"You know you don't want her, alpha. You are taking her from everyone else because you know you can. Because you know she is only a lowly omega who will go with you wherever you ask her to go." Simon pulled me closer to him, and Alpha Austin nodded.
He slowly let go of my hand, a small smile on his face. "How about I show you just how true that is?" He stepped away from me, the same smile still on his face."I won't let her go with you."Alpha Austin laughed, then looked at me. "I will wait for you at home." He said simply and turned away.When he had said I was the one he wanted, I had dared to let my crazy heart flutter. There was no mate bond between us, so what would I count on to bring him back to me? Nothing at all.Knowinh that, I slowly released myself from simon's grip. I had nothing to bank on, and now, with just one taste, his lips on my neck, his hands on my waist, I am like some stupid she wolf on drugs."You want to prove him right? You want to leave and run to him like some lost puppy so he knows he has complete control over you?"But he does. He controls the part of me that controls everything else.I suck in a deep breath. "Excuse me, Simon. Please."He didn't try to stop me anymore as I walked away, my fists clenched. The alpha's home was on the far end of the pack, on completely opposite sides with the pack house. I stopped just as I got to the front, my heart pounding like crazy.I was being a fool, I know. I wanted him too much and I know he knows that too. He doesn't think I am worth foghting for, so why am I here? Because I want to fight for him? What if it gets too hard?Despite my wolf cowering like crazy inside me, I turn away from the house. I shouldn't go. I am an omega. I am also not his mate. The omega and alpha love doesn't happen here. I am being delusional."Were you thinking of leaving?" Austin was in front of me, his hair falling on his sides as he watched me through his lashes."I am not your mate. What would I be doing here?" I asked him, but inside I hoped he would tell me not to go. Because just like he said to Simon, I was the one he wanted.He walked to me slowly. "In the eyes of the world...and mine, you have nowhere else to go but here." He said it like an order.I bit down on my lip summoning courage. I was already getting greedy. I never even got to stand in the same place as him back then. And now, I was behaving like a fool because circumstances had favoured me and brought me right to his knees. Because those circumstances knew that was exactly where I wanted to be."I will stay at the pack house tonight." I said and started to walk away.Before I knew it, his hand held my arm and drew me back to him. I opened my mouth to say something, before his lips came crashing down on mine, stealing the breath out of me.His hand weave onto my waist and bring me up, so my legs wrapped around his waist. Once I was stable, his hand laced into my hair as he slowly parted my lips.This was the taste I have imagined for so long. I didn't realize when my eyes closed, and my hands fell on his chest, then his hair, then the back of his neck.There was so much of him to explore, so much of him that I wanted to love, so much of him that I couldn't wait to run my hands on...I didn't realize when we entered the house, I just heard the click of the door as he closed it, and my back hit the wall.He never left my lips as we went upstairs towards his room, most probably. My back suddenly hit the bed as he lay me on it, then let his arms hold him up as he hovered above me.His deep red eyes were even darker, and it got a shade darker with every uneven breath I let out."Austin..." I said, but it sounded like a moan. A gasp. The name I had woken up with on my lips every night since the thanksgiving.His hands slowly went through my hair, and his dark smike widened every second. My heart was beating like crazy inside me as he slowly lowered himself, till I could feel it on my face is his lashes moved."How would I have known such an unconventional entanglement would result from that look you gave me at the thanksgiving?" He said, and chuckled."What do you mean?"He didn't bother answering it, as he claimed my lips again. I shamelessly let him, his hands cupping my waist and slowly massaging. It wasn't my place, but with every kiss, with each stroke of his fingers in my hair, I became greedy.All, they say is fair in love and war, isn't it?This was both love and war. I hadn't asked for this..but now that it was here specifically, him, on top of me, kissing me like he knew how I wanted to be kissed...how would I dare to not want more? What kind of stupid she wolf would I be to not crave more?My hands wrapped around his body too, my hand slowly riding up his simple grey shirt.He suddenly stopped and smiled at me, then removed my hair from my face."Is...something wrong?" I said, doubting if I would be able to hear him from the loud beating of my heart in my ears.He laughed and sat up, his shirt offering me an irresistible view of his back. It was almost hard to believe that I had actually had my hand there just a minute ago.He turned to me, one of his brows raised. "How could you love me when even I can't love myself?"He seemed solemn. Cold. And the next thing I did, I don't know who to blame on.I got off and came in front of him, and ever so slowly, sat on his lap, and wrapped my hand around his neck. He looked at me like he wasn't surprised.Like he had countless woman do this to him before. But I was determined to be different. I was determined to be the one in the end. Selfish, I know. But the concert of love is selfish."I am sorry, Austin." I said, watching his eyes. He only slowly blinked as he waited for me to say more. "I am sorry, but...Catherine can't have you anymore."Austin's P.O.V.I took the remaining steps towards the large burial ground, the single rose I had plucked from my recent gardening hobby dangling from my fingers. I hated the amount of time it has taken me to come here, but at least I am making my way to her now, and I hope I let myself get to the very end.The grave was still new, and I found myself slowly kneeling toward it, and I dropped the single flower I'd brought. It will wilter and dry up, unlike my love for her. Unlike this undying love I still feel after so long.The headstone had only three letters written in cursive. "I love you."Nothing more. Because I had no words at all to say to her. In front of her, I am a sinner, and I will probably always be. I have no chance for forgiveness with her. She left, long ago, and in her wake a gaping hole.I let out a long sigh. If Hazel were here, she would have said I am a little too young to sigh like that. I smiled, shaking my head a little.I touched the grave again, my fingers sl
9 MONTHS LATERHow long can nine full months be? Probably a little too short when you are anticipating to die. But even shorter with a husband who dotes on you like Austin does.Austin received the congrats half heartedly, and brought in some of thbest healers across different packs to wait on me. Sometimes, I felt a little too protected, but I knew he just wanted to keep me safe.Everyday as I watched my pregnancy grow bigger, I felt the fear surge higher. How would things be for them after I die? Would Austin be able to look past my sacrifice and love the children because they belong to him? It sometimes made me wonder, but I also, learned to push it behind me.Sometimes, I caught him just spaced out a little, and sometimes after I slept, he would hold my hand and end up sleeping on a chair. He didn't seem to mind any of it at all, and didn't show me how worried he was also. For that, I was utterly grateful, more than he knew.I stood in front of the open door, watching the sunset.
The hall looked nothing like the unfinished one that Austin had shown me just yesterday, and I knew there was definitely no way it could have been done without having to pull all nighters.Dark red and black roses adorned a cleared path, and petals filled the floor I was supposed to walk on. Most of the pack were there, and in the front I could see Catherine, tears glistening brightly in her eyes, yet a small smile on her face.I smiled back at her as Austin slowly accompanied me, the train of my dress behind held up by an omega, and the scroll of the Luna's oath waiting on an elevated stand on which Austin would leave me to go to.He gave me a small reassuring smile as he left my side and then made his way to the stand, a happy smile playing on his lips.The standing ovation that had welcomed us was still ongoing, and Austin let it go on for a few more seconds, before he finally raised a hand and firmly clenched his fist. It immediately died down and he lowered his hand."It is an ho
We practiced a lot more, my feet slowly getting accustomed to the introductory steps of the dance while only barely escaping making mistakes towards the middle. I never did get too deep, as Austin just told me to focus on the beginning, and he will ensure we don't make a disaster at the end."Just go with my flow, okay?" he said to me and I ordered, allowing him to lead. It was rather convenient, and I found it easier.We retired to bed after a tired dinner, his hand clasped around my waist, drawing me into him, while his other hand stretched under my head to support it. Before I knew it, I was asleep, his slow, even breaths serving to lure me even deeper.I turned on to my back as the bright sunlight assaulted my eyes, then pulled a pillow over my head to shut it out completely. I didn't even care that Austin wasn't in bed, I just know I needed this sleep. "No, not that. I will inspect it myself in the next thirty minutes, so just move on to other things. Spotlight? Well, Hazel isn
I woke up with a start, feeling the empty bed around me. I had realized Austin wasn't anywhere near me when I stirred and for some reason it just scared the shit out of me. Maybe because things have been going a little too well and I am scared of anything jeopardizing it, or maybe I was having having bad dream."Hey. You are going to get a headache doing that." Austin said, walking over to where I sat. He held me in his arm, and scanned my face."You are here.""Of course, I was just on the phone with the gamma, I did not want to wake you up. Sorry if that startled you."I disentangled myself from him, leaned away and smiled, feeling my fears immediately drown. "No, I am fine. Maybe I was having a bad dream."He nodded. "I'm sorry."I smiled at him and leaned back on the bead headrest. "You know, I just realized...I never really asked what my duties as luna are."The slight furrow in his brows cleared off and he smiled. "Always so thoughtful. I believe during the crowning, you will ge
"This or this?" I asked Austin as we went over the dresses that were brought for the luna ceremony. He had commenced preparations immediately after, telling me how we needed to plan the world's best Luna ceremony in three days.The omegas waiting on me seemed to have an opinion, even as Austin thinned his eyes at the dresses."Why do you keep picking purple dresses? I think you look good in red." He said, his eyes slowly moving towards the red dress I have left on the bed."It's your favorite, Austin."He rolled his eyes and walked to me, then picked out the red dress. It was designed to hug my body from above, and then spread out into the tulles filled with satin towards the end.He put it in front of me, and then nodded. "I believe this will look good when you wear it.""Fine. I will try it on."He nodded and collected the other dresses, then gestured for the omega to leave. He turned away and closed his eyes as I wore the dress."I can't zip, Austin." I called out to him and he gav
I stirred a little and turned to the other side, and my eyes fell on Austin. He was sitting facing me, his elbow propped half on the headrest, his eyes fixed on me. My eyes slowly widened as I straightened."Are we here already?" I asked, my voice sleepy.He slowly nodded. "Yes.""You should have woken me up. You must have been tired from driving all day." I squinted my eyes at him. The sun was setting behind him, the sheen causing his hair to turn a golden brown, and make his red eyes a little lighter than they actually are.He smiled and extended his hand to me. "I thought you looked too pretty that way. I wouldn't mind waiting for you."I smiled, and he let go of my hand, then got out of the car. He went around to my seat and opened my door for me, and waited till I got out."Go on. I will bring in our stuff."I nodded and went in, my arms stretching on their own. My neck felt a little stiff, and once I made my way into the house, I found a couch to rest and I just went on it.When
I felt the entire world come to a stand still as the healer's words hit me again and again, like an ambush of arrows."Me...or the baby?" I asked, a little in a daze. It felt like I was in some faraway place, watching the girl who looked exactly like me sitting in front of the healer.I slowly turned to Austin whose eyes were wide and reddened. Unlike me, he seemed to clearly understand what the healer had said, and seemed to be trying to accept it too."What do you mean?" I asked, feeling hot tears sting the back of my eyes. I blinked rapidly, but it only made them rush down faster, and I felt the warmth on my cheeks."One of you will make it out of labor. It can't be both of you.""Is there no other way? Is there nothing? An offering? A sacrifice? A prayer?"I swallowed on hearing Austin's voice. He sounded just as broken as I was, and my chest filled up."None. That is what's written."Austin gave a slight pause. "What if she doesn't give birth?"I turned to him, my eyes wide. "No
I held Austin's arm tight as she took a step closer to me, and her eyes slowly drifted across to Austin. I turned instinctively to him, but his face was set in expressionless too, his hand holding my waist to keep me on my feet. Seeing him so determined gave me a big of confidence and I swallowed as I turned back to the healer."So she is the one. The substitute I have heard of.""Just check her, healer. Her status does not affect anything." Austin said, his voice cold.She flickered her eyes to him, then back at me. "All of that is good and all, but...do you not realize how powerful a mate bond is? How can an entire pack be so nonchalant towards a mate bond, especially that of the alpha? What were you thinking?"My breath hitched as her eyes thinned in a little judgemental look. I could tell she didn't have good news for us. My eyes lifted to Alpha Evander behind us. He looked a little disgusted too, like he absolutely didn't understand how Austin could disregard a mate bond to be wi