The Ending Without The Beginning

The person that is not scared of death doesn't exist. Every human being is scared of death in their own way. Death is such a scary and mysterious concept that it sometimes creeps me out. What happens to us after we die? This is a question that will never get an answer anytime soon. They say dying for the people you love makes you not fear death, but seeing your loved ones die is a different kind of feeling. It's like a part of your soul was cut off and you are never going to be the same. Losing my mum one of the people that truly cared for me was hard and came with a lot of pain but I got used to that pain and tried to live with it. Sometimes I feel like she is here with me but every time I open my eyes she vanishes. She died because of cancer two years ago, and as for my father. I have no idea who he is. According to my mom, he abandoned us when I was three years old. She never mentioned him, and I have no idea what he looks like or what his name is. There are no photos of us, not e

We talked about almost everything that had happened to us this year all night. I looked at the time and was surprised to see that it was 6:30."Could you maybe tell me the time?" Bella asks, her face exhausted and intoxicated. We drank a lot. We went down with three bottles of wine. "My phone died before you arrived to pick me up, and I neglected to charge it," she says."It's 6:30," I reply."I'm so hungry," I say as I go to the kitchen and begin to prepare something.'' I am hungry too.'' I hear her say as I hear her footsteps coming to the kitchen."I'm making grilled cheese. Do you want some? "''Yeeees,'' she says as she sits in the chair and lay on the counter. I can tell she is tired.'' Ok. I am going to make you breakfast and then you can lay down and rest.'''' Please hurry up.'' she says'' I am dying to get my beauty sleep. ''I laugh at her sentence as she raises her head and sees me with a serious face.''Ok ok, I'm sorry,'' I say as I try to keep my laughAs soon as we we

Bella woke me up this morning, and to be honest, I didn't want to go anywhere today. I just wanted to stay all day in bed, but that couldn't happen because my boss's birthday is today, and his wife is planning a 'surprise party' and needed every single one of us to be present so we could keep everything under control. I didn't go to the coffee shop today because our boss's wife asked us to be there by three so we could prepare the place for the birthday surprise she had been planning for him for almost a week. I worked at the club for almost three years, and his wife was a pain in the ass. Every year she plans this 'birthday party' to show how much she loves him, but we all know that she wants him for his money.''Get up, I am hungry and there's nothing to eat,'' Bella says, and she is right. I was so focused on the problems I had and skipped the grocery shopping for a while."I'll get dressed, and we can go grocery shopping and buy something to eat on our way home," I said sleepily,

Finally, the girls' night was over, and the girls went to their homes after Bella made them breakfast. I was exhausted because I drank a lot last night, and today my head feels like it's going to explode. I hate girl's night and I hate people pretending they love you and acting as if they care about you, but I didn't want to get Bella upset, so I had to act like I was having fun even though all I did was drink all the wine that they had brought. I have told Bella so many times that I can't stand her friends, but she still manages to set us up with them when we decide to go somewhere. She says I have to be more social and make more friends. Bullshit. I have her and that's enough for me.My headache was killing me, so I took some painkillers that were on my bedside table and laid back in bed. Every muscle in my body was in pain, and all I wanted was to sleep all day. I am so tired of this life that sometimes I just want to end it. My mum isn't here anymore. I don't know who my father is

I awoke before my alarm went off. I had to be ready by 8:00 pm, and with my make-up skills, I'm hoping to make it there on time. Even if all of the YouTubers came together and talked me through everything step-by-step, I'd still be the worst. I got out of bed and went to the bathroom to wash my face and brush my teeth before going to the kitchen to eat. After finishing breakfast, I began doing some housework. Everything looks so boring now that Bella has gone to her parents, and I can't wait for her to come back.I went to the bathroom, filled the bathtub with warm water, and threw in a coconut bath bomb. I walked to the kitchen, got a glass of white wine, went to the bathroom, put on some music, removed my clothes, and got into the bathtub, feeling my muscles relax while listening to music and just enjoying the peace.I've been searching for my father for six months now. Even the smallest clue could help me, yet no one knows anything. I even looked up the hospital where my mother tol