Alex's POVLife has a way of testing someone's will.It's either by having nothing happen at all or by having everything happen at once.With me, it's the latter.All at once.One after the other with no breaks in between.From the moment she came back into my life, from the moment Nikolas showed up until now, not once have I been able to take a normal breath, not once have I been able to close my eyes and just sleep.A stuttered breath sneaked past my lips and frustration blistered below my skin as I pressed the back of my head against the headrest. I shut my eyes and scrubbed a hand over my face, preparing myself to embrace what's about to come.I pried my eyes open and looked at Lily in the backseat. She had her eyes closed, peacefully sleeping, her head resting against the door and her small hands wrapped around the seatbelt.Like a little angel, she looked so pure and innocent.If life hated me so much for the things I've done before then why would it give me something so beautif
Nikolas's POVComfort.I'd gone without it for a lot of years. It was this deep empty hole in my chest searching for anything to fill it; aching as it kept on eating at my inside, day after day searching for satiety but never was able to find it. It kept on getting deeper and deeper till it sucked all the light from inside, leaving me with nothing but darkness.And that darkness surrounded me, wrapped me inside out. It took parts of me and embedded itself into my core, always there taunting me, mocking me, reminding me I'd lost the right to be loved.But when this woman looks at me, when those green eyes that's so similar to mine caress my face with so much softness; all of a sudden that darkness starts to fade away and light swoop right in.When she smiles; Comfort - that foreign feeling - surrounds me.And it leaves me questioning everything, including myself. Do I deserve it? Hell to the no I don't.But once again, when she finds out what I did; when she discovers that I turned out
Cara's POVIt was dark.It was cold..really cold.A shiver went down my spine and my feet started to ache as I moved forward. Air heaved in and out of my lungs, jagged and coarse. I wrapped my arms around my frail body trying somehow to protect myself as the lights around me dimmed; it became darker, colder but that didn't stop me. I didn't know where I was heading to, but my body seemed to know the destination better than me, my mind wasn't the one in control and I just felt myself stop at the threshold of a house.It looked old, torn up, just like I always imagined it to be; Crumbling and decayed.My pulse thundered and pain grabbed my throat in a tight fist; Beneath me, the house blurred. It started to fade and it was replaced by something so different, by something so bright; It was all in my head, the images that flashed, the smiles, the voices my ears heard; It was all in my head. The sound of my light footsteps as I ran around, the squealing of my laughter as he caught me and t
Cara's POVMy steps took a hard stop when I heard a gunshot coming from the same place Alex went to minutes ago.Sickness coiled in my stomach and I immediately turned around; Roman stood in my way, his hand on the door holding it open for me, "Get in the car." He ordered.I shook my head and tried to walk past him but his hand wrapped around my arm and stopped me from moving any further."Cara-""No, leave me!" I snapped as I tore his hand away.Another gunshot sounded in the air, it also came from the same place.What's happening?My pulse sped, and I pulled in even breaths, trying to calm myself and the panic that had built up in my nerves. My heart dropped into my stomach as my eyes scanned through the trees trying to clear my vision and catch any glimpse of him.I can't just stay here. I have to go. I have to see if he is alright.He is all alone there.And - Oh my god- Nikolas.. he is here too.If it happened and these two were in the same place alone. I am pretty sure one of th
Roman's POVA gust of cold wind blew and chilled my face. Coldness blanketed my skin as I placed the tip of the bottle to my lips and gulped a full mouth of the liquor. My fingers wrapped tighter around the glass as the taste left a burn when it passed my throat. I took another gulp before I leaned my back against the car and tilted my head back, breathing deeply as I eyed the sky.It was a clear, moonless night. It looked peaceful and at ease. It was silent. No voices and no one around except for the demons in my head whispering things I am not so sure I am capable of, drowning me in the chaos of their thoughts.I welcomed the darkness as my eyelids dropped down, air pushed in and out of my lungs, jagged and coarse. A growl rumbled at the base of my throat. I hated every fucking second of this day. My jaw clenched and my eyes glided open before I angrily threw the bottle away. It fell at a distance, glass shattered as it hit the ground. The crashing sound crawled into the inside of m
Cara's POVI may have gone mad..crazy and insane.Maybe I am being unreasonable, or maybe I have just lost my mind.Because instead of pushing that button, here I am, talking with that exact man who ruined my life, the same one who broke me over and over again.Here I am, asking for his help.Some may not agree, but there are few things out there that hurt so much more than just a broken heart.Something physical.Intense.Real.An affliction with no antidote.Because no pain can come equally to what I felt at that moment, how it was all ripped away from me when I saw life ever so slowly leave his eye; nothing can take away the vision of him as he slipped away from me.It doesn't matter which way you slice it, look at it or analyze it. It'll always come up with the same sum... same fact, that he is dead.And the man who killed him is still out there. Still breathing, alive and planning more ruin.Alex's father must be punished.And I know Nikolas is the one to do it. He is the one rea
Alex's POVI hated.Everything and everyone.My vision clouded with anger, and my heart pounded harder as I made my way out of the hospital. The feeling flared like a sickness clawing at the inside of my stomach. My leg bounced with the nerves prodding my anxious feet. My hands shook with that old rage, the gnawing impulse that clipped my nerves, that need to get back inside and pull him the fuck away from her.I stopped, my steps halted and I just stood there. The mere thought of them together brought my sanity right to the edge. I fisted my hair in my hands, doing my best not to lose my shit, trying to keep from coming unglued here in the middle of the fucking day.Anger clenched my jaw, the emotion in an all-out war with the part of me that kept giving her reasons, the part that trusted her with all its being, that part that refused to believe in what they all say...that part didn't even want to acknowledge what my eyes just saw.But the image slammed me in quick succession - her w
I officially quit wattpad..Cara's POV.Come to the car. I am leaving.With the phone held between my fingers and with my eyes focused on the bright screen, I read the few words his text message held. I sucked into a deep breath before I locked the phone and placed it in my pocket. I wiped whatever mess was left on my cheeks and tried to fix my hair before I got to my feet. I went to Katherine's room, forced a smile and told Ashton we're leaving."I'll be back in the morning," I added as I closed the door behind me.With heavy steps, I went out of the hospital down to the parking lot. Cold air pelted my skin, the night deep. Dull lights seeped across the lot. Spotting the car few miles away, my legs ever so slowly walked me closer to it. I stood at the passenger door and sucked in a breath. Fear constricted my chest, I didn't want us to fight more.I'll just try and keep silent for now.Exhaling a deep breath from my lungs, I finally unlatched the door and sat down in the seat. Silent