Chapter 10

Lillian Pov

Pain. Everyone has their own definition of pain. Your small toe hitting a wood you didn’t see, your elbow hitting the floor or an iron. Downloading a movie and when there’s just 3 percent remaining to be downloaded, your internet connection disconnected or the pain when your family goes on a trip without you because you committed an offense. Those are all types of pain, but have you felt the type of pain when you are so hopeless and you feel the world has turned against you? The one when you're loved one’s turn their back against you and ignore you? The one when you are drowning in continuous pain and your heart beating loudly against your chest and you can’t do anything to stop it. Those are the pain I feel. I can feel myself drowning in self pity and disgust, and the only thing I can do is look and be allowed to be stepped on.

How long has it been? One week? Two weeks? A month? I do not know, but I have been stuck in this room for a long while now. My back was agains