The Anatomy of Wind: Beware!

I continued to live in such Hypocrisy, trying to fit in and co-exist in both lifestyles: Normal society and My  monstrosity Lifestyle.   Days come and go, but I don’t think “Days” have the same length, or it’s only in our minds, while in reality there’s no such thing as time. Days being days, they will last a minute when you are happy and comfortable, and also last a century when you are in pain and agony.    It was a very hard situation to be in while in Love with someone, a serious relationship with marriage coming soon. It felt like gasping for air at the bottom of the ocean, I had to wake up in the night, watch myself turning into the Arachne-like Monster completely helpless .  Day by day, I couldn’t stop thinking about wha

Though everyone was supposed to spend Christmas with their families, my dad convinced everyone that they were going to be with us on Christmas day and they both agreed. Christmas morning, everyone was excited but me.   I don’t enjoy those gatherings where they’ll ask for a firstborn to deliver some speeches: it’s just I am not that social.     Taylor and Cory were helping mum and others in the kitchen, I and Dad were finishing some decorations, While Brittney was playing with Billy.   After a few moments, everything was ready, and the party began. As usual, it was my turn to deliver a speech, and I did well as it was a kinda family tradition.  

“Hey, what’s wrong? Wait a minute, I know that look,” she said, looking at me. “um, I think I forgot something” “like a credit card?” She said, completely confident. “I think so”  “Fear not, for miss T will save the day!” she said posing like a superhero! I sighed in relief and laughed “saying oh! No save me, save me!” mimicking someone in trouble, which made both of us crack a smile.   Normally she was extroverted, unlike me, but by hanging out a lot, she ended up being infected by my secret introvercy. Like me, when she’s around unfamiliar company, you might think that she’s deaf or something. But she’s not exactly l

Before going to bed, I took my diary and wrote down a quote from Lise Kiberwa's poetry collection called "Wind", Completely for no reason at all!:   >>Like the wind, I don't want to belong anywhere. Just like the wind, I want to be felt but not seen. Like the wind, I want to both strengthen and extinguish the wildfire.  Like the wind, I want to stress some poor old lady gently sweeping her compound by bringing all the dirt she's been removing.  Although I want to be like the wind, my vulnerable heart needs a home.<< That night, we chatted about that day and how her  adopted parents are my real parents. she was totally stunned but I can tell that she already knew ab

She drove me to the metropolis and after saying goodbyes she headed back home and I proceeded to the agency responsible for trainees. Because I was the top in my class, I became so popular on the board that I started to make money by working along with actual engineers. Operating engines, repairing hibernation pods, repairing and designing 3D printers, and all sorts of mechanical and technological development were my specialty, plus I had knowledge about programming and geography so I wasn’t treated like a trainee but a normal scientist. ASB had a mission to go to space on ISS in the next two months, so they thought that it would be a good idea if they added a program of