS TELL ME I AM ENOUGH
OLIVIAI have lost to her.Isn't it crazy how I have been labeled the obsessed one, the evil one in this story so far? Isn't it crazy how I have lost everything I have worked for my whole life? How cruel it is that perhaps this isn't my story, that I am not a main character in this lifetime.I am the quickest to point fingers at. Blame me for being cruel and mean, for being the girl who was obsessed with the Luna title and power. It is much easier to think of me as the bad guy because then it will make everyone else feel better about everything they are doing.“you are not breaking up with me.”My heart is breaking; I feel so much pain in my heart it is hard to breathe. Zade is looking at me with determination and fear. Fear that I feel is reflected in my eyes. What becomes of me now? Am I to be forgotten, and he will live happily ever after with her?What happens to me now? What happens in my life?“how can I be with you when you belong to another?” I fist my blouse above my heart. “
Huling Na-update : 2025-02-21THE REJECTED LYCAN PRINCESS I LOVE YOU COMPLETLY
ZADEShe tries to get away from me, but I only pull her closer to me as she stumbles on my chest. I wrap my arms around her, eyes closing as I kiss her head. A lone tear streaks down my cheek as I press her closer to me in a hug.“though good times and bad times, one thing you should know is that my love for you rings true,” my throat chokes up, but I don’t let her go. “we have to defy the odds, I will fight destiny, and prove myself to you.”She is shaking, crying as she presses her face into my chest.“I am going to show you that you are my only one.”Lifting her, her legs wrap around my waist, and bury her face in the nook of my neck. I start walking towards the massive bed in the middle of the room and sit down on it, livie on my lap.“I love you,” my hand pats her head, running it down her long hair before pushing it away from her face and gazing into that beautiful face. “I love you, Olivia Bates.”“I love you too.”I lean forward, kissing her tears, gathering her in my arms. Ol
Huling Na-update : 2025-02-21THE REJECTED LYCAN PRINCESS SOCCER TURNS INTO A FIGHT MATCH
ARI“how fit do they need us to be?”“as fit as running off the teenage hormones to guarantee everyone is too tired to cause any problems.”“easy for you to talk,” I think my chest is carving in. I am in terrible shape, almost passing out after running one round on the track. “you get to sit on the bleachers and just watch as we die.”Mimi only pushes her glasses up. “with good reason. That field can turn into a hunger games sometimes. I would rather cheer you on from here.”“Where is the gym teacher anyway?” I look around, face crunching as I get my breath in control. I am a piss poor wolf, in awful shape human and wolf form.“I don’t know but your game is starting. You should run along.”“I don’t want to play with people who hate me. I don’t think I will be picked even if I showed up.” I start making my way up the bleachers before a whistle goes off behind me.“I guess that’s your cue.”“unbelievable.” Olivia is standing there, dividing the group into two teams, her skater skirt so
Huling Na-update : 2025-02-22
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THE REJECTED LYCAN PRINCESS I WILL LET YOU LOVE ME
ARIZade is letting me take what I need from him, this time letting me have my way on my terms.It has been that way from the very beginning, but tonight, it's like he wants me to take care of myself using him and, in a way, take care of himself too, by using him.So when I guide him and press him on my opening, we both freeze, breathing heavily before I urge him with a pull of his hips to push inside me.And heavens, it feels delicious. The stretch, the feeling of him opening me up as my walls accommodate him until he is fully seated inside me …I contract, squeezing him, feeling the girth inside me and I want to swallow more of him, suck him in and keep him there … it’s a heady, good feeling.“Why won't you love me?” The hoarse whisper makes me open my eyes just as Zade looks at me. He is …crying?“What?” I ask, eyes wide.“Why did you say you can't love me?”“Because,” I shift, and we both groan. His hips jerk in response, and he starts moving slowly. He has forgotten about the que
THE REJECTED LYCAN PRINCESS SLOWLY THAWING
ARIWhen the body is exposed to extreme cold, at some point, it stops supplying the less important parts with blood in order to save the vital organs.It has been quite similar to me. I have spent most of my life just functioning, and apparently it has been necessary for my body to cut off supplies to some of the things anyone my age would deem normal to have.There hasn’t been a case where I could feel anything other than flight and flight. But eventually, here I am.My body is thawing, slowly coming to life, and it feels so good.Zade’s tongue is slicking inside my mouth, seeking and touching every crevice inside. His body is pressed to mine to keep me up, one thigh pressed between my legs, one hand grabbing my butt, hips flushed.I am weak at my knees. I want him, I can feel him, and I am floating. I know I am kissing him, but I am also falling and falling, feeling safe that he will catch me.It’s a dam that has been let loose.He is mine. I shouldn’t feel this way. I should feel g
THE REJECTED LYCAN PRINCESS LET ME COUNT THE WAYS YOU KILL ME
ZADE“But then it will be another, then another… if you can be swayed so easily, then is it even worth it?”“I wasn’t swayed easily. You and I know that there is more to us than a bond between mates.”“Hard to believe that when all that connects us is that.”“Our parents do connect us, too. Do you think we wouldn’t have crossed paths if we hadn’t been mates?”“We could have, but you would be intent on killing me or destroying my life like you did at the beginning.”“That’s true. But you can just chalk up my feelings and invalidate them, simplify them to one variable.”“It’s the only thing that is making sense. I mean, here I am, sitting in your love sanctuary, surrounded by your memories with her, and yet you are telling me it's me you want. What about her? Why was it so easy for you to just leave her?”“If you hadn't shown up, I already knew it would rather be her that I pretended with, cosplayed my inner wishful thinking even though it wasn’t true.”I close my eyes briefly before lo
THE REJECTED LYCAN PRINCESS DRAG ME DOWN WITH EVERY WORD
ZADEThere is something dark, alluring, and compelling about Ari Silvers that I have never been able to fully comprehend.Her beauty and magnetism are not the traditional kind. It's raw, demands that you see her, revere her, and ache to be close to her, so you can bathe in it.She is beautiful in the traditional sense as well, but then you look again. And again, and again. You are drawn in, wanting, needing, desiring, and even wanting to corrupt.She is pure, she is dark, she is innocent, but also twisted. She is all that you wish you could hold and covet to yourself, but you cannot. For it is not to be held by others and coveted, stolen, but to be looked at, worshiped, and if you are good, to be bathed in.But never yours.She is sitting on the rooftop.I followed the feeling of our bond, and I am surprised, a little unsure why she would be here. This is where she fell, almost to her death after all.Her knees are pressed against her chest as she looks at the far distance, lost in wh
THE REJECTED LYCAN PRINCESS YES, SHE HAS ME BY THE COLLAR
ZADEI stop behind one balding man, I think he is here because he is a legacy. Not the official family but still as important. I can see the sweat trickling down his neck into the stiff, tight suit he is wearing.If I wasn’t so sure before, now standing behind him as he reeks of fear … it's solid. My hand goes through his back, and I touch the organ that’s beating and warm in my palm.Gasps echo around, but no one says a word, as they look at me with horrified expressions, save for my father, of course.“This man,” I turn to Jude, “you missed this man.” My fingers close around the beating organ and pull my hand back. The body shakes, twitching before his head thumps on the table like a log. The scent of blood permeates the air, thickening it with the tension and fear pulsing in the room.I walk over to Jude and let the organ fall on his file, and he looks at it, eyes wide. I am sure he isn't breathing. After all, I just killed a legacy, and he has a lot of mess to clean up.And also,
THE REJECTED LYCAN PRINCESS JUDE, YOU ARE FAILING
ZADEWe are back to ignoring each other.Or to be more precise, Ari has gone back to hating my guts and ignoring my existence. And when she sees me, when our eyes meet, those first two seconds, time seems to slow down, and it's only us. The world fades away, and it's us, and I usually get this feeling in my chest, this heavy thing that is threatening to drown me, but in a sweet way.It's only us, as if we know something, just the two of us, and then the moment is snapped and broken, and she is back to scowling at me, rolling her eyes.But I know, those few seconds, where it is only us, when time stops and we only see each other, feel each other… that is the truth of us.She told me she wanted devotion and then proceeded to lock herself in the bedroom before she left early in the morning, even though we did spend the night together.I didn’t sleep, not when she was in the next room and I knew she wasn’t asleep either. I listened to her breathing, every turn and twist in the bed.I list
THE REJECTED LYCAN PRINCESS ALL OR NOTHING
ARI“What's going on inside this little mind?” his voice is so close to me, nose brushing my temple.I should feel something. A tingle, but I am so damn tired. All I want is to sleep, forget that I exist for a few hours before I start going back to my life. I can't escape it anymore, now can I?“Nothing,” I sigh. “I am just a little sleepy.”Is he expecting more from me tonight?I wish I had the girls with me. They would allow me to be in your space. Maybe I should call them, text them, but I don't have my phone. I remember crashing it in the hotel suite before I walked out into the traffic.Maybe I am not as okay as I think. But getting a grip is important.If I am going to avenge and face the people who ruined me to begin with, I can't let go of the reality. I need to be focused and work hard to make sure they don’t destroy me before I destroy them.I know I am not going to come out of it. The plans I made to go study law as further studies, get out of the pack and live my life as a
THE REJECTED LYCAN PRINCESS BROKEN DOLL
ARIMy life is a mess.It’s a fucked life, painful, dry, bland, void of colour.I am ugly too, rotting slowly inside, underserving of anything good because that’s just what is set in stone for me.Despite it all, despite feeling all of that, as Zade looks at me like I mean something, like I matter … I can't help but want to be under that gaze for a longer time.He is looking at me how he used to look at Olivia, like he might love me, like I mean something. He wants to know if I am okay, taking care of me, a gentle, caring touch on my cold, withering soul.I don’t deserve it, and yet.I yearn for it. Crave it. I can't not shudder under it.“Do you want me to ask you?”Yes. I want him to ask me. I want him to push for me to tell him what's going on in my head. For him to fight for me. I am selfish like that. Mother didn’t say anything untrue, because here I am, asking and taking what doesn’t belong to me.I came into this life, took Olivia’s man under fate’s guidance, and yes. It hurt.
THE REJECTED LYCAN PRINCESS WHY WONT YOU ASK ME?
ARII don’t think I have ever truly let myself think deeply about Zade, who is becoming, and his birthright. I am not one to attach my identity to the boy I am seeing or crushing on, and in this case, the boy I am mated to.But it's still heavy. I find it … sexy that he is already so mature, powerful too, and it's only going to get even better.Yes, I think I am crushing on Zade, and I can't control choking on my water once that fully hits me.“Are you okay?” he asks me as he rushes to my side, rubbing my back.“Yeah,” I wheeze out. “Guess I am a little surprised.”“Why?” he chuckles as he gets back to cooking.“The first thing someone sees when they see you is how spoiled you are.” That’s not true.The first thing I saw and felt when I first laid my eyes on him was just how magnetic and powerful he was. Yes, you could tell from miles away that he is wealthy, but it wasn’t the kind I got from the rest of the students.No, his was the quiet, generational wealth that just didn’t come fr
