Chapter 19.1

Chapter 19.1

"Ouch!" Wyatt exaggeratedly screamed. I just sighed and ignore his antics.

Nakaupo kaming dalawa sa paanan ng kama ng hotel room namin. Pagkatapos damputin ng hotel crews si Fred, Wyatt brought me here. I decided to mend his wounds and bruises since he doesn't want to go to the hospital. 

Ang tigas ng ulo!

Ilang beses ko siyang pinilit na pumunta ng hospital para magamot ang sugat niya pero mapilit din siya. Ilang beses niya ding sinabi na ayos lang siya kahit na may pasa siya sa mukha. Mabuti na lang at hindi siya masyadong napuruhan.

We're just sitting acrossed each other. Wyatt was the only one who's talking since we came here earlier. I keep my mum even if I wanted to yell at him for making me so worried. 

Kay hindi rin ako nagsasalita, kasi parang wala pa akong lakas para sabihin sa kaniya ang totoo. Natatakot ako.

I can't even looked at him straight in the eyes right now. Pakiramdam ko malalaman niya kaagad kung ano ang tumatakbo sa isip ko.

Matapos lagyan ng betadine ang gilid ng labi niya, kumuha ako ng panibagong bulak at nilagyan ng betadine. Umayos ako sa pagkakaupo at humarap kay Wyatt. He grimaced the moment his eyes laid upon the cotton ball I'm holding. 

"I can do this," he said. He tried to snatch the cotton ball away from me but I was fast to pull it away from him. 

I didn't say anything, I just gently tap the cotton on his wounds. It's already swollen, I've already clean the dried bloods earlier. He was just silent the whole time and I was too. 

"Care to tell me what happened?" He suddenly asked that made me jump a little. Instead of answering him, I focused myself in searching the band-aid from the first-aid kit.

Nang makakita ako ng band-aid, kinuha ko 'yon at pinunit ang sisidlan. Narinig ko lang na bumuntong-hininga si Wyatt, pero hindi pa rin siya nagsasalita. Pareho lang kaming nakikipagramdamang dalawa. 

I gently tap the band-aid on his right cheekbone and still has no plan of answering him. 

Huminga ako nang malalim at inayos ang mga gamit. I didn't talk to him, I made myself busy just to avoid his question. 

"Maybe I deserve to know?" He added. I remained silent until I felt him beside me. He lift my chin using his fingers and dig my soul using only my eyes. "Were you scared? What else did he do? Tell me," he gently asked that made my heart twist in pain. 

I tried to open my mouth but I failed to utter any words. He sighed and hold both of my cheeks using his large hands. He traced my eyes where traces of dried tears can be found. 

He left small kisses on my eyes before he pulled away inches from me and stare directly into my eyes. 

"I— I..." I got so nervous the moment I opened my mouth to speak. I tear away my stare from him. 

Boung ingat naman niyang hinawakan ang baba ko at inangat para magtagpo ulit ang tingin naming dalawa.

"What is it hm? Tell me," malumanay niyang saad at hinaplos ang buhok ko. His voice is assuring me, soothing every fiber of my being.

Ito na naman ang sobrang bilis na pagkabog ng dibdib ko sa sobrang kaba at takot sa maaaring sabihin niya, lalong-lalo na ang magiging desisyon niya pagkatapos. 

"Fred—" nahihirapan kong banggit sa pangalan ng lalaki. His words earlier hunt my mind until now.

"What about him?" Nagpipigil siya ng galit niya habang tinatanong ako. 

Napalunok naman ako at napakurap-kurap bago sinagot ang katanungan niya. 

"Siya 'yong unang naging client ko bilang escort," tuloy-tuloy kong saad at nagpapasalamat akong hindi ako nautal sa kabila ng kaba at sa bikig na nasa lalamunan ko.

I heard him gasp and frustratedly thread his fingers between his messy hair. My whole system is in haywire and I don't know what to do. Gusto ko siyang lapitan pero natatakot ako.

"I'm sorry. I'm so sorry if ngayon ko lang sinabi sa'yo," nahihirapang saad ko. Unti-unti na ring tumutulo ang mga luha ko sa pisngi ko nang makita ko kung gaano siya naapektuhan.

"I want to kiss every part of your body where he touched you, if that's the only you could forget that bastard. In that way, only my touches and kisses are all you could remember," he sincerely said after his eyes scan every part of me. 

My heart started to beat repeatedly and I can't help but to cry silently in front of him. 

How could this man made me so special and important? How could he embrace my dark past just like that? How could he put my heart at ease when all he ever did was to stare at me? Hug me like I'm all that matters to him? What did I do in my past life to meet him now?

Do I really deserve him?

"If only I met you before you met him, love," saad niya habang tinititigan ang mga mata ko gamit ang mga malamlam niyang mga mata na puno ng pagsisisi. "I was so careless to leave you alone. I should've stayed at your side. None of it could've happen if I stayed," he added. His voice was full of regrets and guilt. I can't take that. I can't hear any of those. 

"Hush... It's not your fault. None of it was your fault, okay?" I whispered to him while searching for his hand to hold it.

It was mine. From the start it was all mine. 

"For the second time, I failed to protect you." He bowed down his head as he said those words to me. 

I was lost and puzzled but I didn't mind any of those, instead, I made him lift his head to look at me. I kissed his forehead. 

"You never did. Your embrace is enough to protect me, from any harm and pain," I said. Those words, every words I said. I meant it. I meant every of it like my life depended on it. 

He stared at my eyes for a long time before he drop his dark eyes on my lips. I followed the movement of his eyes that made me stare at his firm ones too. I gulped as desire starting to take over my whole system. Staring into his eyes right now also means throwing myself into the fire and funny how I'm willing to be burn.

I tried to open my mouth but I closed it again. I just cleared my throat to lessen the heavy atmosphere around us. What I did caught his attention. 

"As much as I want to kiss you right now, I can't." He raspily whispered without breaking our eye contact. His minty breathed fanned my lips, and I couldn't help but to taste it using my tongue. 

He was watching me silently. His adam's apple bobbed up and down while still looking at me. 

"Why not?" I don't know where did I get the confidence to ask him that, but I just did.

"Why, not?" He asked frowning his forehead. His lips tugged upward, while arching his left brow. He caress my hair and tuck it behind my ear. 

"Bakit ayaw mo?" Tanong ko. Nakatingin lang ako sa kaniya habang nakatingin lang din siya sa buhok ko habang hinahaplos 'yon. 

"My lips hurts, young lady," he answered the moment he pulled away two inches from me. Enough to looked closely at his face. 

Mula sa mga mata niya, dumako ang paningin ko sa mapupula niyang mga labi. Without thinking, I leaned forward and gave him a peck on his lips. 

Just when I was about to pull away from him, he held my nape and kissed me. Deeper than I thought, and rougher than I expected. I closed my eyes and answered his kisses. Trying to give him the same intensity of his kisses to me. 

I felt him slowly laying me on the bed. My back felt the softness of the mattress. I just let him do whatever he wants without any complaints.

I moaned when he suddenly bit my lower lip, then glided his hot tongue between them to erase the sting away. Unsatisfied of what he's doing with me, he taunt my lips to open my mouth. He entered his tongue inside my mouth and explore everything inside. He sucked my tongue and deeply kiss my lips like his life depends on it.

His hands started to roam around my body without breaking the kiss. His long fingers is slowly brushing my arms, up and down. The hairs in my nape rose as I felt an excitement. It sent a tingling sensation to my body down between my legs.

I was already out of breath. My mind wants him to stop but my body doesn't want him to. Minutes later, he finally let go of my lips. I gasped for air I was deprived to have earlier. My lips felt swollen from the long kissed we've shared.

He started planting small wet kisses from the side of my lips, down to my jaw. A moan escaped from my lips when his fingers found my core. He glide his hands up and down, making me arch my back to him. 

His kisses went down to the crook of my neck. Leaving wet kisses and gliding his hot tongue after a minute of sucking my skin there. 

I whimper in anticipation. There's something I wanted to feel. The building of pleasure on my lower abdomen isn't helping at all. 

"Now, let's get rid of this," he muttered. I open my eyes and found him staring into my shirt like it has done something wrong to him.