Intermission - Story Break

My wonderful lovely readers. My gosh this one has been a journey hasn’t it. I feel like I haven’t talk to you all in forever. Mostly because I’ve been setting up chapters to post in the future and I can’t do an author note when that happens.

First, I want to say thank you. Thank you so so much. I’m sure the past months have been a bit frustrating when I comes to updates (don’t worry - it’s not just you). So baring with me and sticking it out, means more to me than you could possibly imagine.

Second, I want to say this is not the end. This is an intermission. A break or hiatus if you want to call it. With updates being so scarce, I’m sure you’re thinking that I should have done this earlier. And maybe I should have. I wanted to push and get to a point though where I felt okay and not like I was going to regret stepping away for a moment.

So far, this story has 125 chapters. That is my second longest (behind Shift) and we currently have 252,800 words. That is nuts! That’s more than Twilight and New Moon combined! Hahaha!

However, I feel like I have so much more to tell of their story. I could cut it off here, I guess. I would hate it though. I don’t mind open endings, but that’s a little TOO open. There was always a plan for more. There is always more to their story.

This issue is now that I don’t have the buffer I did. I don’t have as much written for this last part. I’ve also been in this story and writing this story for so long that I feel my eyes crossing. At times it was easy and at times it was hard getting the words out on paper. I’m only human, after all.

So I want to give myself time with this one. Time to marinate in all the changes I’ve made over the course of writing it. Marinate in the future, despite having certain scenes finished, there is so much between that hasn’t been said or every built. I don’t want to end their story when they still have growing to do.

Silas, even after coming to, still needs to learn where his place is now. How to move forward, and how much he wants to Nate. Yes, he wants to him, but as he said…it could very well ruin all his chances with Nate. So would you, as a person with someone you want a second chance with, tell them something like that? Or would you keep it to yourself?

Then on Nate’s side. The mere thought of forgiving Silas. After everything. And it isn’t even forgiving him necessarily. It’s more, trusting him and allowing him back into his kids life. Is that something you would do? Or would you just give him the middle finger?

All these things, these thoughts and feelings, take time to come across on a page. Haha. I wish it were so simple to just pluck the scenes out of my brain and cut out the middle man of taking up the time to write, but alas, I’m thwarted by my own typing speed.

There is never a story I don’t finish. Sometimes I need a break and this the longest running story, where I feel like I haven’t kicked over the iceberg yet. With Shift, there was only 50,000 words left and we were heading into the end climax. Whereas, I already have 20,000 words written and I haven’t written the climax/ending yet. AAAAAAH.

I need a break though. I’m sorry I couldn’t write out everything and just push it all out. I thought I could, but life got in the way. I understand if you’re upset. I take it with full responsibility and trust me when I say I am bowing humbly. Sickness, depression, kids in and out of ER, life changes, pain, more sickness…so much sickness…has thrown me over and over and yet I do still try my best.

That might not be enough. A sorry might not be enough, but I am. I am frustrated so much with my own limitations. I wish I could do more. I hope to do more in the future. Right now, I just have to do what I can. For me and for my characters and my stories that mean so much to me.

As I said. I will be back! I’ll actually be breaking for another story or two on here I think. I don’t have a guarantee. It’s just this one is so chunky and so emotional, I need to time. I might write some fluff in between. Like I did with Alpha Desmond (and Promises Forgotten). Then coming back with a fresh mind and ready to tackle it once again.

Again, thank you so much! Your support means so much to me. I hope, at the very least, you have gotten so much out of the 125 chapters that have transpired. So much between them. Growth and withering of very human interactions wrapped up in very elaborate werewolf fluff. ^_^

I love you all. <3 Thank you thank you.

- Mish

PS! I’m putting up the entire timeline (all…12+ pages of notes) on my Sub - Stack. Which you can search my name and find me. Or ‘Flip the Page’. I’ve got so many notes…so many…to keep track of everyone over the months and years, including what date every - single - chapter is on. All of it. So if you’re interested in that, it’s something I’m going to be posting soon (having to scan it all first).