UNKNOWN POV
How long has it been since I last saw the outside world? This prison of mine has become a very familiar acquaintance and no matter how much of it I try to map out, it only seems to stretch on endlessly. Every day here has become one in which I pray to a God, I am no longer sure exists or maybe, true to what the voices in my head have been saying, I’ve actually been abandoned and left to rot here for my sins. My body seems so heavy and so for the fourth time today I pick myself up from the cobblestoned ground and trudge forward, feeling along the walls for anything I could have missed and knowing all the same that there isn’t any big mind blowing clue waiting for me in this dark hell hole. Suddenly a tremor racks through my whole body and that’s when reality hits me; ‘I’m going to die here’ My breathing has become labored, my anxiety resurfacing and clawing at my brain. I can’t die here. I refuse to die here! Gathering as much energy as I can, I start to scream for a life already lost. “Help me please!” My screams seem to bounce off the walls and echo back to me. “Somebody…. Anybody, please help me!” The silence that follows is deafening. I wait. I listen. Nothing. My legs give out beneath me and I sink to my knees, bruising them in the process, the chill from the stone floors seeping into my bones. Somewhere above–or maybe below–a distant clanking sound breaks through the silence. Pipes? Chains? I can’t tell. The echo is distorted, too far to make sense of. I hold my breath, hoping for a voice, a footstep, anything I could cling onto at this point, but alas I’m left alone to the sounds of my imagination, desperate for anything but the sound of my own despair. The air smells damp, moldy like the scent of forgotten places. I don’t remember how I got here. Every time I try to revisit the memory it feels like an invisible, impenetrable wall slams into my head. One minute I was…. Somewhere. Then this. This endless dark. What did I do? I press my palms into the ground until the rough stone bites into my skin, hoping the pain will ignite something in me. A name. A face. A reason. A whisper passes across my ears, same as always. It’s the one I hear when the silence creeps in too close: “This is all your fault.” Who said that? Was it me? I drag myself forward again, crawling now, ignoring the sharp edges that dig into my knees. There has to be something–an opening, a door, a weakness in the walls. My hands trace over rough stone, slick with condensation. Then something else. Smooth. Cold. Metal. A doorknob? No. just a pipe, broken and useless. Just like me. I scream again, raw and desperate. Much louder this time. “HELP ME!” Still nothing. But then–a flicker. A sound that’s not an echo. A whisper that doesn’t come from inside my own mind. Footsteps. And they’re getting closer. The soft clacks of footwear echo faintly, distant at first, like the lazy tapping of dripping water but they grow. Louder. Closer. Not rushed. Whoever–or whatever–it is, they’re not in a hurry. Each step feels intentional, echoing against the stone with an eerie rhythm. My chest tightens. I shuffle back until my spine hits the damp wall behind me. My ears strain, desperate to place the sound, to understand what kind of shoes–boots? Sandals? Bare feet? –might be producing it, but the acoustics in this damned place distort everything. Stillness again. Then, a whisper of breath. “You’ve been quiet……that is, until today.” The voice slices through the dark like a blade, calm but unmistakably amused. Masculine, I think, but there’s something too smooth, too deliberate, like its being worn as a mask. I blink, squinting into the blackness, but no form is visible, just the sense of presence–like eyes crawling all over my skin. I flip around a couple of times trying to determine if someone had actually spoken or my mind had decided to keep me company in this nothingness. Just as I start to grasp my insanity, the voice comes again. “You screamed loud enough to wake the dead,” the voice continues stepping closer. “Do you know what that means?” I try to speak, but nothing comes out. My throat is sandpaper, my lips cracked. My pulse thunders in my ears. “They heard you,” the figure says, a hint of satisfaction in his tone. “All of them. Even the ones we didn’t want to know you were kept alive.” “Who–who are you?” I rasp, swallowing the fear and panic that flowed through me in waves. “What do you want?” The figure laughs softly, without humor. “Let’s not pretend you don’t know. This isn’t about me. This is about you. About what you know. About what you did.” “I didn’t–” My voice falters. “I don’t even know what I’m accused of.” The figure steps forward at last, and while the shadows still obscures his face, I feel the weight of his gaze bearing down on me like a storm. “That’s a lie. You might have forgotten, but your soul remembers. Your screams tonight…… They were your truth trying to claw its way out.” He crouches in front of me. I still can’t see his eyes, but I feel them–boring into me, as if he could peel back the layers of my skull and read my thoughts directly. “You broke the law,” he says slowly. “The sacred law.” The words land like thunder, even though I don’t know what they mean. My hands tremble. Somewhere deep inside, something shifts. A crack. A fracture. “I…. What law? What sacred law?” I whisper. He leans in. I can smell something on him now–ash, maybe. Earth. Something old. “The one spoken of only in whispers. The one no one, not even the elders dare to challenge. And yet…. You did.” I shake my head, more in denial than defiance. “I don’t remember. I swear, I don’t remember.” “But your body does. Your mind may be fractured, but your instincts aren’t. haven’t you wondered why we kept you alive all this while?” “I have!” I gasp. “I wonder every day!” “It’s because you remember something valuable,” he replies. “And we can’t have you running your mouth off to anyone else now can we?” That stops me cold. “We?” He straightens, sighing as if I’ve disappointed him. “You’ve forgotten more than I feared, now that’s no fun.” Suddenly, my memories begin to flicker–unbidden, broken flashes of images I can’t control: Stone altars…. voices chanting…something red–liquid? Fabric? Blood? –splattered across white tiles...and a voice, soft and urgent, whispering my name like a secret. “I didn’t mean to… I wasn’t supposed to be there,” I mutter. “He said it was okay… just a look… for a moment. He said–he said it was the only way to see the truth.” “The truth is dangerous you know,” the man says. My fists clench. “But the lies are worse! They punished me for seeing. For knowing. For trying to stop it!” “You tampered with a rite. You desecrated what was meant to be untouched.” “I didn’t!” I scream, the fury spilling out like molten lava. “They used him! They killed him and called it sacred! I saw it–I saw–and they said I was the threat?!” His silence is absolute. The air thickens with unspoken tension, my chest heaving with the weight of injustice. Tears prick my eyes and I feel my body start to shake–not from fear, but from the force of my memory. It’s coming back in pieces, falling like jagged glass–too sharp to hold, too dangerous to ignore. “There was a name,” I whisper. “His name was–” A sharp crack rings through the air. Pain. Sudden. Blinding. Something collides with the back of my skull and my world tips. I collapse forward, hands scraping against the floor, vision flickering. The voice changes. Now female. Cold. Detached. “He talks too much.” My blood sings in my ear. My body is failing me, limbs heavy as lead. The man speaks again, voice lower. “He’s remembering, that’s the problem.” I try to lift my head and everything spins. Then I feel it–something brushing my face. Fabric. Tight. Restricting. A bag. A bag. There’s a bag over my head. There’s always been a bag over my head. And more than that–something else. Voices. Movements. Too man to count. I’m not alone. I’ve never been alone And then– Darkness swallows everything.I like what I see when I look in the mirror. He likes it too. That’s why he keeps me close. I’m an ugly, horrible teenage boy. The girls never bother turning my way. The boys shove past me like I don’t exist. But him–he always notices.My lacrosse teacher.He says I’m special. Sweet. He told me he loved me last week. As long as I make him feel good, he’ll keep loving me. He’s the owner of my body. Maybe my soul too.HOSEA I promise Xavier I’ll let go.He made me swear on it this morning while half asleep, tugging my blanket over my head and mumbling, “You’re making yourself crazy, Hosea. Just stop.”So I say I’ll stop. I say it because he won’t leave me alone otherwise. Because his eyes are tired of narrowing every time I bring up Matthew’s name. I mean it too. Or at least, I want to mean it.The dormitory buzzes with morning noise–people late for class, others too early for breakfast. Xavier yanks me out of bed with more energy than I know he has this early in the morning. “You’re
I like what I see when I look in the mirror. He likes it too. That’s why he keeps me close. I’m an ugly, horrible teenage boy. The girls never bother turning my way. The boys shove past me like I don’t exist. But him–he always notices.My lacrosse teacher.He says I’m special. Sweet. He told me he loved me last week. As long as I make him feel good, he’ll keep loving me. He’s the owner of my body. Maybe my soul too.HOSEA I promise Xavier I’ll let go.He made me swear on it this morning while half asleep, tugging my blanket over my head and mumbling, “You’re making yourself crazy, Hosea. Just stop.”So I say I’ll stop. I say it because he won’t leave me alone otherwise. Because his eyes are tired of narrowing every time I bring up Matthew’s name. I mean it too. Or at least, I want to mean it.The dormitory buzzes with morning noise–people late for class, others too early for breakfast. Xavier yanks me out of bed with more energy than I know he has this early in the morning. “You’re
SIMEONMornings are the only time this place feels honest.Before the noise starts, before people slip into the masks they wear for the rest if the day, there’s a quiet clarity to these walls. That’s why I came in early. The nightmares had done their work, tossing me out of bed before dawn with too much adrenaline and not enough rest.If I couldn’t start the day rested, I could at least start it ahead.The corridors are empty when I arrive. My footsteps echo faintly off the polished floors, sharp in the stillness, like I’m trespassing in a place that hasn’t yet remembered it’s alive. I like this version of the school. Clean. Controlled.But the stillness doesn’t last.Somewhere ahead, faint at first, comes a sound that doesn’t belong to the quiet. A breathy gasp, a soft thud, the unmistakable rhythm of skin meeting skin. I stop, not because I’m curious, but because noise this early feels like a disruption that demands to be acknowledged.The office two doors down is slightly ajar. I s
“You know the funny thing about mirrors?” The boy's voice is soft, but the classroom is so still that it might as well have been a shout. “They don’t always show you what’s really there.” I glance up confused.“What’s that supposed to mean?” He looks at me with an eerie smile before slowly walking out the classroom. What a weirdo. HOSEA Sister Monica’s office is at the far end of the administration block. The door is always open during the day, but the shadows that cluster around the doorway somehow make it feel less inviting. She sits behind a carved oak desk, papers neatly stacked to one side, a small iron cross resting on a wooden cupboard that looked large enough to hide bodies behind her. She wears her habit with precise care–immaculate and unbending. Her eyes, pale gray and sharp, find us the moment we walk in. “Come in boys,” she says, voice smooth like stone in water. “Close the door.” We obey and suddenly the room feels so much smaller. “I’ve been told there’s been
There was a time when I thought Aaron hung the damn stars in the sky. I thought no one else had a voice like his–low, slow, daring. I had felt like no other fingers could map a body the way his did, like he’d studied mine in the dark and memorized every nook and cranny, every soft gasp, every spot that made me tremble.I used to wake up thinking of him.I used to fall asleep still tasting him on my lips.Sometimes I still do. But now, he’s not here and all I have are the countless painful memories.Right now, I’m in class. Mr. Eden is droning on about colonial trade routes but the chalk keeps squealing and my thoughts are far from the blackboard. They’re in the past, tugged back to Aaron’s dorm room the night before his major exams. The fan had been busted and the room was thick with heat, sweat sticking our skins together as if the air wanted to hold us there forever.**************************************
“The scariest part about disappearance isn’t the silence–it’s how quickly everyone learns to live with it.”HOSEAThe red in my vision is slowly clearing. Xavier stands there right before me, arms wide, grinning like some comic book villain who’s missed his cue. Same haircut, same scuffed prefect badge, same untouchable confidence.My hands clench and unclench before I ball them into fists.“You think that’s funny?”“Actually? Yeah,” he says, still chuckling. “Figured you’d clock me quicker, you’re getting slow.”“I almost broke your nose!”“But you didn’t.” Xavier shrugs, as if that settles everything. “Come on, hug?”“No.” I push past him, fury buzzing under my skin. “You ignore every single text I’ve sent through the damn counsellor. I’ve called your parents several times and your grand idea of a comeback is body slamming me into the lockers? What is fucking wrong with you?”“Dramatic entrances are my thing,” he trots after me “I thought you’d appreciate the flair.”“Why did you th