giving up that easy

I woke up somewhere in the middle of the night to a piercing pain.

It hurt. I took in a deep breath, trying to get rid of the pain but it was pointless.

The pain only intensified.

I bit back my lower lips, trying to keep the pain to myself.  but it was impossible. The screams tore from my lips as my eyes blurred from the pain.

The guards rushed in, trying to shut me up but it did not work. They entered into the cell, trying to pull me out but it was a horrible idea “No!!!!” I screamed, almost begging them not to touch me, but they ignored me, pulling me out of the cell and out where the cool air could touch me.

I sighed for a while, the sensation stopping for a little bit ‘those fuckers’ I thought to myself, looking at the direction of the pack house. ‘They are actually mating’ I thought, the bitter feeling settling in my chest.

The pain started again, causing me to blink several times to get the pain to stop, but as usual, it was pointless. This time, the pain felt as though my gut was going to be ripped out.

“What is going on” I heard someone call, but it felt as though the person was speaking from a distance, everything felt hollow.

“She just… She just collapsed.” Another person said, panic very much evident in their  voice.

“Help me” I said, stretching my hands hoping that someone would take it. But none. They looked at me like I was some plague before I passed out.

*

The constant beeping woke me up, sighing as I saw the white….

I sat up, looking around. This was nothing like the pack clinic.

“You are awake” those familiar voice that sent a ripple down my spine said, causing me to look at him. I turned my head, sizing him up.

He looked like he had not slept in days but somehow, he still looked absolutely gorgeous.

“I am sorry I was late” He said, the voice rolling of his tongue just the right way. “It was difficult…

“You came” I said, not able to stop myself from smiling like a lunatic.

He looked at me for a while, as though he was studying me. “Did you think I would not?” His face turned serious, looking at me for a full minute.

I felt uncomfortable under his gaze, looking at me like he was trying to get the answer out of my head directly.

“It’s just…. you are the Alpha of the biggest and the most fierce pack, I did not really think….”

“Now listen to me…” He said in this tone that gave no room for argument. I felt my lips seal p instantly, my throat tightening from the fear. “Nothing, comes above you, absolutely nothing” I nodded, even though I was finding it difficult to believe.

“Do you understand me?” He said, grabbing my hands, making me look straight into his eyes.

I tried not to flinch as he torched me, but he noticed, looking at me like I slapped him right across the face.

“Are you… Are you afraid of me?” He said, looking at me with something flashing in his eyes.

“No..” It was silent for a while “Yes…” He took in a deep breath. There was absolutely no spell that was going to save me from him if he decided to get mad at me. “I promise you, it’s not like that, I just…” He said nothing, looking at me for a while before he stood up to leave.

I bit my lips, trying to get him to come back but the words managed to stick to my throat.

I let out a sigh. Tugging at my hair “You just keep finding ways to fuck this up, don’t you?” I said to myself, looking at the wall beside me.

I sat in the same spot for what felt like hours, my bum going numb from sitting in one position for so long but I was too scared to move or even say anything in case he came back and did not find me in the exact spot that he left me in. 

“Hey” a knock came from the door, making it’s way into the room before I could even say come in or otherwise.

“Hi?” I said, unsure of what to say.

“I am Vallery” she said, stretching her hands to me. I took it, looking at her sceptically as I did.

“I am..”

“I know who you are” She said sharply, cutting me off. “The whole pack has been talking about you since you came.”

I nodded “Oh” I said since I did not really know what to say. 

“I wanted to see the person that would be taking my spot” it felt as though for a few minutes, my ears stopped working.

I blinked, looking at her for the longest “Excuse me?” My voice came out softly.

“Nothing for you to worry about actually.” She said with a smile. For some reason, her smile reminded me of Esme. “It was not going to work out. He was never mean, just acted indifferently around me, and since he  came back from your pack, the mere mention of you made his eyes lit up in ways nobody even thought could be possible.

“Oh.” I said again.

“That seems to be the only thing you can say” She said, a look of worry on her face.

“I am sorry” I said. It was quiet for a while, with me barely able to think.

“I like your hair, is it natural?” I grabbed my hair, feeling very vulnerable with it.

Most packs were not tolerant of witches the only reason mine was, was because of my mum and the Alpha all those years back. He abolished the law against witches but you could still see the snares that some people gave us when we passed.

“I wold rather not talk about it” I muttered, tucking my hair behind my ears like it was going to do something significant.

She nodded, not saying anything for a while.

I cleared my throat, trying to ignore this awkward stare that she gave to me, like I was some specimen she was trying to figure out.

“I do love him though” She finally said, snapping me out of whatever daze I was in. I looked at her. “I hope you do know that I am not giving up that easy though…