Chapter 5

Chapter 5. 

I woke up and did my morning routine like nothing happened last afternoon. That's what I always do, cry and then move forward, but I can't forget.

I can't do anything, I need to move forward but I'm just a human who also gets hurt. Though my heart aren't intact anymore, I can still feel it... The pain that is chasing mo everyday making my life so heavy and the bed of sorrow that I'm lying to because no one even tried to get me up.

I can't always pretend every day, I can't be brave every day because it's hard, it's totally hard for me to do that. I want to be true to myself for even just an hour or two.

I stepped out of the room and tried to find blade but he seems nowhere to be found. I tried going in every room, I even tried checking the last floor but he's not there. Did he left?

Where would he go? It's a great news right? But why do I feel sad for not seeing him? Oh hell erase that thought! I should celebrate because no one will ruin my day now. 

I contained myself, stop fooling yourself Aze.

I walked to the front door of this house to check if I can escape now although I'm still not planning to do so, just to find out that it's locked from the outside, I can't even open the backdoor, so he really made sure that I won't go? Well I can always use the veranda but as what I've said, I still don't have a plan to escape yet.

Not now because I know that he can easily track me down just like what he did in the first one. I have no escape in him, I know that.

And another is is I have many things that I want to know, including that book about vaewolves that is really so mysterious for me. There's something that is urging me to find out everything about it, I need to read the whole content of it. I'm so desperate to know it and I don't know why. I'm not even familiar in the word vaewolf so it really makes me thinking.

Also, I actually love reading books so it's an advantage to me.

I came back in the library to get the book, I brought it to my room to read it again even though I'm not sure if it's still blank but I'm hoping to find out more about it and to know how to unlock every pages of it, I think there's a secret word, button or something in it.

And to my surprise the first page already has it's content but it's different now from the last thing that I've read, hell! How can it possibly do that? I tried reading it and it says that i can read the whole content in the night of a blood moon which is my birthday. And there are only few creatures that can read it, a destined creature needs to have a hold of this book.

But speaking of my birthday? Is it just a coincidence or what? It's also my twenty-fifth birthday so It really gave me goosebumps. If it is, then I still have to wait for a month but I need to make sure that I am included to the chosen creatures that for me to read it, but how?

Then I will stay here 'til I found everything up, this can be related to me, hopefully, though I'm not sure, and I don't want to assume because it's totally so impossible, I don't even know who my parents are and what kind of person they are, as far as I know, they are just a normal person and not a vampire nor a werewolf, I mean that's insane right? I can't be me like what I'm thinking because I'm just a weak who can't even defend her life, maybe it's just my curiosity that is pushing me and it ain't really my true identity.

That's right! I'm just curious on what it can do, it's normal for me to be amazed at a certain thing, that's all Aze, that's all. I shouldn't think too deep because I'll just be disappointed of what I'll find out.

Then what should I do know? I ran out a ide when I heard a door opening and found blade who just arrived with bruises around his body and a serious face that'll surely intimidate whoever he'll pass through.

What happened? Did he had a fight with someone or did an enemy attacked him?

I immediately ran to get the first aid kit but stopped when I remembered that he can heal on his own, werewolves can always make their bruises and injuries disappear in just a second, maybe he's just not in the mood to heal himself, that's obvious actually.

And as what I expected, his wounds just disappeared in just a second, is the fight just near here? Because if not, he would've healed it on his way here.

"Where did you go? Have you been in a fight?" I asked continuously

"None of your business" He said coldly, looking at me with a blank face so I just rolled my eyes with his answer. None of my business my ass, of course it's my business, it's my responsibility to know what happened to the person that I'm with.

He just walked out left me alone in the living room without even answering any of my questions he such a cold-blooded guya, I followed him by my eyes, I think he'll change his clothes, it's full of blood stains but I know that it's not his bloods because he didn't have a serious injury, 

I'm not even suprised to witness this kind of thing, It's just normal for me, it's not that it's new to me because I myself experienced how evil humans and creatures can be and how heartless they are.

I went up to check on him but I heard him talking to someone in his phone, I don't want to eavesdrop but it's not my fault to overheard Thai conversation, it's his fault for not locking nor closing the door when he know from the first place that someone might here him. 

"Find everyone in his bloodline and kill them all! Don't even try to left even a piece of trash! I won't forgive them on what they did! How dare them hurt her without giving me enough reasons! They made her life miserable then I'll make sure that everyone of them will die even their family and everything related to them! Fuck them!" That the last thing that I heard before he ended the call. He was looking at his phone with blazing eyes a ng getted teeth and that's where I knew how angry he is. But what have I just heard?

Kill them? Who is he referring to?  I know that he is capable of killing but I never saw him this angry to someone. I wonder what they did to hit his nerves.

And who is the woman that he's referring to? Is it her girl? Is he cheating? Well that's ok, I'm just his mate anyway, we have nothing that is binding us but that mate thing, nothing more, nothing less.

Argh!! Here it is again, the pain just by thinking of him, what is it? Why am I hurt? I didn't noticed that a tear started streaming down my face but I just wiped it away. I just said that love isn't love existing between us so I have no right to demand anything nor to be angry about him having another woman.

Are you jealous Aze? Then you should fight it! This needs to stop and to be avoided.

I don't wanna get hurt again that's why I escaped but why is pain eating me for the nth time? Why is it taking over my whole being? Why am I crying again just because of a shallow reason?

It hurts, it felt like my heart have been stabbed by hundreds of knives that even my feet are getting weaker and weaker and my system are slowly turning off.

"Aze?" I heard him calling my name that's why I left, I dont want him to see me this way. I don't want him to assume anything which I think is true.

I'm overreacting again, I shouldn't be crying because I haven't confirmed it yet but I think mates have this feeling of intense love for each other and I just kept on denying that, but can he also feel it or it's just really a one-sided love?

With his speed he easily caught me and locked me in his arms with a tight hug from my back. Stop it Blade! you're just making me fall even more and I know that it'll be hard for me to resurface so please stop. 

"Why are you crying my Aze hm?" I heard his sweet whispers in my ears and I know that it's not necessary for him to do that. It gives me chills knowing that he's near me and hearing his cold yet alluring voice gave me goosebumps.

I think twice before answering. I'm shy, so shy and afraid to admit that I've already fallen for his charms.

"I know what you're thinking my love, I can read your mind, I always do. You have nothing to be jealous mi reina, it's you that I'm referring to" he made me look at him by turning me around to face him, he touched my face lightly with a smile drawn in his face and made me looks at him in the eye.

Why did his voice became so sweet all of a sudden?

"I can feel it when you're crying, and I can see every memory that you're thinking. And I won't apologize for killing every bloodline of anyone who made you this miserable, they deserve every misery that the world can give and I'll help the world in punishing them, your mate is an alpha after all.

So he saw and heard me? Though he's not there he witnessed how broke I am and I'm thankful that he didn't made fun of me just like what others did.

And wait, so he knows every emotion that I'm feeling even though we're not together? And am I hearing it right? Did he really avenge for me? Then why is my jealousy and anger melting by just his voice?

He lifted my face up for me to look at him in the eye and I closed my eyes as his face slowly go near mine, shortening our distance to each other.

"I love you Mi Reina, and I will always do"

That's the last thing that I heard before I felt a soft kiss placen on my lips. A kiss that captured me in more ways then one and will capture me again in again till death take over me.

"I love you too blade"