I don't sleep well. I try to suppress the memories deep in my subconscious but they resurface over night and the dull wounds left from Logan's wake feel entirely too fresh for me.I scream and clutch my chest all night. My soul is being torn apart all over again as the vivid dream plays through my mind like a horror movie on repeat.Somewhere in my mind I think I know it is merely a dream, but I can not find my way back to reality. I am lost in my own mind with no one to bring me out of my suffering.He has rejected us, my wolf whispers. He has chosen another mate.My wolf whimpers at the new realization and I wish for anything that I can in some way console her, but I am just as broken as her. I feel weak and sick. I have to grab onto the counter just to keep my balance. Logan becomes concerned, but he doesn't move to help me."She's pregnant. Josephine is having our pups," he says.No.The pain inside me is more excruciating than I can convey. It feel as if something inside me has
You helped Samuel with this didn't you?" I ask him.He shoots me another sympathetic look before standing from the bed and answering me. "Yes and one other couple. Your situation is very rare; there are very few people who take on other mates. Unfortunately, it happens though. It's more common in wolves that have lost their mate to some unfortunate circumstance, like a war or illness. That is if they survive the loss.""You know someone else who has gone through it though," I state. "Yes, there is a couple in the pack who lost their mates and the dreams were the same. The only difference is, they would feel the pain of their mate's death all over again, instead of a rejection."I sit silently. I suppose that is much worse than a rejection. Though a rejection is much like death. You still grieve the same way. You grieve for the loss off your mate. However, I wasn't mated to Logan. That would have destroyed me completely. I doubt I would have survived it."They were able to overcome it
Once again Samuel and I find ourselves inside the big city that we stopped in on the way to his territory. I am doing my best to adjust to it, but like before, I feel like I stick out- and not in a good way.The restaurant we are in this time is not like the one we were before. This one is nicer and better yet, it is Italian- my favorite. I ask for the spaghetti.After we have eaten our meals we sit at the table making light conversation over dessert, which is almost finished off now.I find it surprising how easy it is to talk to him sometimes. When we aren't worried about things like our rejections or the mating, we fall into conversations effortlessly. It is really nice. Samuel even seems to be quite laid back and carefree tonight which is something I haven't seen in a while. It is very unexpected after how Alpha he went on me today. I'm just glad he has more to him than just his job.Even now, we sit in the nearly empty restaurant laughing our heads off at a story he is telling me
Even with so little effort to get ready this early in the morning Samuel can still look so good, like some kind of model or Greek God, with sculpted figures. Life isn't as fair to me.He is watching Dominic and Dylan with a carefully trained expression. I can tell by their reactions something is wrong. Dylan must have mind linked him and told him what was going on seeing as their expressions all mirror each other. I let the blanket fall to the bed when I take his hand and stand up with him. He places his hand around my waist protectively and walks me to the door.Dylan and Dominic respectively move out of our way and start down the hallway just ahead of us. From what I can tell, almost everyone is still in bed except for the few early risers, and some of the pack fighters that have been on boarder control overnight.They bow their heads at us respectively as we pass by them.I grow even more confused when the group traveling with us leads us outside. Kyle is now with us as well, and B
“And this is my room," I tell James as we come to the end of our tour. "Well, it will be when I fix it up," I correct myself.I push open the white door and flip the light switch on then take a look around. I have only ever been in this room one other time, so I am still getting used to it. It is definitely not as grand as Samuel's room, but it is still very nice and it's going to suit me perfectly. Everything is white and wood colored.Tomorrow I'll have Samuel take me into town and pick up some paint for it. I think it will look beautiful with half purple and half white walls with a thin border separating them. I can practically envision the whole thing."It's nice, I guess; for a girls room anyway," James says, looking around."Well I guess it's a good thing you don't have to live in it then," I laugh, slapping his shoulder teasingly.He walks further into the room and looks around before plopping down in the pale pink chair in front of the window. He kicks his feet up on the bed n
Kyle and Luka seem more than happy to accompany us into town. Today Kyle is being his usual funny, laid back self and it is a refreshing change from the past couple of days. I liked the funny Kyle much better than a serious Kyle.After an hour of torturing the guys with girly songs on the radio that Laura and I have chosen to listen to, we finally arrive at town.We all pile out of the vehicle one by one and make our way into the huge store. I already feel lost and I haven't even began looking for what I need. Kyle sees my overwhelmed look and offers to lead the way. Thankfully he knows his way around much better than I do.In my town we only had a small hardware store off Main Street and the selection there was very limited. Anything that wasn't used on an everyday basis had to be specially ordered. It took days or sometimes weeks to get what you needed. Being in a big city like this one really makes me realize how limited my hometown was.Here, I am like a fish out of water. This is
His lips are soft and gentle and they work in sync with mine. I'm not sure at what point it happens, but I quickly find my hands running through his hair and pulling him closer. I shock myself by how much I am enjoying the kiss.I have never really pictured myself kissing him or anyone else that wasn't my mate for that matter. But here, and now, it just feels right. I can't even begin to explain the emotions that are running through me.The moment is broken, sooner than I like, when Samuel chuckles and pulls away from me. He gently trails his hands up my arms that lead to his hair where my hands are entangled. He brings them down and holds them in his.My mind is reeling from our unexpected moment of passion and I am trying my best to make sense of it. I'm not sure what has overcome me, but it scares me more than I'd like to admit. I've never given in to someone so easily."Believe me; as much as I'd love to stay and see where this goes, you need to get ready. David will be here soon
It's now four hours since Samuel claimed me and I am still in a world of pain. I cry for hours on end because it is almost unbearable. If it were not for him holding me in his arms I'm sure the pain would be incredibly worse.My emotions are also all over the place as well and I can't think straight. I have never felt more bipolar in all my life. This is another reason for my tears. One minute I am fine and the next I am crying. The sheets on the bed are covered with blood and the room in the scent. It's a good thing I don't have an aversion to blood or I would be sick.At times I find myself hating Samuel for causing me to be in this extreme amount of pain and want to push him away. Though when I start to go through with it I back out and can't do it. I need, no want him next to me. His arms offer so much comfort. I think the claim is starting to forge the bond already and my wolf is accepting it. She has yet to make her appearance though. I can only hope that he has saved her.An ho