The Night I Lost Myself

Maddison's POV

“I am going to the hospital.” I said, as I watched Fernando dress.

He turned around from the mirror, then glared at me. “What hospital?” He was annoyed.

“Lisa wants me to go to a fertility clinic in the human territory. She said she wants answers that she has connections there.” I explained to him, hoping he would come back to the realization of the truth.

But then he scoffed. “And why are you telling me?”

I took a deep breath trying to muster up courage for what I was about to say. “Lisa blames me, she is saying I cannot give her pups.”

“I thought you should explain to her the reason why I have not been pregnant.” I said and Fernando's eyes darkened.

“Explain what?”

“That you haven’t touched me in years.” I whispered sadly.

He raised his voice immediately. “Are you blaming me now?”

“No.” I said quickly.

I adjusted my glasses. “Fernando I am just saying Lisa thinks something is wrong with me, she is insulting me if you can just talk to-”

“So you want me to get into an argument with my mother?” He cut me short.

“That is not what I am saying.”

“Then what are you saying, Maddison!” He yelled and I flinched.

“You want me to force myself on you, Is that what you want now?”

I shook my head.  “No…..I am just-”

“Do whatever you want, this is your problem, go to the hospital or don't I don’t give a dime.” Fernando said and before I could process.

He grabbed his keys, brushed past me and left slamming the door hard. Tears rolled down from my eyes heavily, I glanced down at the card that was on the bed.

As I walked inside the hospital, humans were everywhere I went to the VIP section, the doctor I met was also a werewolf and I sighed in relief, several hours passed as she ran multiple tests.

“You are in perfect health Maddison.” She said when she was done.

“Everything is normal, you are very fertile.”

Of course I was fine, it was just a waste of time. I just wished Lisa would believe me. If I came clean and told her that her son hadn't touched me since I had Liam she would definitely throw me out.

After thanking the doctor I left the hospital roaming around the streets, I was too scared to go back home. Finally I stopped in front of a bar and entered the darkest corner then drowned myself with alcohol.

But it wasn't long when I heard a deep voice from behind me. I adjusted my glasses  so I could look at him properly even though my vision was already getting blurry.

He was a tall handsome man, his presence was strong and a werewolf too.

“I am Damian.” He said before taking his seat next to me.

“I am Maddison.” I murmured as my way followed his movements.

He looked at my glass. “Drink slowly.”

“I want to forget everything.” I blurted out before I could stop myself.

“That doesn’t mean you should hurt yourself in the process.” He whispered.

Damian and I drank together slowly. I could tell that he had a lot on his mind, he just listened as I spoke.

After a while, I asked. “Why are you being nice to me?”

“I don’t know, but I want to be.” He said and I nodded.

Several hours passed, I glanced at my phone and I saw that it was almost midnight. I stood up in fear, but a tripping Damian's hand caught me in time.

“I think I drank too much.”

“I know, let me take you somewhere safe.” He said.

“Why?” I whispered.

He then looked directly into my eyes. “Because I don’t want to leave you like this.”

When we entered the hotel room Damian guided me toward the bed.

“You need to rest.”  He said softly.

I didn't know what came over me. I moved forward and touched his face. Damian froze because of my actions. He was surprised.

“Maddison.”  He murmured.

“You are drunk.”

“I know.” I said, my voice was already shaking.

“But I don't know I feel safe with you.”

“I don’t want to take advantage of you.” Damian whispered.

“You are not.” I whispered.

“I just… I don’t want to be alone tonight.”

He then held my wrists gently, but he didn't push me away. “Are you sure?”

“Yes.”

Damian kissed me slowly at first but then deeper, I held onto his shirt he then lifted me carefully on the bed. His hands were gentle there was no anger, his hands went all over and I felt human something that I had forgotten how it felt

He whispered my name like I mattered to him, my moans filled the entire room. He was gentle, making me feel all the pleasure that was suppressed within me.

The night ended with us tangled together, breathing softly against each other's skin.

My eyes fluttered open slowly as the reflection of the light hit my face, my head throbbed, I turned around slowly and I saw Damian beside me naked and fast asleep.

Everything went still.

“No… no, no…” I whispered, bringing a hand to  cover my mouth.

I sat up quickly, I could hear the way my heart was beating and the memories of last night rushed in.

“Oh God.” I whispered.

I scrambled from the bed, my clothes were scattered across the floor, my dress, my bra and his shirt.

“I cheated…” I choked out as the tears flowed down profusely.

“Oh God, what did I do…”

My hands shook hard as I grabbed my clothes and dressed as fast as possible. I did not look in the mirror, I couldn't look at him.

When I reached the door I looked back at Damian who was still peacefully, unaware of who I was. I choked on a sob as I thought about the mess I had created. I opened the door.

And ran I just ran down the hallway and out of the hotel weeping in agony.