The Cost Of Desire

Fabian POv You won't forget some things, no matter how hard you try to forget them. The memory of her walking away was one of those things for me. Mia, that was her name. My Ex girlfriend. We dated all through high school, and for a while, I thought I found the one for me, the one who would stick by me through everything. But the thing about being broke and helpless, is that love doesn't always survive it. I still remember our last discussion one afternoon in a small Cafe off main street. Biting her lips nervously, which was shocking because Mia was always everything but nervous. I knew something was wrong. I couldn't just place my hands on it. She had ordered coffee but barely touched it, her eyes darting everywhere but me. After what felt like eternity, she spoke. "Fabian, I cannot do this anymore," "I need something more. And you are just not enough." She continued still not meeting my eyes. I felt my whole world stop, because the Mia that I know would never leav

Tobias POVI had to leave class early, I had to go pick Julia up from the hospital and get back in time for my next class which is in two hours.I made my way to the campus parking lot, entering my car and driving off to the hospital. Getting there, I quickly make my way to the front desk."Good afternoon, I'm here to see Julian Reyes.' I greeted the nurse."Afternoon, may I know your relationship with her?" She asked back with a polite smile."Of course, I'm her elder brother." "Alright then, please sign here." She gave me a pen and a book where I am to sign."Thank you, please, what is her room number?" " Number 67, just by the left over there." She replied and pointed the direction out for me.I nodded my head and walked in the direction. Knocking briefly before entering the room."Oh wow, look who finally showed up." Julian said with sarcasm."You aren't sick Julian, just doing your monthly check up." I said, giving her a small smile and sitting on the bed beside her."So, you w

Tobias's POV He kissed me, and I didn't push him back. I pushed his back against the wall, delving my tongue deeper into his mouth. The kiss wasn't gentle, it was possessive. I was trying to map every part of his mouth. "Mmn." He moaned into my mouth, sending waves of vibration through my body. Then I suddenly remember what I am doing. I pulled back from him instantly, holding his shoulder to steady his body. "Why did you stop?" He whined leaning closer to me again. "You are drunk Fabian." I whispered softly, trying to fight the urge to claim his red plump lips again. "You know my name?" He asked, puzzled. He doesn't even know who I am. "Come on, let's get you home." I walked him to my car and helped him get into the passenger seat. "What's your home address?" I asked him. "Home? Address? I have no home." He mumbled under his breath. Great, he can't even remember his address. I turned the ignition on, driving over to my house. By the time we got there, he was already aslee

Fabian's POV No, that can be right. I would never kiss a guy, talk more of my professor. I must be hallucinating, I mean I'm not even gay.At least that's what I think. As I stepped out of the shower I couldn't help but be curious, if I had really kissed him, how did he react. Did he like the kiss, how did his lips feel on mine?My head kept on spiraling around these thoughts until I got dressed and laid down on my bed. Relax Fabian, you are not gay. And you didn't kiss your professor, it's just your mind playing games with you.But if it was true, why didn't he tell me about the kiss the next day? Did he feel disgusted by the kiss? I wish I could kiss him one more time. So I can remember how his lips felt on mine.I think I need to get checked, I shouldn't be thinking about any of these things, I'm straight. I mean I have had a girlfriend before, even if we didn't go further than kiss.Eventually, I fell asleep. ~It's been three days since I remembered the kiss. And ever since the

Fabian's POV "Can I kiss you?"The question still lingered in the air, none of us saying a word. We stared at each other for a few minutes before I decided to break the silence."You didn't respond." I said softly, breaking our eye contact and glancing at the floor."Are you insane Fabian? How can you ask me to kiss you? I'm your professor for christ sake." He growled."It was just a simple question, you could have chosen to answer with a no." I mumbled under my breath but he heard it."Excuse me?" He asked, confused.Even though I am shocked at myself for this profound confidence, am I truly insane? Random me would have been too shy to ask him about the kiss talk more, of if I could kiss him again."Leave my office Mr Fernandez." He barked.My chest tightened at the use of my last name, we were back to being professional, I ruined the ounce of hope I had.Hope? Hope for what exactly?Why did I ask him to kiss me? I should have been disgusted when he confirmed that we kissed. I mean