TGWAE 00

Disclaimer: This is a work of fiction. Names, characters, places, events, and everything that concerns a living and non-living thing on Earth are all a product of the Author's wild imagination. Any resemblance to an actual person, living and dead is purely coincidental. 

Warning: Any typos, grammatical errors, or any kinds of errors you may encounter in this book are off of your concern as I am writing not to please everyone but to share my wild and different ideas to create something you can relate to as well as to help others to find peace and healing while reading the story. 

Beware of the contents of this book as there will be some offensive words and actions that are needed in the story such as violence and verbal and non-verbal sensitive parts. You may and may not proceed to the next chapter if you feel offended at some point or anything related to it. 

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Chapter 00|Prologue

I was born with a happy family, a healthy environment, and lovable siblings. Wala akong masasabi sa kung anong buhay ang mayroon ako dahil super bless yata ako kay Lord. With my name Tayja which means a gem from the heavens and Prish which means God's gift. Pangalan pa lang ay sobrang blessed na, right? 

It was perfect! 

Almost perfect. Not until my Dad died in a car accident. 

We were all devastated by the news of him, dead on arrival before they can even save him from death. I was lost for a moment. Hindi ko alam ang gagawin ko sa mga panahong iyon. Ang alam ko lang, may malaking bahagi sa akin ang nawala. 

I felt empty. 

My Mom couldn't even bring herself to mourn for her husband, for our father as she dwells on her pain, alone. Hindi nito gustong ipinapakita na mahina siya. Na umiiyak din siya. Kasi, tao lang din naman si Mama pero mukhang desidido siya na itago sa amin ang kaniyang pagluluksa para sa kaniyang asawa. 

I would often see her cry in their room, silently. Na kahit kaunting pagsinghot lang ay ikinatatakot niya pa na marinig namin. 

With the state of mind that I have, dahil bata pa ako noon, may mga bagay pa akong hindi pa masiyadong naiintindihan. Sure, I can see and hear everything but my mind couldn't process what those things mean. Kung bakit ang masayang pamilya na kinalakihan ko ay bigla na lang naging malungkot at napapalibutan nang malamig na atmospera? Kung bakit nagbago na ang lahat? 

Kung bakit ganoon na lang kadali nilang bitawan ang hawak sa isa't isa? 

I don't know anymore. Ni hindi ko na alam bakit kahit pilit ko namang inaayos ang mga bagay na sira na, hindi pa rin talaga mawawala ang bakas ng unang pagkasira. 

Like a glass breaks into pieces when it falls on the floor. Masama ang bagsak. Basag na basag. Na kahit ano pang paraan ang gawin mo para mabuo pa ito, it'll stay the same. 

Broken and already beyond repair. 

Paano nga ba maaayos ang nasira na? Anong kailangang gawin para lang bumalik ang mga bagay-bagay sa dati? 

Ang hirap. Inaamin ko, mahirap. Kasi, the damage has already been done. Nandoon na, nangyari na. Kahit pa magbayad ka nang daang-daang milyon para lamang may sumagot sa tanong mo, hindi pa rin iyon sapat. Hindi pa rin nito maaayos ang matagal ng may lamat. 

When I thought things couldn't get that worst, they did. 

My mother? She turns out to be a different person. Hindi ko na siya makilala. Hindi na siya ang nakilala kong maalaga na nanay. Ang mapagmahal na ina sa aming magkakapatid. The woman whom I thought wouldn't do such a thing but she did. 

How far can my drive go to fix what has been broken? How far can I get to try to bring back the old times? 

I don't know. It feels dark and lonely. 

Gusto ko na lang huwag makarinig. Gusto ko na lang maglaho na parang bula. Gusto ko na lang maging bulag para hindi ko na makita ang mga bagay na hindi ko naman dapat na makita. Gusto ko na lang muna lumayo kasi, sobrang nakasasakal na ang paligid. I couldn't breathe properly anymore. 

I feel like any time soon, I'll lose my breath and collapse on the floor. 

Pero, siguro nga tama sila noong sinabi nilang 'be careful what you wish for'. Because words are too powerful to take back once you already let them out of your mouth. Gaya nang dati, 'nasabi na, nangyari na'. 

I wish that's not the case. But it is. 

Because ever since that day happened, my life changed to three hundred sixty degrees without any warning. Walang pasabi, hindi ko napaghandaan. Ni hindi ko inasahan na mangyayari iyon sa akin. 

After that day, I  became someone brand new. 

The girl with an eyepatch.