Chapter 61: Confused

Megan's POV

"Did your father ask about me?" I asked Axel as I held his hand and walked inside our house. And I couldn't deny I felt so hurt when I saw my son shake his head, and I tried to smile widely at him the moment he looked up at me even if I could feel the piercing of my heart as I confirmed my suspicion that Ashton doesn't want to see me.We ate our dinner, and Axel couldn't stop talking about his dad and I smiled as I realized he looked so happy. I helped my son with his assignments while my mind was thinking about Ashton the entire time.

"Mom, can I have a sleepover in dad's house?" Axel asked as I tucked him in bed, and his question took me off guard.

"It depends, Axel. And I need to talk with your father first." I responded, and he grinned at me.

"Okay, I will ask dad to come over tomorrow." He said, and I suddenly felt worried because I didn't know how to face Ashton again after I hurt him when I sided with Gael instead of him. Now that I have allowed Ashton to be part of Axel's life, I am aware that I can't just say no to Axel regarding his dad since I gave Ashton the right to know our son.

"Axel, your father, is a busy man, and I don't think he has time to come and speak with me." I declared since I didn't want him to get disappointed if Ashton wouldn't talk with me.

"No, mom, dad said, he has all the time for me." My son replied, and I couldn't hide the smile that appeared on my face thinking Axel felt so confident about Ashton having all the time for him.

"It would be nice if he could drop by, but I don't want you to get disappointed, Axel. There are moments when your father couldn't get out of his office on time because some of his clients or employees needed his presence in the company." I declared.

"I understand, mom, but I know I can trust, dad; even if he gets busy, he will always find time for me, and that is his promise to me." He replied, and I nodded at him.

"Of course, Axel, I know your dad will do his best to spend time with you," I responded, and my son's face lit up.

"How about you, mom? Can you spend some time with dad and me?" My son asked, and I coughed since I was surprised by his questions even though my answer would always be yes, but since the day I requested Ashton to leave my house, I felt worried about how to face him ever again.

"Axel, I always wanted to spend time with you, and you know that," I replied.

"How about, dad?" He asked again, and I knew he would not stop bombarding me with questions unless I answered him.

"Of course, I love spending time with your father," I replied, and my son grinned at me, and I don't feel guilty because it is the truth; I love to spend more time with Ashton.

"Can you ask dad to come and sleep here with us, mom?" Axel asked again, and this time I found it hard to answer his question.

"I don't think it would be the best idea, for now, Axel, since your father needs to go to his office early, and Megalopre is far from Majuscule, you can't just ask your dad to come over here with us." I proudly said.

"I know, mom, but dad has a helicopter, and it would be easy for him to come here, and it would be quick." He said, and my eyes turned so big.

"Did he tell you about it?" It was my turn to ask him a question, and his eyes twinkled with happiness as I looked into his eyes that reminded me so much of his father.

"Yes, Dad made me ride with him in his chopper." He said, and I couldn't believe Ashton would do something like that without my knowledge. I am glad that he finds time to be with Axel, but he should have asked me before he started visiting my son. The pain intensified as I realized Ashton avoided me since he never contacted me after what happened.

And I hate that I couldn't stop myself from reliving the hot lovemaking we shared, and I couldn't deny how much I miss him. And I know it was my fault, but he should try to understand that Gael is forever part of our lives since he was the one who helped me by the time Ashton abandoned me while I was pregnant with our children.

It may be hard for Ashton to accept Gael. Still, he needs to understand that without the singer, my life would have been difficult, and something might happen to us if he didn't offer his home for us at that time; and I even lost my daughter because of my sadness after Ashton hurt me terribly.

And I couldn't deny I was in pain the moment he stopped communicating with me, even before I learned I was pregnant with his children. Gael and Alice were the ones who made me surpass the hardships that I have been through, especially when I became a mother, and losing Abigail was the hardest part.As I watched the sleeping figure of my son, I couldn't stop myself from smiling while I caressed his face, and I released a heavy sigh before I got up and got out of his room on my tiptoes since I didn't want him to wake up.

"Hey, Megan! I have been calling your trunk line number, but you weren't answering. I thought you went outside, and now I understand why, and I couldn't believe I would find you looking into space." Alice declared.

"You can't fool me, Meg. You are not looking at the view below. You are still thinking about Ashton." Alice added, and I slowly turned my head at her.She was correct; I was looking over my office window, and I knew she was right; I wasn't looking at anything since Axel's dad occupied my mind, and I couldn't stop myself from reliving the sweet moments we shared, especially the way Ashton kissed and hugged me.

"I needed to do something for Axel, and I needed to lower my pride once and for all since I know Ashton, and I need to talk," I said, and I narrated to her the conversation I had with my son the other night."I told you, but you won't listen to me. Your son is intelligent just like you and his father, and you can't lie to Axel, Megan." She responded.

"I know, but I am so confused right now, and I couldn't deny I missed Ashton so much. What should I do, Al?" I asked.

"You know his home and office address, Meg, and you hurt Ashton. I guess it is about time you should apologize to him. It has been one week, and I don't want to see you this way again." Alice responded.

"I thought everything was perfect when we were at the retreat center; how could everything turn out this way? You looked miserable again; you were smiling when we left the camp, and now it seemed like you are carrying the world on your shoulders." She added.

"Do you think he will talk with me?" I asked, and she gave me a reassuring smile as she nodded her head."Ashton would be so happy to see you, Meg." She continued as I felt my face turn warm, and I knew just thinking about Ashton would make me have the knots on my stomach.

"Okay, I will come to his office this afternoon," I said, and Alice's face lit up, and I know she is so excited for me and Ashton to get back together, and I understand my best friend is inspired since she is falling in love with Ashton's best friend.

"Go! Forget everything and for once, focus on the things that can make you happy, Megan." She replied, and I was smiling like an idiot, and even if I felt anxious, I couldn't deny my excitement to see Ashton overshadowed the fear I have right now.I kept myself busy after my best friend left my office since I wanted to finish checking the documents on my table before going to Ashton's office.I took a deep breath before I stood up and pulled my blazer from the back of my chair. And I put it on, and I couldn't believe I would feel so conscious about what I am wearing when I know I will only go to Ashton's office to talk about our son and not about us.

"Good luck, Megan!" Alice blurted out the moment I came across my best friend on the elevator.

"Thank you, Al," I responded.

"Wow! It seemed like you were preparing yourself to meet your boyfriend because you are wearing make-up." Alice said as she noticed my face, and I blushed since she was right; I wanted to look beautiful in front of Ashton.

And it felt so lovely to think that I am still Ashton's girl even if he didn't communicate with me for one week, and I was hoping he was still my boyfriend, and he will forgive me for what I have done to him.I was rehearsing what I wanted to tell Ashton, but I couldn't stop my limbs from shaking when I arrived at the parking lot of his building. I quickly climbed out of my car before I chickened out.

"Do you have an appointment with Mr. Pritzgold, Miss?" The receptionist asked, and my mouth hung open since I realized I had to call him first before seeing and talking with him.

"No, but you can tell him it is Megan," I said, and she was looking at me from head to toe."I am sorry, Megan, many girls come here and introduce themselves, but the same thing will apply to you; you can't meet Mr. Pritzgold unless you have a prior appointment. You may leave now." She said, and I wanted to insist that Ashton would talk with me once he knew it was me.

But I don't want the receptionist to tell me if I am that close with Ashton. He should be the one to meet me at the reception area. I turned around after I mumbled my thanks, and I was shocked to see Claire walking gracefully towards the receptionist.

"Good morning, Claire!" The receptionist greeted Clair warmly, and I couldn't take my eyes away from Ashton's ex as I looked at her gorgeous body; and she looked so beautiful wearing a fitted dress that hugged her body perfectly.

"Good morning, Jessica. Is he there?" She sweetly asked."Of course, Mr. Pritzgold will always have time for you." The receptionist replied, and I realized Ashton's ex-fiancee looked so stunning.. And I walked back to the parking lot with a broken heart.