Accepting his rejection

PENIEL

I sniffed as I stared at him.

I wasn’t angry at him, I was ashamed of myself. My own father couldn’t care less about me, why would anyone care? It’s just a fucking circle of abuse that I was stuck inside. To think I had shamelessly given my body to him.

“Why do I get paired with people who don’t want me? Why me?” I mumbled to myself, my heart breaking in a million pieces.

“Please set me free,” I found myself pleading, he smiled at me as he leaned closer.

“I bought you, remember? You don’t get to tell me what to do,” He said, and I sighed tiredly, but I couldn’t help but ask.

“You don’t want me! Why did you make love to me?” I asked, hoping he could at least tell me he feels the same way I did because of the mate bond.

“You want to know how I feel?” He asked and I nodded.

“Lust, that’s what I felt. I just wanted to explore you!” He snapped, and I looked at the bed that was stained with blood.

“You monster! You just took my virginity all because of lust? I hate you! How could you!!” I yelled. 

I’m crazy right? Because I didn’t say it out loud, I had just imagined saying those words to him, words I wasn’t brave enough to say to his face.

“I have someone I’m in love with, though she’s not my mate, I intend to spend the rest of my life with her, to me she’s my Luna,” He said, pointing at the picture I saw earlier.

My heart tightened inside of me, and I found it hard to breathe. I had to open my mouth so air could pass through.

I couldn’t bear it anymore. I attempted to leave, but he pulled me close, so close that our lips were inch apart.

“What’s your name?” He asked.

“Peniel Diego,” I sniffed.

“ Good!”

I sighed, wondering what he was up to, but his next words drained the life out of me. 

“I Alpha Luciano Emilio, rejects Peniel Diego as my mate,” He said and my eyes widened in shock.

I could feel the piercing pain, coursing through my whole body as my body vibrates continuously. I stared at him, as tears flowed down, my eyes hurting already as I wondered what I’ve done to deserve this.

I was so damn foolish!

As I opened my mouth to ask why he’d do this to me. How could he reject me after taking my innocence? I had hoped he saw me more than just a treaty. How wrong was I!

As I battled with unheard painful emotions, I shut my eyes tightly only to open it with a resolve stronger than the pain.

Unexpected words ran out of my mouth.

“I, Peniel Diego, accept Alpha Luciano Emilio’s rejection,” I gasped, painfully.

The pain contradicted with the resolve in my words. I felt a lump in my throat when I realized what I had just done.

What if he chase me away, what would happen to my mom? What have I done! I made to run out of the room when the door brushed open and she walked in.

The woman I saw him with earlier, I watched as she gleefully passed me by.

“Julie.” He smiled as the woman walked closer to him.

She shrugged me off with a push as she walked up to him, kissing him on his lips while staring at me.

“He’s mine bitch, whether he’s your mate or not,” She said with a smirk, her eyes dangling between triumph and hidden jealousy.

“You knew? And you let him have his way with me?” I asked and she smiled.

“What should I have done? I wasn’t here when you were moaning like a loose dog,” She lashes out, and I chuckled dryly in confusion.

“You let your man cheat on you with someone else? Is that love?” I asked.

“Grow up kid, he’s an Alpha. He can have as many women as he wants. It’s his harem. Every other woman you saw earlier belongs to him. I just feel sorry for you because you think you’re entitled to him because he’s your mate,” She laughed sarcastically.

Her laughter seemed to have slowly woken me up. I wondered what I’ve gotten myself into.

To think I felt special.

He was the first man that treated me right, but I was wrong. She knew I was just an easier target to them, the weaker one.

The mate bond made me one.

“Leave, I’d call on you when I need you,” He said, ignoring our squabbles.

Without thinking twice, I hurriedly dragged my feet as I left the room. The last thing I wanted was to be anywhere near him.

As I walked out of the door, I saw the guard who brought me here earlier.

“Follow me,” He said and I slowly walked behind him. I was still feeling sore in between my legs.

“Move it bitch! I have no time to waste," he half yelled, sounding angry.

I hurried my step, wondering why he had a problem with me, someone I hadn’t met before. 

After walking for some minutes, he got to a wooden door, and he stood in front of it.

“Here’s your room,” He gave me the keys and he walked away.

I sighed as I opened the door. One look at the room got me dejected. The room was nothing to write home about.

They was no bed in it, except for a wooden chair which I guessed was in place of the bed. I wasn’t in a position to be picky, so I laid down on the chair, ignoring the cobwebs around the room, I was really tired and I needed to rest:

I slowly closed my eyes and it didn’t take long before I fell asleep.

…..

“You think this is her room?” I heard a voice say inside my sleep.

“It is, the guard told me so,” Another whispered as the door crept open.

I heard their footsteps approaching and I slowly opened my eyes to see the lady that was glaring at me while I was being taken away by the guards earlier on. She was with another lady I couldn’t recognize.

“What’s going on here?” I asked as I hurriedly jumped down.

“So you’re the alpha’s mate?” She asked.

“Kimberly, it’s confirmed already. You don’t need to ask,” The other lady said to the mean one.

“You think you can just come here and take him away from us? I had to beg my father so he could allow me be part of Alpha Luciano’s harem, and you want to take that away from me?” She asked, while I stared at her, wondering why she’d do something like that.

“I never wanted to be here, I was forced to,” I replied.

Kimberly smirked and walked to me. “You were forced?” She asked with contempt as she suddenly grabbed my hair.

“You bitch!” She said pulling my hair harder. 

“What are you doing!” I screamed, trying to push her away but she wouldn’t let me, having no other option, I grabbed her  hair and started pulling it too. 

“Let go of my hair bitch!” She shouted and immediately other ladies rushed to us.

I thought she wanted to stop us from fighting, instead they ganged up on me and they beat the hell out of me, and this made me realize something.

Alpha Luciano was my hell, not my mate.