로그인Troy looked far too pleased with himself as we sat around sipping our drinks and talking about all the trouble we'd inevitably get into at college.
I still couldn't believe everyone had decided to go.
When Lyall and I first made our plans, I'd imagined the two of us facing a new world together. Somehow, our entire friend group had decided that wasn't acceptable.
Now I couldn't imagine it any other way.
We had spent nearly our entire lives together.
We trained together.
Studied together.
Got into trouble together.
It was rare to see any of us alone.
Most packs had similar groups surrounding their future Alphas. Those friendships often evolved into the Alpha's future council and unit—the wolves he trusted most when it came time to lead.
For years, pack members had assumed our group would eventually become Lyall's council.
None of us had ever doubted it.
"Do you think any of us will find our mates now that we're finally of age?" River asked.
A smile immediately tugged at my lips.
Of course she'd ask that.
River had dreamed of finding her mate for as long as I'd known her. She adored pups and talked about having a family so often that none of us were ever surprised when the subject came up.
Lyall chuckled.
"You know it doesn't work like that."
River groaned.
"It could."
"No," Lyall replied. "The Moon Goddess reveals mates when she thinks we're ready. We could be standing next to them right now and never know."
His parents were proof of that.
They had known each other for years before discovering they were mates.
Sometimes fate seemed to move at its own pace.
"It would still be nice," River said quietly. "I know I can't be the only one who wants to find their mate."
Troy's ears turned slightly red.
"I wouldn't mind finding mine."
The look River gave him nearly made me laugh.
For years, most of us had secretly suspected they would end up together.
If anyone deserved a happy ending, it was those two.
As the conversation continued, I reached for my drink again.
Halfway through swallowing, a strange sensation twisted in my stomach.
I frowned.
Maybe I'd eaten something bad earlier.
Ignoring it, I set my glass down.
A few minutes later, the nausea returned.
Stronger.
The room suddenly felt warmer.
Too warm.
I shifted in my seat.
"You okay?" River asked.
"Fine."
The answer came a little too quickly.
The music seemed louder than before.
The lights brighter.
A wave of dizziness rolled through me.
My stomach dropped.
Something wasn't right.
Werewolves didn't get sick like this.
I stood abruptly.
"I'll be right back."
River immediately pushed herself to her feet.
"Want me to come with you?"
I forced a smile.
"No. I'm okay."
At least, I hoped I was.
The moment I started toward the stairs, I realized I wasn't.
The floor felt unsteady beneath my feet.
Each step seemed harder than the last.
The nausea intensified.
My vision blurred at the edges.
Behind me, I heard chairs scraping across the floor.
"I think I'm going to follow her," Lyall said.
For once, I was grateful for his stubbornness.
I gripped the railing as I descended the stairs.
Something was very wrong.
By the time I reached the bottom, my legs felt weak.
The crowded nightclub seemed to sway around me.
I missed a step.
Strong hands caught me before I could fall.
"Rowan!"
Lyall's voice sounded distant.
Like it was coming from underwater.
He wrapped an arm around my waist and guided me toward the hallway leading to the restrooms.
But after only a few steps, he stumbled too.
My heart lurched.
No.
Not him too.
I looked up just in time to see him signal frantically toward the bar.
The bartender's eyes widened.
Someone shouted.
The music suddenly seemed impossibly far away.
The hallway tilted.
Darkness crept into the edges of my vision.
Then everything went black.
Sleep takes me almost immediately.One moment I am listening to the opening scenes of whatever action movie the boys picked, and the next I am drifting.At first it is peaceful.For the first time in days, there are no nightmares.No confusion.No pain.Just warmth.Comfort.Safety.I sigh softly and curl deeper into the oversized seat.Then the dream changes.Suddenly I am cold.The warmth vanishes.A rough concrete floor presses against my skin.The scent of rust fills my nose.I hear chains rattling somewhere nearby.Voices echo around me.Too far away to understand.Too distorted to recognize.I try to move.My body refuses.Panic begins to creep into my chest.A familiar scent reaches me.Pine.Rain.Forest.Lyall.Relief floods through me.He is here.Somewhere close.I try to call out to him.Nothing comes out.Then another scent appears.One that I cannot identify.It wraps around me like smoke.Unfamiliar.Male.Dangerous.My heart begins to pound.The dream shifts again.Han
After the mention of me losing weight, the pool loses a little bit of it's previous fun. Just enough that we all decide to go and watch a movie in the theatre room instead. After River helps me change out of my swimsuit once again that is.The theatre room here is so far beyond any public theatre that you could go to. There are couch style chairs, loveseat chairs and single chairs. They are all placed far enough apart from the one next to them that they can lounge back into almost a full bed.Lyall pushes me over to one of the loveseat ones and helps me maneuver into it. I smile at him gratefully as I unsuccessfully try to push the back of the seat back on my own. He laughs slightly as I struggle before helping me lower it back."This larger one will be easier for you to be in. You can keep your food and drinks right on the seat with you and it will be easier to help you out of when we are done." He explains.I smile at his thoughtfullness as we all settle in to pick a movie. Normally
The moment I sank back into the sling, my entire body trembled with exhaustion.It should not have been that difficult.A healthy werewolf could have crossed the pool a hundred times without breaking a sweat. Even injured wolves usually recovered quickly once they got moving again. Yet I felt like I had just run miles through the forest in wolf form."That's enough for today," Lyall said firmly."I walked across a pool.""You practically collapsed afterward.""I did not collapse.""You are sitting in a medical sling because your legs stopped working.""Details."That earned a few weak laughs from everyone.Even I managed a smile.For a brief moment, things almost felt normal again.Then another wave of nausea rolled through me.I immediately lowered my head and closed my eyes.The movement made River kneel beside the pool."Rowan?""I'm fine.""You keep saying that.""Because I am."Unfortunately, my stomach chose that exact moment to betray me.I clapped a hand over my mouth.Every s
Outside the dressing rooms, the boys are waiting for us next to the pool. They both look a little nervous as we walk out, like they were getting worried about us. They were definitely both talking about me though. The way that they cut off mid sentence is a dead give away. "Get on over here." Mel yells with mock enthusiasm.Even though I cannot fall for his ruse completely, I still smile as River pushes me over to where they are.Lyall shares a quick, concerned glance with River before she stops the wheel chair next to the pool. Luckily, the pool is sometimes used to help injured werewolves recover after some pretty freak accidents, so we happen to have an entire set up for somebody that is injured to get into the pool.There is a sling that all I have to do is sit on, that lowers me into the pool and helps support me as I settle into the water. As with all werewolves, and even humans if it is to be believed, as soon as I reach the weightlessness of the pool, I immediately begin to f
River follows me into the changing room while the boys disappear into theirs. The moment the door closes behind us, the smile slowly slips from my face."You don't have to pretend in here." River says quietly.I let out a long breath."I know."For a moment, neither of us moves.The reality of changing clothes suddenly feels much bigger than it should.I have changed clothes thousands of times in my life.Today it feels like a mountain.River kneels beside the wheelchair."How much help do you need?"I swallow."I honestly don't know."That alone is enough to make my chest tighten.A week ago I would have laughed at the idea of needing help getting dressed.Now I can't even answer a simple question.Slowly, I reach for the hem of my shirt.My arms feel heavy.Not painful.Just heavy.As though someone attached weights to every limb while I wasn't paying attention.River watches carefully but doesn't rush to help.She knows me too well.Knows that I need to try for myself first.By the
After lunch, Lyall loads me back into his truck and takes me to the pack house. Just like with all pack houses, ours has rooms with activities for all ages. When we were toddlers, we used to stay in rooms that the Luna oversaw. The Luna of each pack always takes interest in the youngest members of a pack. It is almost like it is in their DNA to be motherly.As we got older, we got to play in the game rooms that are practically a full on arcade. There are old fashioned pin ball games, arcade games and an entire wall full of televisions and gaming consoles. There are even mini fridges full of snacks for all of the kids to enjoy after school.For the even older children, as well as those that just need a recreational activity, there is a pool, air hockey, foosball table and even a hot tub. The adults also have access to a sauna and a massage room. As we all start military style training at a young age, we all have to be able to take care of ourselves as well. The term train hard and pla







