2. Beginning

"I am gonna catch you.." my six year old friend Kadu said while I giggled running away.

"No you can't catch me kadu.." three year old me said squeaking and running until he caught me and we both fell down on the grass giggling and laughing.

"See I told you I would catch you.." he laughed while I giggled trying to push him away but he caught both my hands.

"Kara.." he said my name looking intently at me with his blue eyes sparkling

"Yes kadu.." I said looking at him also.

"I want to do this.." he placed his lips on mine and after a second he pulled away while I looked at him.

"What was that?" I asked him

"It's called a kiss I saw my Mommy and Daddy doing it I asked Mommy what it was and she told me it was a kiss.."

"Okay.." I said nodding my head, "But why did you kiss me?" I asked not understanding what it was all about

"Because I like you.."

"You like me?" I asked

"Yes Kara I do.."

" Okay since I like Rama too, should I also kiss her? Oh and Daddy and Mommy too.." I grinned at him 

"No Kara.." he said shaking his head, "you are only suppose to kiss me.."

"But why.." I asked

"Because because because I like you and because you are my best friend so you should only kiss me, here.." he said placing his finger on my lips.

"Okay kadu.." I nodded my head

"Come let's go play with others.." he got up and then helped me up. We both giggled him holding my hand running over to our friends.

The scene changed and I saw four year old me sitting on the carpet in the living room playing with my dolls while my Mommy and Daddy sat on the couch watching TV. 

"Ding-dong.." the door bell rung

"I will just go see.." my Mommy said going over to open the door.

"Good morning aunt.." I heard his voice and gasped.

 'He is here.' I squeaked getting up running to the door and sure enough my friend Kadu was there. He lived in a different country all the way in America and only came to London once every year for a vacation with his family.

"Kadu.." I said squeaking and hugging him

"Hi Kara I missed you.." he said hugging me back.

"Mommy.." I looked at my Mommy after kadu and I broke from the hug, "Can I go outside and play with kadu?" I asked giving her the puppy dog eyes.

"No Kaira it's cold outside.." my Mommy said sternly

"But Mommy.." I whined

"Please aunt we will stay inside the house and my Mommy and Daddy is also there.." Kadu said also giving my Mommy the puppy dog eyes. She just chuckled

"How can I resist this, okay you can go.."

" Yay!!"  both me and Kadu squeaked and giggled running to his house.

"I bought you a gift.." he said leading me towards his room 

"Really tell me what is it?" I asked excitement clear in my voice he just laughed as we both entered his room and there was a big box on the bed

"Is that the gift Kadu?" I asked happily

"Yes Kara go on open it.." I jumped on the bed riping off the wrapping paper. But the box wouldn't open

"Here let me help.." kadu said also jumping on the bed helping me open the box.

I gasped a wide smile making my lips it's home

"You got me a big dolly thank you so much Kadu.." I said jump on him hugging him tightly. I caught him by surprise as he fell on the bed me on top of him my arms still around his neck, "Thank you thank you thank you so much Kadu.."

"You are welcome Kara.." he said as I got off of him, " and it's not a big dolly it's a teddy bear.."

"A tadu bar?" I asked

"No a teddy bear.."

"Ohh teddy bear.." I said getting it out of the box it was really big and brown.

"Do you like it?" he asked searching my eyes

"Yes kadu I love it.." I said smiling widely

"Kara I want to ask you something.." Kadu said looking nervous

"What is it Kadu?" I asked

"I uh I want you to be my girlfriend.."

"Girlfriend what's that?" I asked looking at him intently

"Yes girlfriend it's when I like you very much.."

"Okay I will be your girl friend I like you too.." I said smiling at him while he smiled also

"Come on let's go play with our friends.." he said helping me out of the bed and we went to play***

I woke up with a start realising that it was just a

dream and I was in my room aka the basement.

I removed the small blanket I had that barely even covered me up but luckily it was just a little bit enough to help me with this London weather.

Getting up from the small bed where I slept, I stood on my tiptoes looking out the window only to see that it was almost dawn.

I dragged my tiny battered body up the stairs towards the kitchen preparing breakfast for my step mom and step sister then made sure I swept the house and washed the dishes I was only thirteen years old. By the time I was done with everything it was time for my step mom and sister to wake up

They both walked gracefully down the stairs and thankfully they ignored me and went straight to eat breakfast while I stood there. I had already stolen some food and ate it though if she finds out I will be in trouble

Luckily she seemed to be in a good mood today as she was smiling and busy on her phone.

Seeing I had nothing else to do, I got myself lost in my own thoughts thinking about my boyfriend Kaden and wondering why he and his family didn't come this year.  I had planned to ask his parents to take me along with them to America but now it was almost mid October and they haven't  showed up I sighed. They probably won't be coming this year.

My thoughts drifted back to the days when my mom was alive. 

Back then everything was beautiful until the day she died when I was only five.

Since I was too young and needed a Mom, my Dad decided to remarry. I wasn't happy about it but after my Dad talked me into it I decided to give her a chance and for the first one year Mrs Smith lived with us, she was sweet and caring until one night she argued with my Dad and everything started going west. By then my little sister Connie was only six months old

She began abusing me verbially and telling me to do chores but she never hit me. Every time I whine and complained she would throw a  tantrum blackmailing Dad and telling him that I didn't like her. And whenever I told dad about the things she was doing to me she would accuse me of being a liar.

The day my Dad died was the worst day of my life, it was the beginning of level two abuse as she elevated from only abusing me verbially to hitting me.

She even made me quit school and would beat me everyday, I was afraid to tell anyone thinking that if I did then she would kill me. 

I would be beaten for even the silliest things and would be punished to go without food for days.

The only days I would have a decent meal was when Kaden and his family came for a vacation. They would invite me to dinner and give me money to use for food.

 Even though Mrs Smith made me quit school, that didn't stop me from learning. whenever Connie's's private tutor came I would sit behind the couch and learn.

I had used some of the money Kaden and Raima gave me to buy a book and pencil.

One day my step Mom finally found me and she beat me up badly gosh if I had my way I swear I would have left this house but I am still a minor I can't leave till I am eighteen old enough to take care of myself.

You probably must be wondering why non of my Mom or Dad's relatives took me in after my parents died well, I don't know what happened but non of them ever visited us.  Sometimes I even got to wonder whether the two of them fell from the heavens or something.

"brat!" Mrs Smith's voice broke me from my line of thoughts.

"Yes ma'am.." I answered my head lowered.

"This place is not clean. Make sure you clean it up and do the laundry before I return.." She ordered going out of the house while I sighed.

I had literally just finished cleaning it and she said it wasn't clean this woman was something else but I am thankful she didn't hit me.