Confronting Ma.

I put my hands out towards Raya as if to tell her to stop, not wanting her to get any closer.

She stops right before she runs into me with a confused look on her face.

“What’s wrong Lily?” Raya asks carefully, studying my face and the way I stood there.

“Oh, I don’t know, wolf?” Sapphire speaks out of my mouth, shocking me. I didn’t know she could do that.

Raya’s eyes go wide before looking at my mother in panic.

“Okay so Lily.. I understand now that you might have found out who we are.. what we are,” my mother begins to say, pausing as she tries to find the right words to say to me. “And I just want to tell you I did the best I could, leaving your father to be the best mom I could, and to raise you the right way. I am not sorry for it, however I guess you did have the right to know who and what you are, yes Lily you are a witch and dragon. You weren’t supposed to have a dragon you know.. female dragons are a dying species and the dragons magic is dying, male dragons are getting angry because they cannot produce anymore female dragons. They are fated to witches, wolves and vampires never having a female dragon, they will have a female vampire or wolf, there’s no hybrids, well except for you. “ ma says with a sad smile, her eyes looking so tired and done.

“I found out from Magnus when you were 9 years old that you would be a powerful female dragon and that we needed to keep you hidden from the world so you’d be safe. I never imagined how hard this would’ve been and how you would’ve found out. For that, I am sorry Lily,” she finishes. The only thing I can do is shed a few tears, nod my head and kiss her cheek.

“I understand. I don’t think I can forgive you though, mom. I am seventeen years old and deserve to know the truth about who I am, what I am! The fact you kept it from me assuming I’d never know or something isn’t like you and I expected better, no I deserved better. Oh yeah, by the way I found my “mate” and he’s a real piece of shit and I hate him already, I will never be mating or marking his sorry ass either, oh! and Raya I’m fucking livid with you and don’t want to talk to you at all. I am going to my room, locking the door and staying there all weekend and not talking to either of you at all. Goodbye. Please, respect my wishes and stay the hell away from me,” I say to them before turning and going to my bedroom.

They both had looks of regret, sadness and something else I couldn’t quite place.

But I didn’t feel bad. I felt angry.

I get to my room and question Sapphire about why my life had to be this way; why I couldn’t have been normal and left alone. I don’t want this life, I want to be normal, not powerful and destined for more.

‘It’s who we are Lily, the goddess chose us and it’s our duty to fulfill our destiny.’ Sapphire says softly, her sadness seeping into mine, ‘I will teach you how to fight and train you on our powers. We will need to practice as soon as possible.’

I agree with Sapphire and we decide to get to work right away tomorrow.. and we also need to deal with the whole “mate” guy. I still cannot believe my mom. She thinks everything she did was for the best?

I think the best thing would’ve been to teach me from a young age what I was and how to control myself and what to do instead of leaving me to figure everything out myself.

The fact I could’ve also had my dragon growing up, experienced my shift differently and less painful.

God I could go on and on but right now I can’t, I have other things to worry about and need to get this off of my mind.

I try pushing it away but I just can’t, I’m so fed up and angry I can feel my skin turning hot.

‘Lily breathe. You need to calm down, you are gonna set yourself on fire. Literally’ Sapphire says to me nervously, my anger basically radiating off of me.

I try calming down because I can literally feel the heat waves rolling off of me and the room is turning into a furnace.

Before it can light on fire I finally calm down enough to go into my bathroom and hop in the shower.

I turn the water on the coldest setting before hopping in, hoping and praying it helps my skin cool off.

The cold water does wonders to my burning hot back… making me sigh.

I can’t stop thinking back to Alexander and how he's apparently my mate..

‘I’m sorry, Lily. I know you are intrigued but.. he’s not our true mate and we don’t belong together. He's just a means to an end, he’s gonna help us get to where we need to be,’ Sapphire says vaguely. Okay then. I am intrigued though I mean yes he’s weird and gross, but hey I’m innocent! I haven’t even kissed a guy before so don’t blame me for being curious.

I stay in the shower for what feels like forever before I get out, I walk towards the mirror and start drying myself off, I dry my hair as well and wipe the mirror off. I look at my reflection in the mirror and I swear my eyes are glowing! And my hair has grown like a foot. What the hell.

‘Yes, Lily. We are changing and your eyes are glowing because of your emotions. You need to learn how to control your emotions and not let them get the better of you, or we’re screwed,’ Sapphire tells me carefully, her voice slow as she talks.

I want to listen to her but it’s all so hard, new and I don't understand any of it.

But tomorrow's a new day and we’ll figure it out together, because I’ll never be alone now that I have Sapphire.